Saturday, January 31, 2004

made up for all those lost sleep due to relief teaching today.. woke up at 12+pm but had an absolutely bitching headache.. i could barely stand upright. there was a moment when my vision just turned blur and my world turned black.. i was seriously freaked out. thought i was going to faint.

made some toast for brunch then settled down to watch tv.. halfway through i realised i have a slight fever.. yv called at abt 3 to ask if i wanna go to suntec.. apparently zj had some problems regarding maa tix. but i really was feeling lethargic and basically absolutely horrible that i just said no without giving much explanation.. fell asleep on the couch soon after and slept all the way till 6 thereabout. woke up feeling much better.

MANCHESTER UNITED 3 - 2 Southampton
the two teams fought it out on a cold afternoon on a soggy pitch but it turned out to be an absolutely entertaining and yet controversial match. first goal was scored by man utd's new signing louis saha. saha took a free kick, which deflected off kevin phillips's head. then paul scholes scored man utd's second goal when saints' keeper antti niemi spilled saha's long range shot. kevin phillips pulled one back for saints when his shot was deflected off team mate brett ormerod's arm pass utd's keeper tim howard. damn this goal shouldn't be allowed in the first place..
2nd half: phillips scored with a beautiful long range shot to equalise but the goal was controversial again. ormerod was offside but referee decided not to award the offside cos mikael silvestre intercepted the ball. cristiano ronaldo then took a free kick which deflected off fernandes's hand but referee judged it to be outside the penalty area and awarded man utd a free kick instead. cock eye man.. ronaldo then took the free kick again and this time, ruud van nistelrooy scored.. lots of misses from both teams after van nistelrooy scored but the score remained at 3-2.. so van nistelrooy scores his 99th premioer league goal for mancheter united and man utd go top of the table for at least 24 hours. all that is left is for man city to beat arsenal tomorrow.. heehee.

was feeling a bit emotional just now (not because of the match la).. and oh yeah, i realised i miss a lot of things about vj.. not the mugging but the things i do.. the place, my friends, jogging to ecp with huiying and joyce, basically all the things we do out of mugging.. if ya'll reading this gals, I MISS ALL OF YOU!! cant wait till next friday's dinner! *mUaKzZ*


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a fLoWeR with PC in the middle..

had svap meeting on thurs evening.. i was a lil late due to traffic.. meeting was good and productive.. cuiting treated us to nuggets, fish dippers, drinks and fries.. heehee. not to mention we discovered alvin is actually a girl.. he has super neat handwriting uses purple ink.. later i went home with weiling.. actually alvin was on the bus too but i didnt realise it until when i was about to get off the bus..

yday....
my slackest day.. had triple 3D then double 3C.. halfway thru my lesson with 3C, their form teacher ms leow came in to speak with the class.. asked them not to come up with any funny business.. can see that the whole class is quite scared of her..then when she left, the class continued doing their hwk and these 4 boys who already finished their work started talking to me..
Boy A: m'am why u not fierce to us like ms leow one?
Boy B: ya lor, esp when those people (*points to the boys at the back*), u have to be fierce one..
woah, this is the first time i have people telling me that i have to be fiercer.. cool. i told them that i dont want to be the most hated teacher in vs, then they told me smthg like, never mind wat, i relief for 3weeks only, no one will remember that i am very fierce one la.. true. hee. but no la, i'm not that kinda person.

oh yeah, those monkeys from 3G came to apologise to me in the morning yesterday.. called me in the staff room saying they got work to hand in, then asked me to go out and see them.. then they apologised for their behaviour.. i was truly surprised.. so i accepted it and they looked relieved.. heehee. later i told gb about it and he was saying like "what on earth happened to vs guys, how come they will apologise to teachers willingly one.." what can i say? sometimes the killer stare does more than ranting and raving in class. hmmm i shall employ that tactic more often..

in the late afternoon, i went down to suntec.. went to tower records and then i realised huifang works there.. she offered me a 20% discount off the original price for any cd i buy.. heehee. so i browsed around and listened to no doubt's compilation album and it is good.. am tinking of buying it.. has all their best singles and basically it is one kick-ass album. then out of nowhere, i have this strong impulse to buy justin timberlake's album.. but it was out of stock.. sigh. later went to shop around with gb, then met up with bain n yv for prata dinner.. no joking, the prata is good.. can understand bain's intense liking for it.. hahaa.

after dinner, yv n i went shopping.. and i FINALLY bought my wallet!! it is so so so SO nice! it's the latest pierre cardin series where the logo is a flower with PC in the middle.. i bought the longish one.. but it's so SO expensive too.. $74-odd.. just because it is pierre cardin.. but i feel so happy after buying it! it is a good investment k! and i'm not a spendthrift.. my old wallet is damn worn out liao.. after that, i spent $30-odd buying clothes cos i'm absolutely out of working clothes liao.. all in all, a great retail therapy session!


------ Thursday, January 29, 2004

today is so-so.. took a flu tablet last nite so i was (and am still) feeling groggy and retarded.. so although i only have 5 periods of lessons today, i feel very tired mentally.. had 3C for the first time and that class is tokong man.. all quite smart one. and even got about one third of the class said "m'am give more work la".. best so i obliged and gave them 13 qns instead of 9.. that means more stuff for me to mark.. they were a little noisy and rowdy but hahaa, mr chia the OM walked past and suddenly, there was golden silence., mr chia is very effective.. 3G is so so today.. the asst monitor is a rascal man.. he's a ringleader. sort of. but some guys boys were so rowdy that i told them to shut up (and i still said "please") and gave them a killer stare.. later after the lesson they tried to apologise but i refused to see them.. went to attend to another boy instead. hope they got the (obvious) sign that i'm unhappy with their behaviour. today i didnt notice what they are saying cos i wasnt feeling too good...so no excerpts..

actually my day is quite slack today.. just now in between lessons, i had 4 breaks so i ended up chatting with gb on msn.. heehee.. then now all the teachers went for contact time so the staff room is practically empty.. even talked to bain using the school phone just now.. hee hee.

haiz now i have a lot of slack time to spare.. just lost the mood to mark books.. the moment i look down, all the fluids in my nose start to threaten to flow out. i'm breathing through my mouth now.. just saw some xelibri phone and i thought it looked like teletubbies.. lol. anw, later have svap meeting at 7pm at bras basah macso yeah, have time to spare now.. my guess is that i wont be able to blog tonight so i'm blogging now.. hee hee.

i wonder what happens when the relief teacher falls sick.. '@_@"


------ Wednesday, January 28, 2004

a much better day..

it's official.. i have a runny nose that's flowing like a tap.. think they will all laugh at my voice tomorrow.. and guess what? i ran out of clarinase! damn.

today is a much better day in terms of teaching.. had triple 3G in the morning and i got quite a shock.. there are 3 people in the class who remind me of people i know.. there's this g*** l** guy who totally reminded me of alexis.. looks like him and yan2 xing2 ju3 zhi3 is also like him.. quite freaky.. then the guy sitting beside him is a bit like chun wei.. but cw is cuter.. an the monitor looks like alex.. talks like alex and moves like alex also.. i almost called him alex.. but 3G is nice to me.. listened to me, talked crap with me.. tried to guess my sec sch and my age.. they guessed cedar correctly cos one guy has a sister in cedar.. but i insisted i am 30.. but hee hee, they said i looked like 16 or 17 =))... did i say today is a good day? even 3F is nice to me! they even praised my teaching hee hee.. 3D wasnt as good but i guess that's because it's my first lesson with them only.. once again, some excerpts that i found worthy of mentioning:

in 3G:
Boy A: Aey how to do this question ah?
Boy B: aiyah so easy u also dont know how to do ah? just --- (he was then interrupted)
Boy A: orh orh aiyah i know liao
Boy B: then you ask for what?
Boy C: you dont know he's gong meh?
Boy A: #$^#$%Y% (softly and laughingly)

in 3F:
Boy D: M'am, why cant you teach us A Maths also?
me: *flattered* i am teaching e maths only..
Boy D: then you take over zuraimi la..
me: i am relief teaching only.. then i will further my studies later in the year
Boy E: u going to study what? masters degree ah?
me: no la, not so smart.. aiyah you already have A Maths teacher what..
Boy E: huh that mrs tay? (imitates mrs tay talking) .......
Boy F: we kill her then you come and teach us la
me: *speechless*
heehee i bet they wont say that from next week onwards when i have to pia co-ordinate geometry within 1 week.. they will start hating me then.

yay tomorrow i only have 5 lessons.. not to mention that the teachers have contact time in the afternoon so the staff room will be empty.. hurray.. oh yes, hafta go search for stuff for tomorrow's svap meeting.. ciao =)



------ Tuesday, January 27, 2004

yeah decided to change back to this template cos i liked it better.. i like black, white and grey a lot...

whoever in the world who says that relief teaching is easy probably has never and has no intentions to try relief teaching cos i can tell u, it's one exhausting affair!! had triple 4J in the morn at 9 and i tell u, it wasnt a pleasant first impression. reason being that they just at PE. gosh can u imagine the stench? (note the word stench, not smell) i almost fainted.. heehee it's comical to think of it now.. and this 4J class tried to be funny.. when i asked who's the e maths rep, 3 people raised up their hands.. 3 more said they're monitors and/or asst monitors.. grrr.. luckily the asst monitor helped me out.. those bunch of fools.. anw i had to teach intersection of loci and regions of loci today.. it's so easy that i spent half and hour out of 1hr 45 mins to teach.. then i just set hwk and let them spend the next hr 15 mins to do it.. quite slack.. just walk here walk there and answer some individual qns occasionally.. then i had 1 break and it's off to a 3 hr marathon of double 4B and triple 3J.. 4B was very kind to me.. even the notorious zher ming.. some comical stuff was said:

Boy A: aey december 2 is on which day ah?
Boy B: u stupid ah? december 2 is so far away liao. gong3 ah?
Boy A: shut up la, i said feb 2
Boy B: .................

oh i found out the name of the kevin-lookalike.. yap chow i tink.. today i thought he looked like garry (much cuter than garry thou).. actually vs guys got hope.. got one or 2 not bad ones in my sec 4 classes..

3J is horrible.. damn noisy.. but luckily again got some guai1 people so they helped me out.. and this happened:

Boy C: m'am, u how old ah?
me: i'm 30
Boy C: m'am dont bluff la.
Boy D: aey u stupid ah, woman's age is secret la!
me: *tries hard not to laugh*

my legs are aching now.. stood for abt 5 hours today.. later stayed back to mark books, left vs at only abt 5pm.. having a slightly itchy throat now.. brought back some of 4B's stuff to mark and it's damn difficult to mark loci qns.. still have plan tmr's lesson cos i have 7 lessons with 3 classes tmr but i'm very tired.. brain's intelligence department shutting down liao.. shall plan them during my free periods tmr.. now whoever said relief teaching is easy?

p.s. yv, i'm officially jealous of your ot rate la! heehee.. shall we meet up on fri for dinner?

p.p.s. gb, jia1 you2.. try to reach that 100 sales then u'll finally get better commission.. heehee.. i may be dropping by suntec soon cos i wanna go wallet shop to get my pierre cardin wallet! yipee.. =)




------ Monday, January 26, 2004

heehee seems i'm the last to blog about yesterday (for once, yv is faster than me).. yday paradorn srichaphan lost to agassi 7-6 (7/3), 6-3, 6-4 but i tell you, srichaphan displayed one of the bravest performances i've ever seen.. although he made many unforced errors.. but halfway through the match he broke his toe nail (either that or something worse happened) and later injured his ankle but still carried on playing.. it's no wonder he's so popular everywhere he goes.. if he didnt make that many unforced errors, he would have beaten agassi..

manchester united beat northampton town 3-0, with goals by mikael silvestre, diego forlan and an own goal by chris carruthers.. not a fantastic or classic performance but ronaldo displayed a ryan giggs-like performance man.. it's a fine performance considering man utd started with carroll; o' shea, brown, silvestre, fortune; ronaldo, butt, fletcher, scholes; forlan, bellion.. on the bench were howard, keane, richardson and bardsley.. no giggs, van nistelrooy, gary and phil neville.. and saha is cup-tied.. good match nonetheless..

okayy back to yday.. met up with yv and gb at abt 6 at suntec.. that gb is best. if ever there is a "most hardworking employee" award, it has to go to him! that guy is supposed to be working but he called at 5+ saying he may be late cos he's eating at millenia walk with his colleagues.. hahaa.. and we thought it was bad enough that we're going to watch last samurai later.. oooh talk abt last samurai.. it's a fAntAsTiC show!! can be compared to lord of the rings man.. although i think lotr still wins in terms of storyline and of cos, viggo mortensen and orlando bloom :) but last samurai is also super watch-able, i strongly recommend u to watch it if you havent.. both yv and i found it fantastic and touching.. had dinner with yv after the movie then went home with gb..

today..
went to vs to "observe" how mr z teaches.. went to his 4J class and there was an instant reaction as expected.. that class is quite tiao2 pi2 man.. there're only 26 students.. mr z say supposed to have 35 but one student was "caught doing something wrong and was asked to withdraw from school".. he's in siglap sec now.. 3 are retained in sec 3 and 5 others have dropped out of vs to attend normal academic.. gosh what class do i have here? oh there's this guy that i thought joyce would like though.. dont know his name but his looks and mannerisms remind me of kevin! (but kevin is much much much better looking that this guy).. tall, with specs, the whole lot.. i thought of joyce the moment i saw him.. hahaa..

tomorrow's gonna be a long day, i have lessons all the way till 2.15pm with only 1 break in between.. got triple period with 4B, double with 4J and another triple with 3F.. sheesh.. gonna teach loci to the sec 4s (luckily there's no such thing as complex numbers in e maths) and algebraic manipulation and co-ordinate geometry to the sec 3s.. well wish me luck.





------ Sunday, January 25, 2004

yesterday (chu 2) was nothing much.. basically eat and gamble at my gran's house..
oh yeah i dreamt of min quan and my daddy last night.. it was a weird and awkward dream which left me feeling unsettled. hmphh. saw mq today at gran's house and i felt even more unsettled. double hmphh.

today (chu 3) ... woke up late, went to have lunch with my family at crystal jade.. my dad just cant stop praising the food.. then went my granny's house to gamble again.. then went to yv's house to play mj at 6.. had a fantastic steamboat dinner (thx, yv!).. lost 70cents though but it's okayy.. it's cny.. heehee.

oh, everyone must tune in to supersports ch22 tomorrow okayy! because they're going to show Australian Open Round 4: Andre Agassi vs Paradorn Srichapan! ooh cant wait.. dont know the timing though, it'll be anytime from 8am to 4pm.. and not dont forget to tune in to ch22 again at midnight.. MANCHESTER UNITED vs northampton, FA Cup 4th round.. yeah, tomorrow will be a watch-sports day.. heehee.. i kinda miss playing soccer and tennis..


------ Friday, January 23, 2004

happy cny!

first of all, happy cny to everyone! gong xi fa cai..

reunion dinner last night was great.. had 2 kinds of vegetables, drunken prawns, chicken (shao1 ji1..the kind u find in chicken rice) and the steamboat stuff.. yum.. went home after dinner, did some last minute cleaning up of my house.. then played mj with my dad, mum and bro.. won a bit initially but in the end both my dad and my mum took their turns to man3 tai2 quite a few times.. so i lost abt $6..

woke up at 8+ this morn, followed my parents to the temple and u'll never guess who i saw.. kuah wei qi !! oh my, how qiao3 can things get.. think he saw me too.. i didnt say hi to him though, we arent exactly good friends.. i pointed him out to my family and got different reactions: 1) bro: "quite style la, his shirt looks branded" .... 2) mum: "not bad, tall and strong but why so beng one?" .... 3) dad: "wah lao, so beng! not nice la.. your friend ah?" .......... hahaa..

went to my grand aunt's house after that.. had a great time catching up with everyone n of course, collecting ang baos from everyone.. left slightly after noon and we (my cousins and i) went to watch our annual cny movie.. serene jie wanted to watch peter pan but jason watched it liao, then got people wanna watch ghost story (huh ghost story on cny?!).. but in the end we went to watch silver hawk..the latest show by michelle yeoh and ritchie ren.. not bad, it's quite nice.. quite funny.. oh jason is now an insurance agent and he's gonna appear in the money section of the straits times soon.. as an advertisement la.. he was boasting about it.. (jason is the one that i say is quite cute one but his actions quite slow.. like very laid back one..) then he told me "jiahui ah, go and tell your friends k.. but if they see me shuai4 and ask for my number right, dont give them ah.. if not i will be very busy" .... '-_-lll" bEsT.. (okayy i fulfilled the first part of his wish and told everyone liao ah)

went to my other granny's house after the movie.. played mj again and i won abt $13!! hahaa because they play in slightly bigger denominations.. and oh man.. they showed justin timberlake on channel i !! hahaa he looks so so cute! even my aunt says his music is not bad.. and she only heard him sing "gone" and "rock your body".. watched american idol at 10.. was pretty amused by some of the contestants.. some have truly horrible voices man..

yeapz that's about it for today.. i'm feeling happy cos i finally told edwin about something i should have told him some time ago.. glad he's fine with it.. =)

happy lunar new year, everyone!


------ Wednesday, January 21, 2004

i finally know what the song is! this song has been stuck in my head since dont know when but today i was in my daddy's car when perfect 10 played it and jean danker declared the singer and the title.. it's "you and i both" by jason mraz! the same dude who sang "remedy (i wont worry)".. eh actually i dont think "you and i both" is a nice song but i like this part:

"cuz you and I both loved
what you and I spoke of
and others just read of
and if you could see now
well then I'm already finally out of
I'm finally ow-ow-out of
Finally de-de-de-de-de-de-de
Well I'm almost finally, finally out of words.

emphasis: the de-de-de-de-de-de-de part.. heehee.

but currently i really like this song even though i'm not much of a beyonce fan:


All the ladies if you feel me, help me sing it now...

I can't believe I believed
everything we had would last
so young and naive for me to think
she was from your past
silly of me to dream of
one day having your kids
love is so blind
it feels right when it's wrong

I can't believe i fell for your schemes
im smarter than that
so dumb and naive to believe that with me
you're a changed man
foolish of me to compete
when you cheat with loose women
it took me some time but now i've moved on

because i realised i got
me myself and i
that's all i got in the end
that's what i found out
and it aint no need to cry
i took a vow that from now on
i'm gonna be my own best friend

me myself and i
that's all i got in the end
that's what i found out
and it aint no need to cry
i took a vow that from now on
i'm gonna be my own best friend

so controlling, you said that you love me
but you don't
your family told me one day
i would see it on my own
next thing i know i'm dealing
with your three kids and my home
i've been so blind
it feels right when its wrong

now that it's over
stop calling me
come pick up your clothes
no need to front like you're still with me
all your homies know
even your very best friend
tried to warn me on the low
it took me some time
but now i am strong

because i realised i got
me myself and i
that's all i got in the end
that's what i found out
and it aint no need to cry
i took a vow that from now on
i'm gonna be my own best friend

me myself and i
that's all i got in the end
that's what i found out
and it aint no need to cry
i took a vow that from now on
i'm gonna be my own best friend

me myself and i
i know that i will never disappoint myself
all the ladies if you feel me
help me sing it now
yeah, you hurt me
but i learned a lot along the way
after all the rain
you'll see the sun come out again
i know that i will never disappoint myself

"Me, Myself and I" ~ Beyonce Knowles


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went to meet gb, yv, jz, bain n hy for dinner yesterday at suntec.. had dinner at kenny's. poor bain darling only had half an hour to eat.. later me, hy, yv and jz went shopping but yv n jz left earlt cos yv wasnt feeling well.. so me and hy combed suntec.. hy wanted to buy cny clothes but there wasnt anything to buy! guess we were just too sick of suntec.. met bain after she knocked off.. she was with her parents and brother. i tell u, her bro, although the same age as my bro (sec 4) is like much better.. hahaa. went to talk to gb.. later bain went off with her parents to chinatown so me n hy slacked around and wait for gb to knock off.. see we so nice rite.. ya hahaa we just want a free cab ride.. went outside suntec to have drinks then later gb went back to sign off and stuff while me and hy queued for the cab.. waited for quite long.. and so we got a free cab ride.. cos someone can claim from company expenses if the cab is taken after midnite..

today is cny eve.. yay cant wait for the reunion dinner.. heehee. happy chinese new year everyone..


------ Monday, January 19, 2004

rejected the telesales job today.. decided to stick with relief teaching after all.. partly bcos mr z called me in the morn sounding so excited.. heehee. was already on the bus to suntec when i decided to just call the telesales coy ppl to say i wont be going.. so i went straight to find bain.. i think i've been finding bain so often even amber knows me.. she smiled at me today. and the supervisor recognised me too.. went to have lunch with her n gb.. after that, we went to walk around carrefour cos bain wanna buy cny goodies but in the end she didnt buy anything.. walked around and went to visit pk..

went to town to meet yv to shop.. we both hafta buy office wear and more importantly, heels.. walked around for some time but it wasnt fruitful.. honestly speaking, mango clothes are degenerating pretty badly.. some stuff that i've seen today.. eewww..
went to topshop to try our luck.. saw lots of red stuff! as i've told bain, red is the in colour of 2004! wanted to buy a pullover but didnt see any.. almost gave up liao but some red clothings caught my eye... went to check it out and it was a red pullover! ohmigosh it's so nice.. couldnt resist the temptation so i bought it.. and it was on discount!! around $23.. cheap rite?? heehee..
later we went to far east.. managed to buy heels there.. aargghh they will kill me if the vs guys havent managed to do that first :(

oh angela called.. she say will continue looking out for jobs after feb 18 for me..

all in all, a nice day..


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wEiRdOz

okayy that bernard dude is a bit of a weirdoz.. rem that guy? the one who found my profile thru the samsung website.. was checking my mail just now n i realised that on sat morning 8+ am he sent me an email on info abt man utd vs wolves being shown at devils bar (man utd southeast asain supporters club official hangout) n he added in a line asking if i'm interested to go.. s.c.a.r.y.. i just ignored it since it's over anw.. then he sent me another email on sun aftnn replying my previous mail n asking like how was my weekend and everything.. eeks i shall forget to answer that too.. then he asked for my number n of cos i didnt give that.. some more msgs like that n i will completely ignore his emails man..


------ Sunday, January 18, 2004

have i ever said that guilt is the worst feeling.. hah what i'm feeling now is a little bit of guilt. cos i think i did something i shouldn't do. bain darling i need to tell u this.. cos i will feel better cos i know you asked before. hope i'm making sense.. shall tell u when i see you online k.

lately something's different. it may just be my one-sided thinking but i think even if it is so, it's not entirely my fault cos certain signs are indeed showing. some feelings are becoming obvious and i, for one, am at a loss cos i cant be certain. certain stuff are beginning to sound as though there's a double meaning and i dont respond cos i dont to take advantage of the hao3 xin1 of certain people that's why i have been reluctant. hope the person involved knows.

and on the topic of guilt, there's something i wanna say. i have been thinking of shifting blog add (aka changing the domain) cos i think there are too many people reading this.. but i think and think and came to the conclusion that over here, the stuff will go on.. i will update on my life and stuff but i have started another weblog on another site.. no longer blogspot.. my friend intro-ed another weblog host to me and the functions are quite okayy i guess.. this will be the one where i will write the darker stuff.. i really dont wanna freak anyone out here. so yeah, u can try asking for that add if you want but to tell you or not, that's up to me..


------ Saturday, January 17, 2004

it's certainly been an eventful day.. 2 job offers today..the telesales person called to say i got the job.. so did uob. but i chose telesales in the end for certain reasons that i cant really be bothered to say..

went shopping with my mum at suntec.. bought clothes frm bossini n g2000.. went to visit bain n tell her that i may work in suntec too.. then accompanied my mum to buy eh, bedsheet covers.. later went to visit gb.. talked for a while then we went to visit bain again.. can u believe he actually thought of buying a shirt from sisley. shopped with him for a while n decided that sisley clothes for guys are either 1) quite gay-ish or 2)just not nice.. so sorrie, bain darling.. left after a while to meet my mum n go home for dinner..

talk abt dinner.. my family dinner is postponed till tomorrow.. we're gonna go europa for steamboat buffet.. yay.. by "family", i mean my mother's side and it includes granny, dad, mum, 4 aunts, 2 uncles, 2 cousins, my bro and me.. yay i'm looking forward to it. heehee

talked to edwin just now over icq..quite comical when he was telling me abt his cleaning duties... edwin shuai, all the way.. i was really amused just now..


------ Friday, January 16, 2004

pIg oUt dAy

well i had an unintentional pig out day today.. i certainly wasnt expecting it!

went to suntec for job interview with yv today.. some telemarketing sales thingy selling credit cards and credit lines so ya, even if i get the job, rest assured i wont bug all of u with phone calls.. actually now i'm not that enthu abt the telesales job anymore cos have quota to reach daily.. am thinking of just taking the vs job then after that then find again lor.. sIgHz it's no wonder i'm still unemployed..

oh ya, i talked to terence on the phone today.. he's the one working in the bank and helping me find jobs.. uh nothing much, just called to thank him for his help and i think his voice is damn nice.. never seen him in person before but from his voice, i can envision him to be quite shuai.. hope that if i ever see him, it wont be a disappointment.. heehee!

later me n yv slacked at the foodcourt.. yv is cRaZy.. kept singing indian songs.. must be because sOmEoNe (read: e-manual) is in australia la.. heehee.. went to look for gb later.. then we had dinner at food court.. or rather, me n yv had dinner, he just sat there.. OH i saw kevin! he looks like some super shuai male lead in those japanese anime.. c-u-t-e! msged joycelyn honey to tell her.. i tell u, i can smell her jealousy all the way from tampines.. hahaa..

later me n yv went to the svap meeting at bras basah mac.. we were the first to reach.. uh we shouldn't have eaten dinner la! cos gavin was late and he had to treat us... to one large ice lemon tea, 2 large fries n 9 piece nuggets! hahaa.. so we ate while we discussed.. meeting went on okayy i guess.. got quite some comical stuff.. then later after the meeting, we had choc cake! because bain darling's birthday is on jan 22 so it's like an early celebration for her.. ya so we ate again.. how sinful! took some pictures, which will be available either on gavin's blog or on our yahoo groups.. shall upload it to let u all see yv's chou3 xiang4.. hahaa! oh yeah, cuiting's getting married in june! WOAH.. heehee we all agreed she got the motherly look..
oh yeah, also discovered that vanessa knows wingyee and she was in vj for the 1st 3 months last yr.. wonders never cease.. she was from reihai..

left bb mac at 10 odd, called gb to see if he's going home but that slacker is already home.. apparently that slacker left work at 9.30.. bEsT '-_-lll"


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change skin aGaIn

hee hee the skin is changed again.. i've long wanted a lotr one but i couldn't find a nice one till this one came along.. the legolas one is also nice but claris took it already.. it's okayy, i think viggo mortensen is better. damn i'm really into 30-something men huh.. that's their best age.. okayy maybe if i find a viggo mortensen one then i'll change skin again.. or make that a man utd one..


------ Thursday, January 15, 2004

went to seletar camp at noon with my dad.. i'm just curious.. the officers there quite shuang one.. all those sign on ones.. free time go to the mass, da3 dian4 dong4, play pool, watch tv, drink.. then later followed my dad to bishan to "deliver" the keropoks to my aunts.. well it beats sitting at home doing nothing..

met gb at cine at abt 4.30pm.. went to watch lotr 3.. fInaLLy! heehee.. it is a nice show.. Viggo Mortensen (Aragorn) and Orlando Bloom (Legolas) looked really really good.. the storyline is superb too.. but how closely it follows the book, i'll only know when i read it, which may take anytime from a few months to a year.. but i think there should be more of Aragorn! after all, it's Return Of The King right.. throughout the whole movie, i kept thinking of the book.. like when Elrond, Arwen, Celeborn and Galadriel make their appearances, i kept thinking about the Council of Elrond at Rivendell (in FOTR) and the times at Lothlorien.. aNd now i know Galadriel is also a ring bearer.. the Ring of Adamant..

OH i finish reading Fellowship Of The Ring liao!! i just finished it about ten minutes ago =) it ended with the breaking of the Fellowship and the death of Boromir.. not to mention the fantastic brave roles of Aragorn, Legolas and Gimli.. 3 cheers..

p.s. gb i promise to tell you more about why frodo left after i finish reading Return Of The King okayy.. :p


------ Wednesday, January 14, 2004

had a perfectly boring day today.. u wouldnt believe what i did.. woke up at 9+, went to watch this jap show called "my teacher is a gangster" on ch56.. a bit like GTO but the teacher is female this time.. oh n i'm catching this show that's showing on mon and tues on ch56 10am called double score.. cos it has takashi sorimachi! heehee.. aft the show, i went to watch bruce almighty on my comp.. then i felt so damn bo liao that i went to funtrivia.com to do all those trivia qns.. did mainly on lotr movies n lotr the books.. realised there are quite some significant differences.. cos i could have scored high in those movie quizzes.. for those who have read as well as watched lotr-fotr: in the movie, at the entrance of the mines of moria, who was the one who solved the riddle and got the answer to open the doors of durin? (ie at the portion of "speak, friend, and enter") book answer: gandalf, with merry on the right track in the first place. movie answer: frodo.. now u get what i'm trying to say..

oh on the topic of reading lotr.. i'm at "farewell to lorien" liao.. heehee! i was totally engrossed.. 2 and a half chapters more and i'll finish reading fellowship of the ring! although i cant really get what everything meant.. a lot of poems, songs etc, lots and lots of narration.. and i'm so infatuated with Strider/the Dunadan/Aragorn son of Arathorn!! his character is just so brave.. and everytime i read about what he does, i think of viggo mortensen and i swoon.. heehee! not swoon la.. but more like "w-a-h!!!"

oh my bro is watching wwe wrestling now and just now the rock was singing some funny dumb song.. cos wwe is in sacromento n he was singing about how he dont like to be in sacromento, how sacromento is a sucky place to live in.. it was damn damn comical! and at the end, he sang this line:
"sacramento, sacramento, i wont stay..
but i'll be sure to come back when the lakers beat the kings in may"
okayy u have to hear it yourself to find it funny =)

msged nicholas just now.. very comical.. nicholasisgay. oh no i didnt say that.. shifuisgay. i didnt say that either.. i would love to post the contents of that nc-16 comment (it wasnt dirty la..) but as a good student, i shant expose my shifu.. heehee..
nicholasisgay. shifuisgay. nicisgay.nicshifuisgay. abigfatgay.


------ Tuesday, January 13, 2004

p.s.

as for the weird stuff i said yesterday.. i realised those are raw emotions, and are like, quite true. i never meant to freak anyone out or hurt anyone or make anyone feel bad thou. i see no point in doing it but i do realise if i say some stuff, it may affect others too.. so i'm really sorry if what i say is not to your liking or what you know jiahui as. cos there are two jiahuis.. one is jiahui when she's outside, it's the jiahui most people know. the other is jiahui when she's inside.. who is the same as jiahui when she's outside except that she's a bit more vulgar and a bit more dark.. but fret not, jiahui wont go off writing swear words on her blog. at least, she'll try to control herself..

i may be writing more stuff like that, this is my blog after all. if all u wanna read is a bright rosy picture of my life, getout. and i mean geddout nOw. bAnG.


p.s talk abt swear words: did i ever mention that my bro's form teacher uses swear words in class.. serious! when his students dont hand in their d&t work (he's the d&t teacher n only guys take d&t in my bro's sch), he'll go "f*** you la, why u never hand in your work?" hahaa.. let's call him mr c alright.. so mr c was telling my bro's class abt a person who, when getting out of his car, scratched mr c's car accidentally. so mr c was like *LoOkS oUtsIde tHe cLaSs* "okayy there's no one around so i tell you all ah.. eh sorry to the girls if you cannot take it. but you know what i did? i wrote a note to the person! i wrote: 'f*** you la, why you scratch my car?' " hAhAaHa!!!!!!! it was just so comical! there are some more stories involving mr c and swear words.. i'll save them for next time..


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a-R-a-G-o-R-n

dId yA'LL sEe mY pReViOuS eNtRy??!! i got ARAGORN!! yay.. didnt i say viggo mrotensen is so sexy.. heh heh it's the 30-odd x-factor.. oh i actually mistook one orlando bloom's pic as j.T! (j.T = jUsTin tiMbErLakE).. his real person la, not the legolas image..

anyway, i pretty much slacked at home today.. too lazy to go out n most people are working anyway. went out eventually with my dAdDy to buy cny stuff.. bags and bags of keropok.. apparently only 2 packets are for our own consumption. the other like, 10 packets or so are for relatives etc.. then when i reached home, i became maid for the day.. iron the clothes, cook the rice (eh actually is put the rice into the rice cooker la), fry the nuggets..

oHh oHh gary chan msged me today.. it went something like that:
gic: what are you doing now? working?
me: i'm slacking! hahaa.. i'm going to relief teach at vs aft cny.. u got no students is it, so free to msg me..
gic: aiyoh got lah but not a lot loh.
me: no wonder so free hahaa.. u wanna employ me? i help u pour water for students, refill junk food etc.. $6 an hour n can claim expenses frm u k.. see i so good..
gic: i am giving 200 commission for every 5 student you introduce.
diaonnggg.. i know he cant be so good to msg me out of nowhere.. i didnt reply after that.. but is good commission rite.. heehee

went to see gavin's blog.. didnt know that dude likes beer so much.


still not in a particularly good mood now cos some stuff are still not finalised and i've been hanging on for a long time..


------ Monday, January 12, 2004


You are Form 0, Phoenix: The Eternal.

"And The Phoenix's cycle had reached
zenith, so he consumed himself in fire. He
emerged from his own ashes, to be forever
immortal."

Some examples of the Phoenix Form are Quetzalcoatl
(Aztec), Shiva (Indian), and Ra-Atum
(Egyptian).
The Phoenix is associated with the concept of life,
the number 0, and the element of fire.
His sign is the eclipsed sun.

As a member of Form 0, you are a determined
individual. You tend to keep your sense of
optomism, even through tough times and have a
positive outlook on most situations. You have
a way of looking at going through life as a
journey that you can constantly learn from.
Phoenixes are the best friends to have because
they cheer people up easily.


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Aragorn
You want someone who is tall, dark and handsome and one who will fight for you and others.


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Rain: You are the sound of rain. You have two
important sides. There is your strong, powerful
side and your calm, gentle side. Both are very
important. Rain also reflects a bit of darkness
in your personality. It isn't bad, just shows
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ahhh nmind

went to seacare building with yv today.. registered there.. met emmanuel in town.. went to find a present for yv's sister.. yeah i know i'm quite bright but i cant help it.. those 2 were like small kids like that.. wanted to buy from perlini's silver.. walked from taka to heeren to ps to raffles city and all the way to suntec. but in end she didnt buy anything.. met pk n went to eat with her at the new foodcourt.. quite amusing there. later went to find gb.. poor guy's sick and worried about sales.. hey hang in there okayy, dont lose to ben.. hahaa. u can do it la.. talked for quite some time then i went to find my darling =) i kinda missed her u know, she's such a darling :) saw her manager! heehee did he send u home today? i promise not to get jealous hah.. oh in the end i bought this top from sisley.. S$59 k.. darling's hao3 jie4 shao4! but in the end got 40% employee discount so it's about $35.. later accompanied bain darling to buy kenny's muffins.. saw darren.. walked bain darling back to sisley then we went home..

had a small sorta quarrel with my mum.. not in a good mood now.

some things i feel like saying and screaming when i cant take it anymore. like expletives. and hurting words. like just now. in the day as well as at night. but somehow i cant bring myself to do it because i know it will only bring more troubles and unhappiness. not to mention it will be a very selfish act. i mean, why deprive others when i cant get it? so in edwin's words.. "ahhh nmind". or make that in david beckham's words: "when i cant take it, i tell myself to count to ten. often i cant make it to ten so i try to count to five" it's true, after i reach five, i find there's no need to go on counting anymore because the impulse has passed. and when this feeling of "the impulse has passed" occured, i find myself reproaching myself for wanting to do it in the first place. like in the day.
and also, some things i wish to say to other people but i dont know why i cant say it. i am a straightforward person, everyone knows it. but somehow i myself cant understand how come i am finding it so difficult to express myself. like there's some invisible barrier. and the damning thing is that i cant cross that barrier. okayy i have said more than what i'm willing to say on this blog.



remember what does teeth-dropping dreams symbolise? "Teeth are used to bite, tear, chew and gnaw. In this regard, teeth represent power. And the loss of teeth in your dream may be from a sense of powerlessness. Are you lacking power in some current situation? Perhaps you are having difficulties expressing yourself or getting your point across. You feel frustrated when your voice is not being heard. You may be experiencing feelings of inferiority and a lack of self-confidence in some situation or relationship in your life. This dream is an indication that you need to be more assertive and believe in the value of your own opinion." maybe that's why the teeth-dropping dream has returned.. perhaps dream analysis has some element of truth in it after all.


------ Sunday, January 11, 2004

had the perfectly horrible dream of teeth dropping again. geez it seems determined to haunt me.. this time i can feel the pain even in my dreams too.. it completely disrupted my sleep time from 9 till 11am.. damn it.

went shopping with my mum at bugis.. bought a skirt and some other stuff which i cant really be bothered to say.. heehee my fingers are not obeying me today.. went to my granny's hse in the late aftnn, saw uncle kx who promised more jd coke on cny! heehee.. jd coke is really niceee... if u havent tried it, well, go try it! ahah!

watched independence day on ch5 again.. hahaa how many times have i watched that?

oh i hafta say this: my brother is a compulsive slacker! he was doing some chinese reflection thingy then he huff and puff until 250 words n the moment he reached that, ha said "oh! liang2 bai3 fu3 shi2 ge4 zi4 lo, shou1 dang4 lo!" n he didnt even bother to write conclusion, just end very abruptly like "xian4 zai4 de4 nian2 qing1 ren2 yi4 dian3 dian3 jiu4 fang4 qi4" just like that.. it;s in the genes u see.. hahaa



------ Saturday, January 10, 2004

i am depressed. and confused. and lost. well maybe depressed is not the right word but i'm definitely not feeling happy now. it's not because of jobs or the lack thereof. shan't specify. it won't do any good. just hope things'll be fine. hope they turn out to my liking. oh what a selfish b***h i am. okayy hope things will turn out to be fine. i'm strong. i can accept and move on. i'm strong. i really am. *bReAtHeS dEepLy*

I make it through the rainy days
I'll be the one who stands here longer than the rest
when my landscape changes re-arranges
I'll be stronger than I've ever been
no more stillness no more sunlight
everything's gonna be alright

I know that there's gonna be a change
better find your way out of your fear
if you wanna come with me
than that's the way it's gotta be

I'm all alone
and finally I'm getting stronger
you come to see just what I can be
I'm getting stronger

sometimes I feel so down and out
like emotions that's been captured in a maze
I had my ups and downs
trials and tribulations
I overcome it day by day
feelin good and almost powerful
a new me is what I'm looking for

I didn't know what I had to do
I just knew I was alone
people around me but they didn't care
so I searched into my soul
I'm not the type of girl that will let them see her cry
it's not my style I get by
see I'm gonna do this for me

"Stronger" ~ Sugababes



actually another song to replace this would have been "a heart can only be so strong" by michael bolton. ahh but the meaning is a bit skewed.


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gOt a jOb!

hee hee i got a job.. thx to li cheng.. got meself a job as a relief teacher! at where? bet you'll never dream of it.. i didn't too.. vs! as in, victoria school.. wahahaaha... gonna teach sec 3 and 4 e maths.. went to meet the maths teacher i'm relieving today.. er, mr zuraimi.. me gonna teach 4 sec 3 classes and 2 sec 4 classes.. so many classes rite.. i saw the timetable, its damn hectic.. lots of things to do, i realise.. mr zuraimi was like saying if u cant handle them, dont scream at them, just send them to mr chia (the dm) and the way he describes mr chia, i felt as though he's talking abt tan yew hui.. then mr zuraimi also tell me one of his sec 4 class has this guy called smthg ming one, he's in deep trouble.. "anymore nonsense that requires him to see mr chia rite, he'll be suspended".. wah that hiong huh.. and mr z keep saying "dont worry la, u'll get used to it.. it'll be a smooth transition for them also".. sure hope so.. *cRoSsEs fInGeRs*

gb has been telling me it's very hard to teach in vs.. and so qiao, i met him on 31 today on my way home from vs.. and its such a coincidence cos he's just returning from his pri sch chalet and i'm on that bus only because of certain reasons, i missed the earlier one.. just zoomed right pass me.. hahaa.. quite malu.. *sSsHh* anyway on the bus, he was telling me which classes traditionally are more tough to teach.. eh dont scare me la.. then he told me about the telephone sales promoter cherlyn.. woah she's a demo singer okayy.. won 2nd prize in some sing a-du songs competition.. gb let me listen to some songs she sang and recorded on his player.. *iMpReSsEd* really good voice..

actually can u all imagine me teaching? i probably may turn up late man.. the new vs is so far away.. if it's still the old vs then it'll be better.. hahaa.. i'll be the slackest teacher too.. i think i wont bother if they sleep in class la.. after all, i'm a guo4 lai2 ren2 and i'm like, how guilty of this "crime" too.. and i think i'll probably hear more lame jokes than i can take.. ohh mr z also said vs canteen food sux.. kinda like vj i imagine.. eewwww..

fell asleep after i reached home.. got a killer headache when i woke up man.. oh yeah i just d/l bruce almighty.. how wols rite.. but i realised i havent watched it mah.. hahaa..

paradorn srichaphan won robredo to advance to the semis of the tata open.. he won 1-6, 7-6 (12/10), 7-5.. fantastic match! i even forsaked parts of the ben affleck movie "sum of all fears" to watch it.. oh did i mention.. i used the starhub points to redeem one month free hbo.. yay i love hbo.. that time they showed gladiator! and powerpuff girls movie!! hahaa...


------ Thursday, January 08, 2004


You are going to marry Orlando Bloom. He will
always treat you right and is very romantic. He
will do anything for you. He is very polite and
has deep brown eyes and is very good looking
(which is another plus!). He can make anything
cheesy look really good (like sliding down
stairs on a shield shooting arrows or wearing
pointy ears for example). Congrats!!


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2003: the year in review: March/April/May 2003

March saw the continuation of the first block test.. as i said, i didnt study properly for it.. when i got back my results, they were a shocking C,E,O,O for maths, physics, chemistry and economics respectively. it's a huge kick up my behind, the same one which changed me from a slacker to a mugger by circumstance. now you know.. March also saw the release of Chinese AO result, of which i got an A1 to my huge relief.. March also saw the coming of SARS which hit us quite badly..
April and May.. i remembered i was struggling to attend all the remedials, which almost drove me crazy, having to cope with shitty timetables and a feeling of low confidence. i remembered feeling like "why the hell am i still failing my subjects at year 2?"

April was when MusicFest was held.. a great event!

May was when Man Utd completed their superb climb upwards to unseat Arsenal and win the 2002/2003 EPL title.. what an exciting time that was.. Man Utd thrashed Charlton 4-1 with a goal by david beckham and a hat trick by ruud van nistelrooy while arsenal lost to leeds and Man Utd thus became the 02/03 champions.. one of my proudest moment being a man utd fan (the others were when Man Utd won the treble in 98/99, the return of Eric Cantona after being suspended for the kick etc)

Looking back, March, April and May were pretty trying months for me.. the frustration at my dismal results, the struggling to cope with remedials.. at one point, i even considered dropping econs to concentrate on the other subjects.. i was that close to giving up. but somehow i managed to pull through and gave econs another shot.. forced myself not to curse keynes and the monetarists everytime i read the notes. not to mention all those times trying to remember and figure out how in the world does comparative advantage work.. and then there came SARS.. i didnt feel all too much affected by it mainly because no one close to me has had experience of it but it's a national disaster and naturally everyone was affected by it.. these 3 months were not the best months but the thing was, i pulled through it..


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tOdAy

woke up at 8+ for no reason.. couldnt get back to sleep after that.. called up some companies as usual, decided to go for one interview. which turned out to be a total waste of time. that sucker is only offering $25 - $28 per day n he expects me to work abt 9-10 hrs daily. eat s**t and die man. d-i-e. crap. absolute shithole of a guy.

see what unemployment does to a person? i'm reduced to a deranged and unstable person with tendencies to scold and curse others on her blog. remember the econs paper 3 qn 5? "describe the macroeconomic roles of the government and suggest policies for the most significant problem" smthg like that. i wrote about employment. b-i-n-g-o. experience proven. unemployment is a serious macroeconomic problem. know what's my dream scenario? that the dumb person calls me soon and then this is what i'll say: "are you from the job agency? no? orh the $25 a day one ah? NO. pay too low. stop begging me to work. NO i refuse to. just f*** off u bloodsucker, slavery-minded sadistic dumb s***hole of a boss!" see what i mean by deranged and unstable?

anyway, my left knee is indeed troubling me.. i was crossing the road to get from my house to the next block to buy some stuff when i felt a sharp stab at my left knee.. it's so painful that i almost fell in the middle of the road n it got progressively worse as i walked on.. but on the return trip home, it cleared up and my knee is fine now.. damn what is happening? even if it's due to old injury also bu4 ke3 neng2 start recurring only these few weeks mah..

anyway i was on the bus home when i saw year 1 victorians.. a cedarian and a guy from dhs.. was reminded of the life i've left behind.. those first 3 months life when the biggest headache was which lectures to pon.. *sIgHz* all a sudden i feel like so lost and like, i dont have a target for everyday. everyday is just a day. no stuff to finish mugging, no deadlines to meet, no target to achieve.. at least in vj, there's always this target of getting through school without screaming that i hate mugging.. or like, at least when being a tai tai, i can target how much to win each day through mahjong.. (ahh.. deranged and unstable) being jobless sux. make that being jobess and having no aims sux.

oh did i mention i posted an ad on the samsung webiste to earn points some time ago? i just put my website nick, my age and that i like man utd that's all.. then i received this email from this guy who said he saw my ad n he's also a man utd fan. weirdo. and crap, i was surfing thru gprs on my phone when i accidentally pressed a download link for a pic i didnt want.. so i pressed no when they asked if i wanna save and guess what? they deducted 60 points from me all the same. crap.


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updates

finally! blogger is up and running again.. havent been blogging cos i know blogspot is down..

mon..
went to 2 job interviews. one turned out to be outdoor sales. the scum cheated me to go there.. wtf. oops sorrie. the other one was at apex tower at the shenton way area.. lots of ppl went n in the end, me n yv were there for 2+ hrs.. all the people wrking there are like younger than me can.. the company, DW holdings (DW= dolphin warriors.. hah) own abt 8 or so offices there n their aim is to own at least 50 offices by 2005 n change the name of the tower to DW tower.. dream dream dream emmmm... sucker punch: the manager who interviewed us kept telling us abt how to do sales and what his company sells and even gave us a sample of what they sell. it was some biomagnetic health product. hah. example: S$290 for a biomagnetic pillow that's suppose to improve sleep. who in the world will buy it? he seemed to have a good impression of us though, cos he talked to us for like half an hr while the others only lasted abt 10 mins.. i was almost bored to death inside his room.. sucker.. he called us to go for 2nd interview on thrus (today) but those who know me n yv well enough will know we did a disappearing act again..

later went suntec to see the mass dance by the fountain.. met alex who dragged us to buy yi en's present with him.. but me n yv went to carrefour n i bought "stuff" for yi en, alex n jason.. hee hee.. dog bones for yi en (my jack russell), chain latch for alex (my mu ban) n a eh.. toilet brush for jason (my ma tong).. aiyah, knowing amy will buy smthg wonderful for jason, so i buy smthg "symbolic" la.. went to join in the mass dances later.. oh ya, i was asking alex how come this yr 1 batch dont have shuai ges then he pointed out one guy called shawn (who is a yr 2) n i tink he's quite cute.. skin head but cute.. hahaa.. had dinner at mac n then we went home with gb..

tues..
hy called early in the morn to tell me she don want the singtel job, ask me to call her agency.. that i did.. then i felt so tired that i mainly slept the day away.. had a slight temperature by mid day..

wed: slacked at home mainly.. did cards for the 3 of them.. did i mention the agency hy told me to call is LnK.. the very same agency that offered us the airline job.. what a coincidence huh. hope they dont trade contacts.. anyway kitty (the agent) called later and said singtel chose another person from another agency i think.. bOoH..

went for nite-o.. saw lots of people.. the myriads performances were boring and lame. the sc dance was the dance they did at sdd.. joined in the mass dances, which was kinda cool cos we did together with the year 3 scs and basically a whole grp of year 3s la.. decided to go straight off after the mass dance cos we didnt wanna clash with the whole flock of yr 1s n ogls leaving vj.. but in the end we got a bit delayed and i talked to nicholas instead.. he's going in on 15th too.. what kind of shifu is he.. never take care of his tu di one.. *bLeAh* went to treats at parkway parade with yv and pk for dinner.. went home after that..



------ Tuesday, January 06, 2004

young girl dont cry,
ill be right here when your world starts to fall, ooo
young girl its all right,
your tears will dry you'll soon be free to fly, ohh

when your safe inside your room,
you tend to dream
of a place where nothings harder then it seems
no one ever wants or bothers to explain
of the heart ache life can bring or what it means, yeaa

when theres no one else
look inside yourself
like your oldest friend, just trust the voice within
then you'll find the strength that will guide your way
you'll learn to begin to trust the vioce within

ooo

young girl dont hide
you'll never change if you just walk away, oooo whoa
young girl just hold tight
soon your gonna see your brighter days, yea
ooohhh

now, in a world where nothing seems to make sense
so afraid
memories!
provide a hand for you to hold
when you look outside, look inside to your soul

when theres no one else
look inside yourself
like your oldest friend, just trust the voice within
then you'll find the strength that will guide your way
you'll learn to begin to trust the vioce within

ooohh yea
oooo (whoo)
yea (whoo)
yea (whoo)
oooh (whoo)

Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you're learning
You'll find all you'll ever need to know
(Be strong)
You'll break it
(Hold on)
You'll make it
(Be strong)
Just don't forsake it because
No one can tell you what you can't do
No one can stop you
You know that I'm talking to you

when theres no one else
look inside yourself
like your oldest friend, just trust the voice within
then you'll find the strength that'll gui-e-i-e-de you way
you'll learn to begin to trust the voice within

oooo
young girl dont cry
ill be right here when your world starts to fall
oooo hmm


"A Voice Within" ~ Christina Aguilera



ohmigosh this song is so nice n so easy to relate to... the one nice song by christina aguilera besides her cover of "i turn to you"


------ Monday, January 05, 2004

okayy my uncle kx was right, i did have a sound sleep last night due to the alcohol.. woke up at around noon today, watched tv and slacked around until 3+.. went for the svap meeting at ps mac, was about 20 minutes late but the champion is still yvonne who was 1hr+ late.. made new friends today.. the chair of svc, priscilla, looks so much like ze hui that i thought she was ze hui until they say she's 28.. oh my.. the rest of the committee is made up of me, yvonne, bain, alvin, vanessa, cuiting, weiling, gavin n simeng..eh no cute guys la but alvin looks like a yr 2 (our current junior batch) sc.. oh ya, i saw desmond's girlfriend walking past mac. she was with a guy wearing an s3 shirt.. i think he's a year 4 or something course i've never seen him in vj.. i saw someone who looks a bit like wei jie too.. and gavin still refuses to tell me how he knows my blog address.. he says he will tell me when we get to know each other better..

was too tired to walk around with yv after the meeting so we split up and went home..


MAN UTD WON 2-1!! gareth barry scored in the 19th minute with a deflection off wes brown.. lucky fool.. but it's okayy cos my favourite player paul scholes scored twice in the second half! both were short range goals and were well taken so thanks to that, man utd won 2-1. we're through to the 4th found of the FA cup! woohooo.. cup ties are just so exciting.. yesterday, chelsea drew 2-2 with watford.. well done. but replay leg is at stamford bridge and if watford cant win at vicarage road (their home ground), then fat hopes that they can win at chelsea's stamford bridge.. my bro's beloved newcastle united beat southampton 3-0 which is a little surprising.. but surprise of the day was charlton being beaten by 1st division side gillingham 3-2.. liverpool beat 3rd division side yeovil 2-0 so no upset there.. okayy i'm too sian to give any analysis now..

just finished downloading a walk to remember.. i remembered watching it with hian yi, selene and ningxia after o2 last yr.. it was such a nice show.. the book by nicholas sparks is even more touching.. that's why i like nicholas sparks..


------ Sunday, January 04, 2004

2003: the year in review: January/February 2003

2003 started out well enough for me, with orientation fully occupying the first week of school. the names Vesta, Ixora, Congua, Tian, Osiris, Reihai, Ixodus, Asgard and also Veii, Visgoth, Vulcan, Valkyrie and Volantis became central to the month of January. orientation was great fun and i finally truly understood the meaning of those words my own ogls said to me on our orientation: "i bet we ogls have much more fun than all of you!" that is correct! there is always something to do, year ones to surprise, shuai ges to pick out (though sadly, the demand for shuai ges in vj far outstrips the supply.. heehee).. being an ogl was a moving experience for me as i've never really considered myself a proud victorian, there's not much sense of a belonging to vj except for the fact that i wear the school uniform (with slight moderation of cos) and sing the college anthem every friday. but orientation allowed me to get closer to vj and for once, i feel like it is nice to be in vj.. my erra VESTA was great and my nova VEII was great too. through orientation, i got to know people like wingyee who's a sweetie and of course my 3 "properties" namely, my mu4 ban3 alex soh yu sen (yu2 sheng1 hahaa), my dog yi en and my toilet bowl jason chiong.. and special shout outs to my fellow veii ogls (poh) si jia n shalynn mummy.. *mUaKz*

February was kinda "exciting" with friendship-cum-valentine's day as well as the start of block test 1.. this friendship day was much more busy than last year althou one same phenomena happened again: i had a double sp again.. last yr frm my senior class 01s48, it was the swim team captain jonathan n silly jon didnt realise i was his double sp. this yr i had a double sp again frm my junior class 03s64. his name is yeo feng i think. genia had a double sp too so i swopped with her i got a new sp by the name of chun hui. besides those 2, i have lots of sp-s from vesta. in short, i ended up with 4 more sp-s namely wingyee, alex, yi en and timothy, with yi en being a double sp.. valentine's day was spent watching leo dicaprio's "catch me if you can" it was a great show.. music fest auditions started and so did block test one and in essence i didnt study hard for it cos i hardly felt the urgency to really mug yet..



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review

i'm going to start a series of review for the year 2003.. so keep a lookout.. the major months like january, may/june, november and december will get more emphasis and yeah, i hope all those sum up my year..



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new year, new hopes

this is our little wishlish that me, bain n hy made by the clark quay riverside.. hope they will come true.. *sMiLeZ*

1. get good A level results
2. get a good job (for me and hongyi)
3. may there be cute guys at our work places
4. may we finally get our dream guy (for me and bain)
5. may we all be friends forever (for me, to everyone)

well, a new year represents new hopes, i know i'm hopeless at keeping resolutions so i shall have a wishlist instead.. well i realise wishes number 1, 3 n 4 are kinda not for me to decide liao but hope they can all come true! so where are you, my dream guy?? show yourself this year okayy.. hahaa i hope i dont come across as a lovesick idiot but who doesn't wish for a dream guy? what did you say? i already have bain? oh come on, i'm bi, happy? hahaa..


------ Saturday, January 03, 2004

yeah so i'm a full-time slacker aGaIn..

rejected the airline job yesterday! haiz this is like the 3rd job that i've rejected, the first being outdoor sales and the second one being the alpha building job.. reason: pay is just too low. $5.50 an hour and the thing is, my friend had a similar job affair that sounded like the same airline company as mine and the agent offered her $6 an hour. so we (me and yv) thought, what the heck, just forget about it man.. yupz so now, i'm a full time slacker once again. oh well.. consolation: it's not that no one wants to hire me, it's that i don't want to accept the job. so it's not that i'm like, left on the shelf or something. reality: i'm still jobless. sigh.

the fu lu shou person still hasn't called me so i guess they are not hiring me so that means i've got to continue my long search for a decent job. i've already decided to forgo relief teaching in favour of some better-value work experience. sigh sigh will i ever get a job?

today zijun came over to take her video tape from my house.. then in the late afternoon we (my family) went over to my aunt cherlyn's house for our family gathering.. oh gosh i'm always excited there cos my aunt n uncle kx are man utd fans and between them, they have a full collection of man utd player figurines.. from current players like gary n phil neville, keane, scholes, butt, van nistelrooy etc etc to past players like king cantona, beckham, mcclair, schmeichel, robson, hughes and even karel poborsky can.. hahaa.. and uncle kx bought a roy keane dvd from the UK! and also a dvd of man ud's treble season! aargghh..

dinner was great, it was a real spread! had lots of alcohol today.. kopped my daddy's champagne (kopped because i dont like champagne all that much), had a half wine glass full of 13.5% red wine n had a glass full of jd coke, which is a mix of 20% jack daniel liquor and 80% coke.. hahaa it tasted g-R-e-A-t!!
gambled later, played blackjack n a game that i dont know the name of.. but the important thing is that, i won $7 today.. not bad, $7 in about 1.5 hours of work.. n uncle kx was pretty impressed that i'm still not drunk..

actually i'm a little light headed now but i'm still sober or else i won't be bothered to type in perfect english today (anyone noticed??).. but i think i'll probably wake up like, 2pm tomorrow or something.. oh yeah, i have svap meeting tomorrow at 4pm at plaza singapura.. okayy i'll try to be on time..

and lastly, this is primarily to vesta ogls, are u all interested to going back for nite-o? it is on wednesday night, go at whatever time u can, meet at the v banner alright? hope to see you all there.. and let's do the mass dances man! i miss those..


------ Thursday, January 01, 2004

hApPy nEw yEaR 2004!!!

happy new year everyone! may 2004 be a much better year than 2003!

Anyway here's what I did yesterday. I went for the airline job interview with Yvonne at Tampines in the morning. We had to draft replies and take another typing test. Hence to practice, I'm typing in perfect English from now on. (I wonder how long will this last though) The interview is simple enough, it's a group interview at that. Anyway, both Yvonne and me got the job. The job agency people called me yesterday evening to tell me that. aargghh! can fu lu shou call me pronto? haiz.

went to eat lunch with my dad in the aftnn.. okayy wait i'm running out of time, hafta leave the hse soon so to hell with proper english.. went home after that to bathe, change n prepare to go out again.. met up with bain n hy at suntec at abt 5pm.. they went earlier for an interview at sisley. oh yeah, bain darling got the sisley job! as i'm typing this, she's probably working her head off selling clothes at a not-very-popular with shoppers shop.. poor darling..

went to visit pk at scent shop, den went carrefour to visit, actually more like ka jiao guobin.. hahaa.. eh, in essence we just went there to talk crap.. had dinner at kenny roger's den went to carrefour to buy alcohol.. but we wanted our alcohol to be "chilled" so we put it into the beer fridge n went to "visit" gb again.. he's selling this energy-saving product tt's supposed to help u save up to 30% of electric bill.. it doesnt seem convincing la.. even he says so..

went to clark quay aft tt, met winston, lich, aaron, merv n jj.. dOt-dOt-dOt (i tink itz pretty obvious how i felt.. i didnt exactly make it a secret but he does spoil everything.. if not i bliv it would be a much better countdown.. hee)

countdown was so-so, we(me, bain n hy) spent lots of time drinking away, singing n waving to people on the boat rides n basically going a bit crazy.. tried to call a lot of ppl but as usual, network was quite busy.. someone so da pai, call him so many times, hao bu rong yi get thru den he nv pick up.. tink he must have had 7 missed calls frm the 3 of us 2gthr.. right edwin shuai?? went home soon cos bain hafta work..

called shifu n he was at some weird place (on his way to his fren's hse) n his frens were quite funny.. hahaa some idiot kept shouting "i love you" into the phone, n he sounded like he was drunk or smthg.. y am i not surprised.. anw, i was the 1st to reach home lhis morn.. at least tt's wat i thought until my dad msged to say he's actually fetching my bro, who was at downtown east..

p.s. bain, edwin didnt pick up his phone bcos he was slping.. he msg me at 3+ to tell me that.. he thought we were thon-ing at someone's hse.. erm he said he had a headache, slept frm 9pm till 3+am n was sleeping when we called.. '-_o"


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