Wednesday, March 29, 2006

had comp law presentation yesterday... ok la i think content wise, we did fine.. i scared the report submission part will take us down a bit..


had my internship interview at ernst n young this morning.. uhm it went ok i guess? i'd better not say anything now.


gahhh i'm feeling sleepy.. gotta do:
1) my part for marketing report
2) compile marketing report
3) ltm learning journal
4) ltb class participation template


oh oh oh.
i'm in the specs fetish stage now. wahahahahaa.
is other people wearing specs, not me wearing specs. i look so not nice in specs. but no no, not u. a couple of u actually look gooooood in specs.


and the 3 papayas and me are spamming each other like mad thru email now. hahahaha damn funny, the nonsensical things we spam each other about.


i'm gonna collect my $70 from OUA later! woootttt~
in the spirit of accounting..
debit cash $70
credit equity $70
but also...
debit accrued expenses $70
credit cash $70
so net effect on cash = $0
booooooo!


------ Sunday, March 26, 2006

i would've blogged a bit more often but i have nothing too interesting to say. random musings coming up: -


1) do you prefer a pat on the back or a hug? how about if you are attached?


2) crazy friday ended on a surprisingly better-than-expected note: the comp law meeting that i expected to last for at least 3 hours ended in abt 1.5 hours. we even went over to timbre for a drink to relax after our meeting!


3) after playing a significant number of rounds of scissors-paper-stone with zhiyang (i think we were just killing time initially when we started to play but it became a strong inclination to want to beat him at it), i realised that i always start off with scissors. and i always lose because zhiyang realises it too.


4) leonard is horrible! imagine my expression and the reactions of edmund, rox and gerard (who happened to be around) when leonard loudly exclaims about mr A! i think we all had the shock of our lives.


5) sometimes i feel sian just because i feel like feeling sian. no particular reasons. just like sometimes i just feel like being mean to everyone heh.


6) i thought i should really learn not to take sides at all. but no, i think i will always support u!


7) i really dig jack johnson, james blunt, john mayer and jason mraz now.


8) so when are you finally showing up?



okay enuff. photos up.



just because.



caught unawares.



happy birthday, shumei.



passed the baton. and struggling under the weight of it sometimes.


------ Thursday, March 23, 2006

saw wanida's blog on colorgenics and so i went to take it again for a second time.. and yes i do agree it's mostly pretty accurate.

You are a very emotional and sensitive individual. Your life and love of life is dominated by your emotions - you have great feeling towards your fellow man and you are always full of enthusiasm but be careful, you tend to let your heart rule your head and this being so, you could be easily hurt - as perhaps you may have indeed been hurt in the past.


The way things are you are under considerable stress and you feel that there is little hope of matters righting themselves. Everyone about you seems to aggravate the problem even more. You feel that at this time you need to be alone and you are right - move back and give yourself a chance to breathe.


You feel that you should be appreciated far more than you are but no-one seems to care! You feel that you are receiving less than your share and the main problem is that there is no-one to whom you can turn to for sympathy and understanding. The inner stress that you are experiencing makes you quick to take offence but you realise that at this particular moment in time there is little that you can do to relieve the situation.


Your stress and anxiety are a result of an emotional disappointment. It could well be that the emotional relationship is no longer running smoothly and you have come to the end of your tether. On the one hand you would like to free yourself from this relationship altogether, yet on the other hand, you don't want to lose anything nor risk the uncertainty of throwing away something - something that's precious, something that could be the 'Real Thing'. Perhaps for the first time in your life you really don't know which way to go and it is these contradictory emotions that are causing you the untold stress. You are pretending to the world that you don't care but even this air of pretence is causing you much heartache.


Disappointment and the fear that there is no point in formulating fresh goals have led to anxiety and you are distressed by the lack of any close and understanding relationships. You feel you are not appreciated by those who matter to you. You are attempting to escape into a world on which you can relax and feel at ease.

hahaha i don't expect anyone to read that chunk of words.. more of for myself i guess.


but then again, all these works like horoscopes - it's accurate if you think hard enough for it to "fit" your current situation.


------ Monday, March 20, 2006

now we all know, in man united folklore,
there is a footballing genius... and his name is george best.
there is a footballing king... and his name is eric cantona.
there is a footballing mastermind... and his name is sir matt busby when he led the 1968 team to be the first english team to win the european cup.
there is a footballing knight... and his name is sir alex ferguson, who was feared and respected for his hairdryer treatments.
there has been talk about the existence of a footballing god.. but i was never convinced.


today, i am slightly more convinced
there is a footballing god.. cos he allowed fulham to beat chelsea at craven cottage! HAHAHA!!
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ok this is a totally bo liao post.


------ Sunday, March 19, 2006

fridays are notoriously horrendously long for me. audit, ethics and invariably, another meeting. aye, fridays are not my favourite-st of all days.
it's getting a liiiiitle bit better though... situation in ethics class has improved! =) darn this really makes me wonder why i haven't noticed it earlier.. ethics class would have been soooo much more bearable!

anyways we went for the mosaic music festival on friday (for me, it's primarily to catch EIC). and boy, i do realise i miss watching EIC perform. i think for reasons of the crowd, they didn't really launch into their usual pop/alternative/soft rock set but went into the 80s pop/rock. which was really refreshing i thought.. i enjoyed myself listening to them.
so i think i'm gonna go for starry nite 3 after all, just to watch EIC.


i've wasted my whole weekend doing nothing in particular. i just feel so nua. argh.


alrights i'm off for another round of nua-ing.


------ Wednesday, March 15, 2006

13 things that represet men...

1. Men are like ...Laxatives... They irritate the crap out of you.
2. Men are like ...Bananas... The older they get, the less firm they are.
3. Men are like ...Weather.... Nothing can be done to change them.
4. Men are like ...Blenders... You need one, but you're not quite sure why.
5. Men are like ...Chocolate Bars... Sweet, smooth, &they usually head right for your hips.
6. Men are like ...Commercials... You can't believe all they say.
7. Men are like ...Department Stores... Their clothes are always 1/2 off.
8. Men are like ...Government Bonds... They take soooooooo long to mature.
9. Men are like ...Mascara... They usually run at the first sign of emotion.
10. Men are like ...Popcorn... They satisfy you, but only for a little while.
11. Men are like ...Snowstorms... You never know when they're coming, how many inches you'll get or how long it will last.
12. Men are like ...Lava Lamps... Fun to look at, but not very bright.
13. Men are like ...Parking Spots... All the good ones are taken, the rest are handicapped.


jeremy soh is sitting beside me and asking to to "faster find a boyfriend". HAHAHA.


------ Tuesday, March 14, 2006

woah i'm still sick. damn tired. i just slept from 9pm to 10pm. brilliant. gahhh. and my dislike for audit just increased a notch. pui!
i was editing the ethics report this afternoon... wahlaueh! some people cant spell properly hor.. *grins.


and oh dear, tmr's my last salsa class! too fast to be true.. i really enjoyed salsa this term. learnt alot more moves, esp when dancing with the caderas guys.


arghh i have no mood to do anything else. i just wanna go back to sleep!


on repeat mode now: james blunt - tears and rain


how i wish i could surrender my soul
Shed the clothes that become my skin
See the liar that burns within my needing
How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold
How I wish I'd scream out loud
Instead I've found no meaning


I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain


How I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind
Hold memory close at hand
Help me understand the years
How I wish I could choose between Heaven and Hell
How I wish I would save my soul
I'm so cold from fear

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble
Far, far away; find comfort in pain
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain


if you have no idea what the song means, look for it here


------ Monday, March 13, 2006

was helping out for smu's open house over the weekend. it's always feels nice to help out for a school event, regardless of how messy it is. i mean.. take GO for eg. it was a messy affair but i liked the experience, i learnt from it, and i made new friends like addy, rox, min, zhiyang, ford, kerchoon etc.. and PD. it was a rushed and not too organised affair but i learnt something else from it too and i grew closer to peeps like wanida.. so for this open house, i'm once again reminded of the excitement of freshmen and freshmen-to-be and have rediscovered the joy of emceeing.. maybe as amt director, i shd direct some events to myself heeheee!


on another note, i've finally fallen sick. i've had this sicky feeling since PD ended and it's finally here. *coughs *sneezes *head aches *feverish


"though she looks strong and independent, but then she is scared of a lot of stuff.."
i was reminded of the days back then and in a way, how happy i was then but also, how happy i am now in a different way.


------ Saturday, March 11, 2006

In Santa Monica, in the winter time
The lazy streets so undemanding
I walk into the crowd
In Santa Monica, you get your coffee from
the coolest places on the promenade
Where people dress just so


Beauty so unavoidable,
everywhere you turn it's there.
I sit and wonder what am I doing here?


But on the telephone line I am anyone
I am anything I wanna be
I can be a supermodel or Norman Mailer
And you wouldn't know the difference
Or would you?


In Santa Monica, all the people got
Modern names like Jake and Mandy
And modern bodies too
In Santa Monica, on the boulevard
You'll have to dodge those in-line skaters
Or they'll knock you down


I never felt so lonely, never felt so out of place
I never wanted something more than this


But on the telephone line I am anyone
I am anything I wanna be
I can be a supermodel or Norman Mailer
And you wouldn't know the difference
On the telephone line I am any height
I am any age I wanna be
I can be a caped crusader or space invader
And you wouldn't know the difference
Or would you?


ahhh 'Santa Monica' - my fave savage garden song.
long long week capped off with a torrid friday.


open house tmr. hope it's all good.
i don't think i can take it if it's NOT good.
=argh=


------ Wednesday, March 08, 2006

u know, i used to once think about how nice it would be if my life is even half as interesting as yours. i hoped my life was as nice as yours, and yours and yours. but before those thoughts could manifest themselves too deeply into my already congested mind, my life got busy with plenty of events. and thru them, i knew a group of new friends. my life got busy. but my life never really changed. i was still there, hoping my life was half as interesting as yours.


out of nowhere, today, now, i have a sudden feeling. i stopped wishing that my life is half as interesting as yours. because it will never be. we are fundamently different people who mix with different kinds of people. i will just be contented with my life.


jiahui:. wanna sail into a grey sky morning: comp law can be frustrating but its challenging haha. im damn oxymoronic la
T: hahaha yea.. ur nick exemplifies it..
J: my nick exemplifies tt im an oxymoron?
T: how can dun care abt the storms.. sail out already later cannot come back..
J: im nt talking abt a storm la.. just rain. i don have a death wish..... YET
T: but there will be..
J: but then again... u know sometimes when u talk abt liking or wanting to do sth, acty u only like the notion of it?? like.. i like the notion of just sailing away... but i know i wont do it... just tt it feels gd to want to sail away?
J: my fren likens it to falling in love with the notion of love. u want to fall in love.. but u only want to feel the love. u don really want to fall in love with any particular person. u know???
T: kinda..
T: but then it sounds kinda suicidal liao. the suicidal part was referring to sailing into bad weather
J: hahaa T, u r an eternal pessimist too? look at my msn pic now.... does it look like its gg to rain??
T: but its not equivalent to a grey sky morn
J: it is! it's grey!
J: uhm u heard of the red sky in the morning, sailor's warning, red sky at night, sailor's delight saying??
J: red sky morning then it'll rain, grey sky morning, it will not! hahahahaaha
T: 7/03/2006 haha ok.. red sky at morning, sailors take warning red sky at night, sailor's delight
J: ahhh i see tt u went to primary school too


yups, and T is not the only person who asked me why i want to sail into a grey sky morning. well a grey sky morning represents something for me. as for what it is, actually it is also for me to find out. maybe it represents a direction i want my life to take independently? a path i want to forge out for myself?
in a way, the grey sky morning represents a path forged with uncertainties and i will navigate thru it.


besides, if my life was as interesting as yours, i would have to have your problems too.
i think i will pass.


------ Saturday, March 04, 2006

finally my week is over. FINALLY!


went to the faceoff rock concert event by sf, sc and sissimo. was alright la. 7 til dawn is still the best.


then comes the highlight of this post. went to bk for dinner with ray. then timbre with ray and LN. it's really really nice talking to them. in a way, ray is right - though we have only known each other for like what, 1.5 years, it definitely felt like we've known each other much longer, perhaps due to the "intensity" (quoted from ray) of our friendship.
and somehow i feel that in a way, our friendship has progressed a little to the next level. maybe it's the fact that it's rare to find tight-knit friends who love chilling to live bands, maybe it's the things we talk about, maybe it's an odd feeling that only i feel. thing is i think that i have connected to them on a deeper level now. in front of them, i can be at my utmost unglam - picking chicken bones clean, burping, in specs, cursing and making fun of stupid things, feeling mightily unwell.. and i know that i will be in good hands because they will always be there for me and with me.


in the words of ray - "aiyah in front of you all, nothing to hide la". both ray and ln are really interesting characters and i'm glad i got to know them thru the weirdest of circumstances (we were talking about how we got to know each other just now). i really wanted to agree with what ray said. the only thing is that i really wish i don't have so many things i swore i'd hide.
alrites, ii'm feeling pleasantly sleepy from a night out at timbre.. going to sleep. hopefully i can drag my lazy ass to the gym before heading to xp's place.
=peaceout=


------ Thursday, March 02, 2006

busy week..


had agm on monday.
countdown: 362 days =)


comp law and ethics midterm on tues.
sigh 15% and all i talk about was fricking entrenching provisions. goodbye 15%.
ans sigh 15% take-home paper and i only spent 3 hrs reading up, typing it out and handing in. when i had 48 hrs to do so. dumB dumB diddy.


salsa on wed was funnnn!


just had a 15% mktg quiz. ohmygawd i think its another 15% down the drain. like wth is a product strategy. bahhhh. not a good week for me!


audit assgn due tmr. tmd!


i look forward to 3.15pm tmr. then i can take a break for the weeked. faceoff concert with the fab 5 and maybe timbre and supper after that! can't wait..
gyming on sat. then shd be gg xp's house for bbq.


and basket.. first ethics meeting has to fall on a sunday. @(#&@^$


i'm so tired i can fall asleep now.


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