Sunday, June 20, 2010

I used to think... something that doesn't belong to me initially can never truly belong to me. Like say.. If I buy a 2nd hand textbook, I always think it belongs to someone else and I'm only borrowing it temporarily. Similarly, for anything material that wasn't originally intended for me, I wouldn't ask for it nor would I accept it fully if it was offered to me. I dunno, maybe I'm possessive that way.

But throughout some tough times, he lent me something of his that was given to him (originally for 1 week), something just to keep me company through the tough times when I was alone at home in my room. I appreciated the thought, but I always had the intention to return it to him after the week is over.

Throughout the week, it kept me company and gave me great comfort. At times I would have mental conversations with it, at times I was just glad for its company. And then I realised, so what if it wasn't originally intended for me? So what if it's not "mine"? It is not just a material possession, it was passed to me with all the thought and care in the world. And I think, that's good enough for me. I dunno if I wanna give it back anymore..

Can I keep 小狗 indefinitely??


------ Thursday, June 17, 2010

Eyes are puffy and tired..
Spirit is deflated..
Things to say and discuss but no opportunity for that..
Mind is weary..
Body is protesting..
Guess it means it's time to go to bed and try to get some sleep..
Maybe sleep will be good, if I can get some...


------ Monday, June 14, 2010

Hmmmm it's the World Cup again... Wow does time fly or not...

Anyways.. just a note to announce that... I wanna kickstart my gym routine again! Back to the disciplined days! Ok u all are my witnesses, kick me if I waver.......


------ Sunday, June 06, 2010

Oh yes, I figured I should probably mention something more fulfilling that happened in my life other than the great return of my appetite-

I passed my DELF B2 French exam!! Ahahahhaa!

I was only feeling 50-50 after the exam (I answered the listening compre part by guessing what would have been said in the recordings hahahha! And my spoken oral section was on de-urbanisation!) and guess what, I passed by the skin of my teeth! Lol.. I met the min 5 out of 25 marks for each section ( I got 10/25 for listening compre haha!) and got an overall 58 points! Yipeeeee! Can't say enough about how elated I am! LOL!!!

Anyways. Delf B2 is definitely the last level of official qualification that I am going to take, definitely not going to attempt Dalf C1 & C2, especially not since I was told it's the French equivalent of a GP paper- even native speakers might not do well. Hah I'm not that brave (nor that rich for that matter) to attempt.

And I am already at Advanced-8, the very last level of my current French syllabus. I have the option of pursuing the next syllabus, which is a 1-yr "Superior" course, but I don't think I will attempt that, cos for once, I cannot see where I am heading for if I continue to take classes. Yes, the language still interests me, but I can't see the need to continue classes anymore.

So I guess after 3 years of French classes and reaching my goal of obtaining my targetted level of official certification, seems like my French journey is coming to an end. In a way, I think it's a pity cos I'm sure that if I don't get to practise, I'll soon forget a lot about the language, but I also think there's only so much I can reach for.. It's probably time to try my hand at something else! =p

There it is, what began as a semi-necessity in April 2007- learning French because I was going to Rouen on exchange (don't even remember how I ended up choosing ESC-Rouen lol), continued into a 3-yr journey of learning the language, self-discovery, challenges and of cos, making interesting friends: Ranging from a Sec 4 girl who's wiser beyond her age, to an Indonesian who eventually fulfilled his dream of migrating to French-speaking Quebec, to a grandmum who is probably the most conscientious student in our class, to a proudly single girl who indulges in learning French as a hobby, to a businessman who loves his golf so much, and his wife who is a food and wine editor with a respectable local chinese publication.

Now, 3 yrs and 2 months in, I'm probably flipping my books for the last time and shelving my Larousse French-English dictionary for good, I think I'm going to miss it.....


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I wanted to post this on Friday 4-Jun, but after being knocked out for so long, all I wanted to do was watch some tv and the season finale of "Lost".

Sidetrack a bit- Lost hmmmm, season 6, the final season, final episode- it was kinda a "hmmmmm" moment for me.. A bit like, "oh so this is how it ends? hmmmmm?"
The writers said that it will all tie up and make sense, and I guess in a way, the finale does give an explanation for everything but it's also kind of "oh okay.....". U gotta watch all 6 seasons to know what I mean hahaha!

Anyways. Besides the sidetrack on Lost, it's been quite a nice weekend after everything that's happened. For one, my appetite's coming back! Wheee!!! Never so glad to see my appetite returning! For once, I'm perfectly happy to indulge and just eat whatever I feel like eating (thou I think my poor bf's gonna have to "suffer" thru this eating binge with me cos if I'm gonna put on weight, he is too muahahaha).

From Friday night till now, I've been putting all these stuffs inside my stomach:
- a hugeeeee mushroom cheeseburger at bar bar black sheep with a hugeeeee portion of fries
- honey milk tea with pearls, I think I finished almost ALL the pearls
- bfast/lunch plus dinner on sat
- egg onion prata washed down with milo at 2am in the morning!!!
- I just had a light bfast and now on Sunday 1pm, I'm damn hungry for lunch!!

Ok, I think I can probably go on and on about what I feel like eating, but I think it would make me sound like too big a glutton.

Speaking of gluttony, hmmmmm... I din sleep much last nite (sugar rush from supper kept me awake till 4am) and I woke up relatively early for a Sunday morning, I feel like snoozing now ahahahaaa.... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.......

(snorts snorts, it's a pig's life ;p)




**edit**: Oh yes Carrefour was having a book sale again last Thursday and me being the geek that I really am, was there for 3 years trying to decide what to buy. Books were at $7 - $8 a piece!! And so I'm really proud to declare that- I am the new owner of 5 more books, of which includes a Haruki Murakami book that I've always wanted to read- "What I Talk About When I Talk About Running, and also Donald Trump's "Art of the Deal" (heard it's an interesting read). So, more books to satisfy my geekiness yayyyy =p


------ Tuesday, June 01, 2010

It's been some time.. Been quite a crazy month, the past week hasn't been easy.. This week esp, is really trying.. It being month end just compounds the misery. Really tired and drained, yet it doesn't do myself any good to hide or avoid. It is what it is, just gotta grit my teeth and last thru it..
Thru it all, I'm just thankful that he's been really strong for me.. I'm just glad that he's here thru it all, it helps a lot. Thanks dear =)


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