Tuesday, April 29, 2008

suddenly this old song by samantha mumba keeps playing in my head-
Gotta tell you


anyways. i think it's time to put in more effort into my studies for this sem.
i am confused and probably irritated that i am confused. because in the first place, there shouldn't be anything to be confused about.
i remember how we used to leave secret messages all over the place. guess we don't do that now.

anyways. my other school is on a 1-week recession now so i'm able to take a breather this week. gonna shift my efforts to AT instead. the mountain-load of readings never fail to leave me shuddering with disgust. rarrrr this is so pointless.


------ Sunday, April 27, 2008

been out for a nite cycling last nite and omfg i'm aching all over. photos up soon i hope.

anw!

VIDEOS from bintan! they are all taken during the king's cup at nite. and i swear, in every video, there's always someone laughing hysterically (and i must say, mostly at ray) =)))


------ Friday, April 25, 2008

i really think... that the ooposite of concern is not hate. it is indifference.
yes i've heard that phrase being bandied around before, but i've never actually fully understood it till recently. i think it is just like how i've never really understood the true significance of "carpe diem" till a few months back too.

the thing is, sometimes even though we know what it encompasses, we don't really go about putting effort into making it turn out the way we want it to.


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J'ai eu un examen français ce soir. C'était le examen tous les 2 niveau. Je suis à elementaire 4 donc cet examen s'appele "1.2". C'est plus de difficile que l'examen "1.1" bien sûr et je ne sais pas comment à répondre quelque questions. Normalement, je sera désappointé mais pendant l'examen, je n'était pas mécontent. En fait, je suis heureux parce que je me suis senti défié (C'est certainement different de l'examens dans SMU!). Je pense que c'était un bon examen et j'ai appris nouveaux choses même pendant l'examen. =)

(i think my sentence structure for the last sentence is wrong. i meant to say.. "i think that it was a good test and i learnt new things even during the test.)


------ Tuesday, April 22, 2008

more abt the really good weekend getaway (19 n 20apr)-


the games began even before we were in bintan.
and look carefully at the suave guy in shades and red shades (not ray hor), that's allan wu! we saw him, wong lilin and their 2 kids, they were heading to bintan for a holiday too haha..



gorgeous piece of deserted beach we had almost to ourselves



the ones who left for bintan earlier



games time at nite! endless rounds of bridge and a very very interesting game of citadels



ray turned 26 21 on 20 apr! happy 21st birthday ray!



they are sweet innocent boys, really.



and so the drinking games began...















goodbye to a bottle of good scotch.
oh word of advice. never mix whiskey with wintermelon tea. unless u are looking to taste something horrendous.



my first new friends in smu, we have come a long way xoxo


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in case u are still wondering about where that damn dove is in that painting by picasso, here's a clue and how you can go about interpreting the painting: liberté (freedom)

1) make sure there's sufficient light in the room.
2) put the picture on the floor.

3) stand up and look at the picture.

do u see anything?

no?

4) stand on your chair and look at the picture.

now do u see anything?

still no?

5) stand on the table and look at it again.

have u realised by now?


you are the dove. this is a café in paris and you have successfully gotten food off the table, leaving only the peas behind. you are soaring way above everybody and everything now, you are free.


pretty good eh?


------ Sunday, April 20, 2008

just came back from a weekend trip to bintan with the gang. in a way, it is kinda fitting in the sense that the 5 of us first got to really know each other at tanjung beach in sentosa and now 4 years later when we are graduating, we head to the beach again.
it was a nice break, though we didn't really go to the beach all that much. we headed to the beach on the first day. at nite, we played tons of bridge and a game of citadel, then had a few rounds of king's cup and i-have-never, which saw us demolish 1 bottle of scotch and start on the chivas. pretty knocked out by 2am or so.
the weather didn't really favour us today so we played yet more bridge and citadel and went for a swim and jacuzzi. it's a nice weekend getaway with plenty of chilling, especially with lots of laughter and hilarity when playing king's cup and celebrating ray's 2Xth birthday. happy birthday bro!

heh heh photos and videos up on facebook and youtube soon. esp the videos, be sure not to miss them!


anyway, a parting note:


postsecret france


------ Saturday, April 19, 2008

s'il vous plaît, donnez-moi la force. la force à gérer quelqu'un qui est difficile à traiter. ce sera un week-end super et je veux seulement m'amuser. laissez-moi être moi-même svp...


------ Thursday, April 17, 2008

My new french teacher set us a really interesting assignment on tuesday, of which i'm trying to figure out now.



this is a painting by picasso done in paris: Le pigeon aux petits pois (the dove with green peas). and so he told us,
on va discuter un peu d'art. donc, regardez une peinture de picasso, le pigeon aux petits pois, et cherchez le pigeon!
(we are going to discuss a little bit about art. so look at the painting by picasso, le pigeon aux petits pois, and look for the dove!)

so me not being too artistically inclined, i went to google for help. and here's a small clue:
"Dans Le Pigeon aux petits pois de Picasso, quelques éléments peuvent encore être identifiés – petits pois, pigeon et flamme d’une bougie au centre, verre à droite – métaphores de la réalité et jalons plastiques de sa décomposition par la peinture. La confusion entre les lignes définissant les formes et celles définissant les plans, la couleur appliquée par petites touches brouillant la composition sont autant de caractéristiques qui rattachent cette œuvre au “ cubisme analytique ” (1909-1912)."

basically it hints that the peas, the dove and the flame of a candle can be seen in the centre, and a glass (for water) on the right.
i see the flame and the glass

but for the life of me, i can't see the dove!


------ Tuesday, April 15, 2008

ah yes, i spent a very pleasant saturday with bainie and kel (hongyi we missed u). we met for a late lunch at mof at marina square and i must say, the food is pretty good. the hot stone rice was real good, glad i let myself be persuaded by kel to share that. price-wise, it's like ichiban boshi so it's quite alright for a once-in-a-while eating. what can i say.. we love japanese food!

really enjoyed the quality time we spent together, talking about life, work, studies and everything else in between. it feels good to be able to unload what's irritating me, to discuss what's on their minds, their advice and their perspectives.

we need more of this, darlings. n hongyi u better turn up the next time.


------ Monday, April 14, 2008

i had a ridiculously funny dream last nite lol. it's really darn amusing but i'm not gonna say it here cos it'll sound so.... blah. hahaha. i have no idea why i had that dream sheesh!
it's been some time since i had a nice funny dream.


anyways. i'm having a mid term break now and i've just spent my 1st free day clearing 2 boxes full of junk that my parents packed while i was away in europe. it's like a mini trip down memory lane cos the 2 boxes consist of:
- lime magazines (yes i read them last time)
- old powerpoint slides from year 1 and year 2 classes (no idea why i didn't throw them out sooner)
- random pieces of paper; remnants from my vj times!

ok i guess i should go read up on some stuffs while i still have the time now. i need to be prepared. there is a chance, and i must take it as best as i can!


------ Friday, April 11, 2008

i must, i must, i must climb higher.
run faster.
dive deeper.
nothing to prove, except for that immense sense of self-satisfaction that i have the capability to outperform.


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je viens de parler au téléphone avec une femme d'un banque. c'était une surprise parce qu'il était inattendu. elle a appelé de Londres et elle veux fixer un entretien par le téléphone le semaine prochain. maintenant, je suis très impatient et aussi, je ne sais pas à quoi m'attendre.
alors, je pense que je dois étudier encore quelque sujets si je veux me préparer à l'entretien!
bon courage!!


------ Wednesday, April 09, 2008

j :. patience says:
acty i used to have recurring nightmares abt my teeth dropping
like exploding out of their roots
so painful tt i can feel the pain in my dreams
it was so bad... i even tried to find out what my dreams meant
just so i can get them to stop
tt period of time, i started to really bliv in the interpretation of dreams
everything i read said tt it meant tt in reality, i have sth tt i want to say but i am keeping it inside me
tt's y in my dreams, it's reflected as the secrets cant wait to get out of me
n when the matter in reality has passed, the dreams really stopped

wah what else do u dream of?

j :. patience says:
oh when i was much younger like lower primary, i have recurring dreams abt a vampire HAAHHA
nt the dracula type, but the chinese jiang shi type
jump jump jump with hands str out in front
n it would chase me n i would run all the way to this childcare centre i used to attend
n i would hide in the bathroom n in the bathroom was this lady (she was a young staff in the childcare centre in reality), n i would hide behind her
n when the jiang shi came near, he seemed to be in awe of her n he would retreat
the lady wore a white gown n she has this halo-ish glow around her tt scared off the jiang shi
omg im getting goosebumps just describing this
n the dreams will come almost every nite
n it was always the same story
i would wake up frightened initially but i had the same dream so often, i woke up feeling numb eventually


i'm amazed i can remember my childhood dreams (not dreams as in aspirations) in such vivid details even now.


------ Tuesday, April 08, 2008

i really think... that patience is the hugest virtue anyone can possibly have.

without patience, i tend to get bad-tempered more easily. when i become bad-tempered, i become a much nastier person. i tend to become more short sighted and blinded by whatever emotion i was feeling. it could be anger, contempt, disregard, envy, irritation, whatever. but it always is a negative emotion.
and i realised when i get blinded by these negative emotions, i tend to become more selfish. i start to wish the other person would stop, would go away, would fail, would disappear. and i will also become more guarded and even more impatient. and that is really bad.

so, just take a deep breath and be patient.

but like what proj jj always like to say, do not justify A is better by saying why B is worse.

having patience... brings perspective into a lot of things. let the first rush of emotions pass, and things will be less clouded and clearer. and then suddenly, what bothered u so much might not be that huge a bother after all. and then maybe, just maybe, all the other good things can come.


------ Saturday, April 05, 2008

Back on the train, I asked why did I come again
Can I confess, I've been hanging around your old address?
And years have proved, to offer nothing since you've moved
You're long gone, I can't move on
And I miss you, like the desert miss the rain

the 1 club/technohouse (depending on which remix it is) song that i admit is my guilty indulgence.

Step off the train
I'm walking down your street again
Past your door
I guess you don't live there anymore


------ Friday, April 04, 2008

sometimes i wonder...

what is the point of treading around so carefully, of being so conscious of other people's fragile feelings, when all u get in return is nothing in the end?
with one word, u get crushed but really, the person doesn't care.

and there you were, treading around oh so carefully all the time.


je ne sais pas.. peut-être il est temps à évaluer si quelque choses sont vaut la peine.


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