Sunday, February 29, 2004

and this is the first single out of "battle for everything"..

I'm 15 for a moment
Caught in between 10 and 20
And I'm just dreaming
Counting the ways to where you are

I'm 22 for a moment
She feels better than ever
And we're on fire
Making our way back from Mars

15 there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to lose

15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live

I'm 33 for a moment
Still the man, but you see I'm a they
A kid on the way
A family on my mind

I'm 45 for a moment
The sea is high
And I'm heading into a crisis
Chasing the years of my life

15 there's still time for you
Time to buy, Time to lose yourself
Within a morning star

15 I'm all right with you
15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live

Half time goes by
Suddenly you’re wise
Another blink of an eye
67 is gone
The sun is getting high
We're moving on...

I'm 99 for a moment
Dying for just another moment
And I'm just dreaming
Counting the ways to where you are

15 there's still time for you
22 I feel her too
33 you’re on your way
Every day's a new day...

15 there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to choose
Hey 15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live.

"100 Years" ~ Five For Fighting

great song, great lyrics.


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tired

yesterday we reported for work at raffles place.. saw joanne who still looks good.. and finally got to see some people whose names i have heard repeatedly over the past week.. met guang yew.. his name is cool rite? hee hee.. initially i thought i heard wrongly. then finally got to see who is mei hui. a girl who has a very good character and supposedly likes joseph. she's really very nice. we click together well and even ganged up and agreed that jospeh is very old.. from another era. and his ringtone sucks. hahaa. she's really nice.

was doing my work halfway when jo asked if i wanna eat yu2 pian4 tang1 (fish soup).. cos that time my mum cooked fish soup for dinner and i used that excuse n said i dont want to stay too late cos i wanna go home for dinner. so he said when i finish my work, he will treat me to eat fish soup. anw so on sat he said he's going to uob plaza so on the way, he can drop by golden shoe to da bao fish soup for lunch for everyone.. the fish soup is supposed to be very nice.. so can u imagine yv's expression when he asked if she wants to eat fish soup (purposely).. hahaa. so he went to uob plaza to deliver documents.. he's barely out for 5 mins when he called me and said he forgot to bring some stuff.. great so i have to make the trip there too. then when i returned to oub centre, mei hui said jo called bcos golden shoe was closed. then the big boss kok hong called to say he's joining us for lunch. w-a-h... in the end, we all had some hor fun thingy which was quite nice la. the boss talked a lot about work.. stuff like got people in the company are flying off to various countries for various conferences, which dept has employed new people etc. i noticed working adults talked a lot about work even during lunch..

put in one more hour of ot cos i had to do some of yv's stuff cos ks's dept there has other stuff to clear. left office with ks and jo at 2.. went home to rest. was really tired. was thinking of resting in the afternoon then decide who to meet in the evening: relatives for a dinner (which is always popular cos it's always so fun!), bain for dinner, or my initial plan of meeting chengsi, jim and winston and possibly some others for dinner and then pubbing.. but in the end, i didnt go out.. the moment i sat on the sofa, i can just feel the energy sapped from my limbs.. just sat there stupidly and fell alseep after a while and then realised i was feeling a little unwell.. so just continued sleeping.. i was aware that there were quite some msgs coming in but i just couldnt muster the energy to reply them.. so sorrie..

today i woke up at 12+pm.. and i actually had a dream that man utd thrashed fulham 4-1, with a hat trick by ruud van nistelrooy. damn. i think the title is arsenal's this year. they are unlikely to slip up like they did last year. oh well sometimes u win, sometimes u dont.. this season is not a smooth one for united. but then again, critics wrote off man utd totally last season but who won the title? manchester united. oh yeah. maybe this year we will lay our hands on the FA cup or better yet, european's cup. hmmm.

and today i drove my dad's car again! hee hee.. it's the deserted car park again. this time i just drove a straight road, and learned to change gears and brake more smoothly. with more practice, i wont be so nervous and i think that will be the time i will venture out and go on to take driving lessons.. it's seriously rather nerve-wrecking when you are sitting in the driver's seat for the first time. it's like, you actually look at the pedals before stepping on them and the few moments you take your eyes off the road..... good luck.

went to granny's house today.. played mj with my relatives and won quite a bit with my dad as my commander.. but today i must say i was damn lucky la..

oh i have been thinking of getting five for fighting's new album, battle for everything.. u can hear a preview of the album at their website.. but the thing is, the song "something about you" is in their previous album "america town".. ahhh. but the album is still good.. shall see.

wish me luck.. jo and ks told me this coming week will be more hectic than the last.. expect to put in more ot.. sigh. think i'm going to sleep early tonight. nite.


------ Friday, February 27, 2004

thurs..
gb came to meet me and yv for lunch.. ate at breeks.. had the patty melted which is quite nice la.. very tender.. worked ot again yesterday till abt 8.30pm.. and in the end joseph and kim sia waited for me to finish my work.. took train home with them and on the way we talked abt a lot of stuff.. and they said stuff abt laser surgery to correct myopia.. uurgghh.. was very tired when i reached home..
actually strangely, i cant really remember yesterday's events..

fri..
today it feels as though there's tons and tons of things to do and no matter what i do, i cant seem to clear anything.. horrible feeling. and comp's crazy today.. all the passwords to log into the comp and various websites expired so hafta obtain new passwords. and it's like the same username and password for some websites can be used by several people from different branches (something like that) and today, someone has successfully exceeded the number of tries for a username, causing the account to be frozen. well done.

had lunch with yv at foodcourt then we went to kiddy palace to buy stuff for shy ching's newborn daughter.. we were like oohing and aahing at the tiny booties, hats, pillows etc.. hahaa.. in the end we bought a winnie the pooh baby pillow and a pink hat thingy..

joseph came in today at abt 3.. and i almost immediately got pulled by him to go and join raymond and 2 other guys to meet this guy who's gonna teach us how to use a software that generates business reports.. that guy is like, uhm, north indian.. is indian but the fair kind but he's not a sikh.. and he talks rather funnily.. initially i couldnt get what he was saying at all.. kind of sounded like he was speaking tamil.. hahaa. but eventually i got used to it la.. the software is damn complicated to use.. listen until my jaw drop.. so many business terms involved and i can only nod mutely, try to keep up and try not to laugh at his accent.. hah. and i'm sure if u ask to generate a report, i will be at a loss..

after work, we (yv, ks, jo and me) went to nuh to visit shy ching's wife and their newborn daughter.. her name is hannah tay chen xi.. the chinese name is nice right.. and she's so.... tiny! of cos rite.. she looks so peaceful when there's soft music playing in the background and her mum patting her and she yawns, tries to open her eyes, decides against it, and goes back to sleep.. perfect. i'll always remember the moment.

i think shy ching is a really really good husband and dad.. can see that he's so in love with his wife and his daughter. he's so proud of them and so concerned about his wife. he's like balancing work and family very well.. he's successful in work (he's the AVP k..) and he totally adores his wife and daughter.. always thinking of them.. even when buying stuff, he will think like, will they like it.. great guy.

oh yeah, got something funny to share.. i almost forgot abt it until the event that happened today.. it started with this last fri..

me: aey joseph, this is my anti-men pencil. cos most guys when they use it, they got problems pressing the lead out. (which is true, cos u hafta press it lightly)
jo: really ah? *takes it and presses* aey i can leh..
me: hahaa u exception lor. so if this pencil is anti-men and yet u can use it..........
jo: ah bish..

today during dinner, ks finished his food very fast.. but jo was slow..
me: it's okayy wat, he's a guy, guys eat fast wat..
yv: but joseph eat so slowly.. that means he's not a guy..
me: *silent agreement*
ks: wah...
jo: ............

lol it was funny while it lasted.

righto, gonna watch my takeshi kaneshiro now..


------ Wednesday, February 25, 2004

hee hee we almost achieved our target today.. left office at 7pm.. 1 hour ot only.. yv and ks left at 6 thou.. but poor joseph had to stay back till late. and guess what.. he was enthusiastically saying about going to gym after work then hahaa.. sok chin, raymond and daniel told him got stuff to do at about 6.45pm.. can see his expression change..

anyway, went to transcomm in the morn.. the office has a fantastic view man.. uhm i feel quiote happy and alive when i step out of raffles place station and into shenton way. hahaa.

today the other testing group needs more computers so i shifted to the seat vacated by shy ching, which is right smack beside joseph.. and he is a bit crazy today. talk so much crap.. but all very funny! we were like gossiping when working.. okayy there is this china guy sitting opposite us whose name is hao2 jian1.. n we call him orh lua (as in, orh lua the dish with the oysters)

me: eh so who is the orh lua?
jo: *takes a glance* zhe4 xie1 dou1 bu4 shi4 orh lua (all these are not orh lua)..
me: *starts laughing rather hysterically* u mean there are a lot of food names here and orh lua is not here today? cos the way u say it sounds as thou their names are fried kway teow, prawn noodles etc (in chinese)
jo: *laughs rather hysterically*

oh well it was comical..

today i saw something in the mail that made me very happy.. the pay cheque from vs! hee hee.. $500+++ mmm hmmm.. *gRiNz* now they still owe me 3 days' pay..

O results are confirmed out this fri.. vj and tj speculate that A results are going to be out next wed.. but daddy says it's gonna be out next fri.. cos apparently passing out parade is brought forward to the morning, which has never happened before.. thus results are going to be out on friday.. i trust this source more..

ohh i just realised a lot of people in our dept has the initials "sc".. shy ching, sok chin and sai cheong.. thats like 3 out of 8..

gonna watch ami now.. hope tonight's contestants are better than last week's..

p.s. yappachow, dont say i never warn u.. it's difficult to enter my list.. n remember to send me ya photo..


------ Tuesday, February 24, 2004

been real busy these 2 days.. worked ot till 9 yesterday and till 10 today.. tired. just keep testing.. then yesterday i keep testing wrongly.. keep getting the nationality mixed up.. sigh. today is not much better. didnt make as many mistakes but today's work is tedious.. okayy la at least its not those take-paper-and-staple kind of more boring stuff.. towards the end today, the pace gets slightly edgy.. cos got new group of stuff to test and sc wants it quick.. then later still have to finish compiling the stuff joseph asked me to do.. but i learnt lots within these 4 days when i worked.. learnt lots of excel stuff which i never knew existed. hahaa.

took cab home with jo and yv after work.. hmmm jo say next few weeks will get even worse.. esp sc has taken leave bcos his daughter is going to be born soon.. and jo also say tmr's target is to eh, let everyone go home at 6pm.. hope so. hee hee.

oh the takuya kimura show about the pilot is super nice.. he and that actress are kinda cute as a couple. hahaa..

i'm missing some stuff, which i noticed hasn't happened in quite some time.. where's everyone? haiz.

okayy me tired like mad.. nitez.


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heard this song on p10 this morning.. and daniel ong and guest dj vanessa from urban xchange were saying like how talented javier is.. can play all sorts of instruments.. well this song is nice at any rate..

Kind of like a summer's breeze,
you do exactly as you please,
drop a brother to his knees just for fun.
I think it was the first of May,
girl I can't forget the day,
right then and there I knew you were the one.
Do you think that possibly,
you could spend your life with me,
cuz girl this love is growing, and it's hotter than the sun.

[Chorus]
I get a little bit crazy baby,
everytime you call my name
my heart beats a little bit faster,
after, you are in my arms again.
You try to fight it,
don't even try to hide it,
emotions falling down like the rain,
I can't find the words to explain it,
ain't it crazy how i fall,
everytime you call my name.

It's kind of like a work of art,
you shot an arrow through my heart,
even though we're worlds apart I can't deny,
it feels like your a part
of me the finish and the start of me,
girl you are the heart of me,
and that's no lie,
did I mention that I love you so,
and I just want the world to know,
if I could you know I would write your name across the sky.

[Chorus]

Crazy, crazy...
Evertime that your close to me,
I lose control of my sanity,
everynight, everyday, every word and you say,
girl do you know you put a spell on me.

[Chorus]

Crazy,
Everytime you call my name,
I don't know what to do,
I'm so in love with you.

"Crazy" ~ Javier


------ Monday, February 23, 2004

happy wedding, mr phang..

heh just wanna blog about mr phang's wedding.. it was wonderful by the way.. for the first time, he actually seemed very tall.. i mean yeah he is tall but today, he felt very very tall when i stood beside him.. the food was good although the service wasnt all that great.. there was this cute and tall waiter thou. but the rest of them said he wasnt cute. hmmph. okayy maybe not the cutest but woah he is tall. and u know i uh, admire tall guys.. hee hee. anw, mr phang's wife is pretty! she looks so good today.. of cos right.. and the song they sang, "zhi1 ji3" is very nice.. mr phang actually has quite a nice voice too! hmmm..

we drank quite a fair bit today.. we meaning huiying, joycelyn, lilian, chengsi, lingling, ervelyn, jim, aaron, winston and me.. we were at the same table la.. firstly we all had a glass of red wine each.. lilian and joyce dont like alcohol all that much thou.. then they started serving stuff that tasted suspiciously like jolly shandy.. totally no kick la. then they ran out of red wine and brandy so we requested beer.. and they actually served tiger beer.. i think in all, we had about 5 or 6 glasses for our table.. i drink a bit here, a bit there which amounts to nearly a glass i guess.. then huiying actually wanted to challenge me to see who can drink most beer within a gulp. crazy.. we really went with it but not a lot la.. knowing that hy gets drunk more easily than me.. in the end i think she was just high.. well in case u're wondering, i drank about a quarter glass in that one gulp. could've been more but i dont want to be drunk or anything.. plus beer is much more bitter than wine and cocktails..

after the dinner, we took a lot of photos.. have to wait till jim puts them up then i can retrieve them and post them here.. then we were thinking of going to milieu to continue drinking (hee hee we are all alcoholics) but it was already 11+ when we left le meridien and most of us have to work later today.. so we just walked down to ps, sat and talked.. and we came up with the pact that we're going to meet up for dinner this coming sat and head on down to clarke quay to one of the jazz bars.. well dont know if it will actually come true and it gives me something to look forward to anyway..

alright i also wanna say about this dream i had last night.. it was odd. i dreamt that i was with this guy i do not know in a place i cant recognise (again).. but i do know that we are heading towards an exam venue. it was on the 6th storey but i refused to take the lift cos i was afraid the lift may break down. so this guy grabbed my hand and we were running up the flight of stairs to reach the 6th storey. all of a sudden, i realised that instead of running up, we were running down the flight of stairs instead. then he became more urgent and tried to get me to move faster.. we finally reached the exam venue and then i realised we are going to take chem paper 1 and 2.. and i didnt study for it.. i was panicking.....until the examiner said that the question paper is to be shared between 3 people.. then just as we got into groups and can start doing the paper, my dream ended.. as in, i drifted into a dreamless sleep. weird.


------ Saturday, February 21, 2004

altis

okayy didnt go shopping today.. partly bcos i have a headache and also most of us gals cant make it also.. in the end i went out with my parents, met up with aunt cherlyn and uncle kx to go and test drive.. hee hee. went to see the nissan sunny super saloon and my dad test drived the auto gear one.. i think the cefiro is nicer but it's much more expensive. but then again, i dont like the nissan cars.. my dad doesn't like them too. only plus point is that it is cheaper than toyota.. but in the end we went down to toyota's showroom anyway.. i was impressed by the toyota showroom.. went to check out the toyota corolla altis.. it's much more comfortable than the nissan sunny.. went to look at the camry too. the camry is just damn luxurious.. just sitting in the passenger's seat is comfy enough. i sat in the driver's seat and it truly felt good. like i had power. ooh power cars feel good.. test drove the altis.. it's a much better experience than nissan. dad seems to think so too.. so if we are changing cars (which will be some time later cos there's speculation that coe prices may fall further), chances of getting the altis is higher than the sunny.. i'm quite excited!

hmm must make a mental note to take the chance to drive dad's car just for the experience before he buys a new one.. if not i surely will not get a chance to try driving cars before i actually try to get my license..

okayy so that's the happening thing today.. nothing much right..

had some minor conflict thingy regarding phang's wedding present but.... rather not talk about it. what's done is already done, just go with it la.. what to do.. on a brighter note, tomorrow is phang's wedding! at last i have some variations in my sundays.. if not every sunday just stay at home to slack.. gosh my social life is rapidly diminishing..

noticed something.. have u ever wondered why workaholics are single and singles are workaholics? it's a double edged sword actually. cos if u're single, u wont mind working ot (partly bcos of better pay too la) cos u have nothing on at night anyway.. and if u're working ot every other day, u wont have time to go out too. hah. alrite i'm rambling.

i'm thinking about other stuff too.. are people always categorised so distinctly? is it always like, u belong to this group or you dont? i mean, i have seen so many cases of people categorised distinctly.. it's like a subconscious thingy for a lot of people.. actually come to think of it, i'm involved in such stuff too. being categorised. and the feeling sux big time when you fall into the "you dont belong in this category" group. granted, sometimes our surroundings and circumstances group us into 2 categories automatically but does this grouping have to folllow us into our future when our circumstances have already changed? because this is truly what is happening.. havent those who fall into the "u dont belong into this category" group done enough to show that it doesn't really matter which category u fall under as long as all of u can get on well and enjoy each other's company? dont those who are in the "you belong in this category" group know that when you do or say things which remind those "dont belong-s" that they are well, dont belong-s, the "dont belong-s" feel hurt too? am i making sense?

i want that to stop. but in truth, i know i am powerless to make it happen. i'm just a small damn fry in it. sometimes the "belongs" can be so dense and blunt, i feel like slapping them. fcuk.


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just because

to one and all, go see my guestbook.. and be tempted by the link at your own risk. i shant be responsible for anything that may happen.

have started work at uob.. my colleagues there really very funny.. plus the fact that yv already knows them well so it makes it easier for me to integrate into the dept.. anw, i'm doing credit card testing.. the tedious one.. these past 2 days i've been inventing names to test. cos only i/c is impt so names.. we just invent them. long story. today alone i invented about 50+ names.. like christina spears, mariah dion, tachibana nagase, song byung heon.. heehee. i ran out of ideas mah.. printed a report for joseph that's abt 25 pages long in excel.. woah i couldn't get what the report meant so i was struggling a little when organising the stuff for him.. then it's back to data entry.. from names number 32 til 106.. but i only finished up till 70 today and not all are completed yet. sigh.

actually yday i felt as though i just blindly charge my way through the day.. but shy ching explained the whole system to me today so at least i know what i'm typing.. all i can say is that.... the IT people are smart. just brilliant. oh yeah, today had lunch at some coffee shop and raymond treated us.. and i realised i've been making good use of the free drinks from the vending machine.. had a cup of coffee, one milo and one zapple today.. and not forgetting joseph's "rare" drink.. banana milk..

today worked OT until 10.. took a cab home with yv and joseph cos can claim from company.. thank goodness.. i'm dying.. did i mention my body clock is so used to waking up at 5.30 that i woke up at 6 on thurs and nearing 7 this morning automatically when i could have woken up at 7.30 instead.. now i'm tired. on the cab they were talking about what will happen after this project is over.. yv sounded quite vexed and unsure of what to do.. well me, i'll just zou3 yi4 bu4 kan4 yi4 bu4.. no point fretting over it now i guess.. and oh yeah, kelly services called me again today.. so just hope for the best la..

wonder what's gonna happen tomorrow.. joyce and cheng, left with us.. too tired to say why.. well we'll see.. the most is i rot at home tomorrow and then got nothing to wear to phang's wedding.. hahaa.

good night.

p.s. i'm damn damn hungry now.


------ Wednesday, February 18, 2004

last day

it's official: one more day of teaching and i'd have lost my voice liao.. i shall not speak above the minimum audible voice level for the next 2 or 3 days.. nothing much to say about today's lessons..

now i suspect the whole of 4B has my number.. so i made them swear not to give to anyone outside the class.. i cannot imagine what would happen if they give my number to the students i silently curse.. hahaa. so i've been replying to all sorts of funny msgs today.. clarence has my number too. haiz. cos he said he wanted tuition. but come to think of it, he lives in tampines.. well we'll see then..

uhm went down to uob hr department after school.. waited for a long time.. but ya, settled everything.. but she told me i'm only gonna be at tampines for a week then i'll be transferred back to town or raffles place. we'll see..

heard something sad about my bro's friend.. stay strong okayy. life is just so unpredictable. look on the bright side okayy. time heals all wounds. oh well, cheer up.

to cheer u up: get this, the george bush remix of liam lynch's "united states of whatever"..

[Bush voice]
I'm George W. Bush
Leader of the free world
I wanna bomb Iraq
And when the world says no I say "Yeah, whatever!"

Saddam has started to meet our demands
"Yeah, whatever!"

I talked to Colin Powell
He said

[Colin Powell voice]
Sir, maybe we should give the inspectors more time.

[George Bush voice]
I said no, you know why?

Cause this is my United States of Whatever!
And this is my United States of Whatever!
President Bush?
Hush up, don't talk to me now
And this is my United States of
Whatever
Leave it to me

Hello?

[Putin voice]
This is Putin
Russia will veto war

[Bush voice]
Hmmm... i see...
"Whatever!"

[Unknown voice]
Mr President, North Korea's got nukes.

[Bush voice]
Awww... ding dong dong ding dong dong dong
Translation... "Whatever!"

[bin Laden voice]
I am bin Laden, you still have not caught me

[Bush voice]
I'm george W.
You know what the W stands for? Yet.

Cause this is my United States of Whatever!
And this is ding ding dong dong ding ding dong
Whatever!
I hope you got the message... good!

"United States of Whatever [George Bush Remix]" ~ Liam Lynch


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------ Tuesday, February 17, 2004

come fly with me, let's fly let's fly away..

i dont know how to describe my mood today. it is one whole big horrendous mess. something related to my heper-active mind and something i read on the net early in the morning. not feeling good thou. sigh. forget it. it is never gonna happen. whatever happened to courage.

today is my last lesson with the sec 4s so i shant say anything bad about my classes. i did sort of scold 4J in a way thou. told them that i'm not gonna be around any longer, they cant slack any more. they hafta be more serious if they wanna do well. oh well. hah.

muzhaffar and darren gave me a card on behalf of 4B. that's like, so so sweet. they know i wanna learn french so they specially got a card on which the card's template words are in french. then they pasted stickers with french words.. (darren takes french) but the words they wrote are in english la. and zher ming and cedric gave me eh, a bottle of lemon tea. hahaa. sounds weird but.. long story. gave them my email and icq after many requests. and those monkeys, i know they are up to no good. when i was writing stuff on the board, they secretly used my phone to dial their own numbers and hence they have my hp number.. those monkeys. now i got some weird numbers all saying "good aftnoon ms lim.. haha.. u off work already?" '-_-lll"

okayy actually my thoughts are much more organised now compared to this morning. guess some things just aren't meant to happen. get a life.

tomorrow's my last day. yay. but hafta finish the humongous amount of homework that's stacked on my table. but hee hee, i dont have to worry about accumulating stuff to mark anymore! and tomorrow i will have to go down to uob hq at raffles place after school too..

p.s. anyone watches jap shows on ch56? "good luck", the show starring takuya kimura is super nice. funny and warm and entertaining. it's about first officer (pilot) kimura and his job.. ch 56 11pm. (the title of today's post is one sentence of the theme song of good luck)

p.p.s. SMALLVILLE 3 IS GOING TO BE SHOWN ON CH 5 STARTING TONIGHT. CH 5 10 PM.. woohoooo.. finally.. i can get to see tom welling in action again =)

today's not such a bad day after all :p


------ Monday, February 16, 2004

i am sick. as in, physically sick. i felt so horrible today.. after a draggy double with 4J, i just felt like puking. and so i went to the toilet and puked.. a bit only la, not the puke-everything-including-your-breakfast-and-yesterday's-dinner kind. felt a bit better and so i went for my triple with 4B. oh my i really felt like ponning lessons. yv said i''m trying to imitate jack cook if i pon lessons. hahaa.

anw i was a lil frustrated today.. i really think i cant take it any more than past wednesday. that sickening guy from 4J whose name i cant be bothered to remember was super irritating. i really felt like asking him to just f*** off and stop irritating me and my class. and not to mention some people dont listen in class anyway. then still have the cheek to come and ask me how to do work and the worst thing is they admit to not listening in class.. i really felt like saying smthg like "well u can dnt listen, i really dont care u know bcos by the time u take the CA, i wont even be here. blame me when u fail if u want to but dont u realise that's not my problem anymore. they cant dock my pay or hound me down to give u remedials or whatever shit u can think of." but i think that sounds a tad too irresponsible and it wont sound good. so *swallows everything* and attempts to re-explain some stuff on a one-to-one basis. oh well.. 2 MOrE DAYS!!

actually i have a mi4 jue2 as to how i pass each day: be happy that i dont have lessons that start at 7.50am.. look forward to 10.45am, the upper sec recess (end of 1st half) then have a 35-min half time which passes by way too quickly.. then look forward to 1.05pm (left with 2 lessons til end of day) then finally 2.15pm. once the bell rings...full time! *shakes hand with the referee* then stay back to mark books until 3+ (best is before 3.30pm) and then, sayonara.. leave the stadium, go home, rest, moan to my dad if he's home and then fall aslp at abt 5 and slack the nite away, preparing for the match tomorrow.. sigh. today i got by by saying "this is the 3rd last time i'll be waking at this unearthly hour" then when i g for lessons, "just get pass today, tomorrow will finally be the day i can happily tell the sec 4s that it's gonna be my last lesson with them"..

i finally know his name.. koh tze ming james.. heehee. the hot teacher. somehow while rumaging thru mr z's stack of papers to look for 4B's namelist, i found this piece of paper that has the staff list and their form class as well as their extension numbers on it.. quite tyco rite?

oh yeah, today i passed by another teacher's table and i saw that his table is stacked with jay chou's cds.. with the 4th album "ye hui mei" in on top.. wow.. and did i mention mr wee knows mr khoo? mr khoo is a maths teacher in cedar who lives opposite me.. i think he thinks i'm a weirdo cos i was walking slowly behind him once.. but that was because i sort of injured my leg during training in sec 4.. anw so kenneth and i were talking again, this time about the sec 3 cedarian who committed suicide. and so he told me some inside stuff that mr khoo told him.. hmmmm.

okayy i have this suspicion that i'm suffering from indigestion..

looking forward to wed aftnn..


------ Sunday, February 15, 2004

i had a very strange dream last nite.. actually i know i had a series of dreams but i can only remember this one. in my dream, we were at this strange place i cant recognise doing something i cant recall with people i dont remember. how weird. i can vaguely remember one guy thou and everyone else seem to know how we were related. cant recall his exact looks but he is not the devastatingly handsome kind, average i guess. next thing i know, we were at this other strange place and another person there was talking very quickly to us. i cant remember what he said but we left soon after. why this dream? i seldom dream of people i dont know.. definitely weird.

watched the replay of mtv asia awards and i thought it was a bore. so many advertisements and the awards are sort of lke awarded to those who were present. eg: a*mei beating david tao, jay chou and s.h.e for fave taiwan artiste? t.A.T.u beating evanescence, 50 cent and sean paul for fave breakthrough artiste? gareth gates beating robbie williams, justin timberlake and eminem for fave male artiste? what crap. it's obvious jay and david got the loudest screams, evanescence got the loudest screams, robbie and justin got the loudest ever screams.. crap. and i thought michelle branch's outfit was horrible. it just serves to show that she has a flabby tummy. i mean, if u wanna wear such outfits, at least make sure u've a decent bod rite. same goes for machi. guys wearing tight singlets. huh? so what if u got huge biceps and a six pac? absolutely distasteful. stacie oricco was okayy thou. and i thought the sugababes looked h-o-t. i mean, they looked really good! same goes for blue and gareth gates.

mtv asia awards 2004 winners:
fave male artiste: gareth gates
fave female artiste: christina aguilera (i thought beyonce would be a sure-win)
fave pop act: blue
fave rock act: linkin park
fave video: somewhere i belong - linkin park
fave breakthrough act: t.A.T.u
fave artiste singapore: stefanie sun
fave artiste taiwan: a*mei
fave artiste hong kong: sammi cheng
fave artiste korea: boa
(whatever happened to fave artiste japan)
the asian film award: michelle yeoh (one hot babe too)
the inspiration award: anita mui
lifetime achievement award: mariah carey
(the rest is like fave artiste from malaysia, indo, phillipines, mainland china and get this, fave artiste thailand was to someone named "bird thongchai mcintyre".. hah)

tonight got moulin rouge on ch5.. gotta catch ewan mcgregor and nicole kidman..

3 mOrE dAyS!! 3 more days and i'm done teaching. really looking forward to working in uob. well i heard this on tv once: if u've been through the worst, everything else will seem better. not that relief teaching at vs is the worst thou. but u get the idea.



------ Saturday, February 14, 2004

happy v day!

tpday is valentine's day.. aka friendship day.. woke up at abt 10, slack then watched pirates of the carribean.. finally. ben thinking of watching it since before As.. oh both orlando bloom and johnny depp look good in the show.. and so does keira knightley. she is really very beautiful. esp in love actually! can still remember that scene between her and andrew lincoln very clearly. that's like how sweet and sad at the same time..

went to suntec for the smu accountancy talk with yv, em and pk.. it turned out to be more like a talk about world economy.. ended up talking among ourselves than listening.. realised that a lot of vj ppl went for the talk.. aft the talk, went to look for bain darling.. talked to her for a while then then went to look for gb.. gb, thx for the rose =) oh and i finally know who is jane.. she's quite nice looking la but different from what i imagined her to be.. cant describe also but i certainly expected something else..

went to have prata dinner.. was super full.. then went topshop to buy jeans! hee i bought a pair of jeans that cost $86.. now i cannot suan bain darling for buying her pair of $80+ jeans liao.. but i think it's a worthwhile investment.. i feel much happier after buying it.. afterall, this week hasn't exactly been a pleasant week, esp mon and tues..

after that, waited for aaron, erv, licheng and ts to show up.. went to the jigsaw puzzle shop to buy phang's wedding present.. bought this 1000 piece puzzle and the frame that cost about $100 in all.. going to buy the figurines from precious thots too.. that should cost about $100+.. our budget is about $30 per person which is about $360 total.. wonder when and where are we gonna do the jigsaw puzzle..

then went home with yv, em n gb.. oh yes, em commented that everytime we go suntec, i always buy something.. gOt mEh?? dont have lor.. i very long nv buy jeans liao wat.. and all my jeans are so old and cheapo.. heehee now u know.. n rite, i don remember going to suntec with em often wat! hmmph.

and yesh yesh..
MANCHESTER UNITED 4 - 2 Manchester City
i didnt watch the match thou.. kinda regretted it. i should have more faith in my team!! but seriously, brown is the weak link now.. i can only hope that either he will improve (that's the best case) or else van nistelrooy and saha will hafta be in excellent form, scoring more than brown concedes.. but one thing worth mentioning is that gary neville was sent off in the 38th minute and the score before he was sent off was MU 1 - 0 MC.. so it says a lot that man utd can still outscore man city despite being one man down.

okayy okayy enough about man utd. I LOVE MAN UTD!! just cant stop declaring my loyalty.. *sMiLe*

happy valentine's and friendship day, everyone..


------ Friday, February 13, 2004

u are my destiny......

no i am not feeling lovelorn or anything, this line is part of the theme song for golden bowl, the show currently showing on ch56 featuring my hunk takeshi kaneshiro.. hee hee it's such a .......... song. i also dont know what word to use to describe it. it's kind of very fu4 gu3, sounds like it came from the 50s.. actually now i'm into the 60s and 70s country songs.. well not exactly country but definitely not pop.. AND takeshi kaneshiro is such a hottie!! he looks so so so so so so so so good!! thru'out the show, i kept saying ta1 hao3 shuai4 like every 5 mins or so.. heeheehee.. well he is what!

anw, today in 3D after i finished teaching, we all started to talk.. cos we are doing variations now (aka direct and inverse proportion) so i was telling them that kepler's law, T(square) = [4 x (pie-square) / GM] x r(cube), is also a form of direct variation where t-square varies directly with r-cube.. then they were like WAH and challenged me to prove how to derive kepler's law.. luckily i remembered man.. then they asked me all sorts of qns like my prelims grades, sec sch, age, the usual.. then clarence started telling me racist jokes.. oh my, they are horrible ppl.. n clarence and desmond found out that i have a picture of becks as my wallpaper so clarence asked like why dont i put my stead's pic instead.. so thinking of takeshi kaneshiro, i told him my "stead" (fingers crossed)'s pic is too hot to be put up.. heehee!

then during break when i was in the staff room, mr kenneth wee told me that lessons are cancelled cos there's gonna be total defence day commemoration! hahaahaaaaaa... yipee! today for once i felt as thou i get my pay for doing practically nothing.. so of cos i didnt join them in the hall for the commemoration la.. surf net until i realised i got no more websites that i wanna visit, went to the staff lounge to read newspapers, basically just slack la.. and today i went to open the fridge in the staff lounge.. so interesting! a lot of soft drinks, cakes and fruit juice.. got one large bottle of a red drink that looked suspiciously like red wine until i turned the bottle around and realised it's ribena.. hahaa. oh but that means i had my last lesson with 3C yesterday. n i never did get down to telling them my real age and to let them know i enjoyed teaching them. and i never get down to giving kenneth my email add! cos he said he may want tuition.. but that monkey, who knows what he's up to..

angela from uob hr dept called me while i was happily reading newspapers, telling me that the uob guy from tampines wants me to start work next thurs n asked me if i could go down to raffles place on wed instead.. so i hafta go down on wed aftnn after lessons end..

tmr is v day.. such a pity my darling has to work and cant claim hour.. awww darling, i miss u already! *gRiNz* someone is so lucky to be like 1m away from gareth gates hor? n is he really cute? as i've told u, i think he looks quite gay-ish and short.. but since darling u like, i like also! hahaa.. here's a BIG *MUAKZZZ* for u then, bain bain!

p.s. lemme know abt zouk again.. we'll see how k. =p


------ Thursday, February 12, 2004

v.v.v.v.v....V

everyone's been talking about the big V that's coming up.. Valentine's Day. i can still remember what i did for v day (aka friendship day) last year.. ohh i met dominique on the bus on tues morning then she was telling me about Face of the Year 2004. and erm, vj annual cross country is held on this saturday, valentine's day.. uurgghh they're gonna have a sweaty v day..

hmm i'll probably gonna spend v day either going for the smu talk at suntec convention hall with yv and emannuel or rotting at home. but how can i bear to be the very bright light bulb rite? (bet yv will be shaking her head violently if she reads this :p) so i dont know.. or is anyone going for the smu talk too? then at least i wont hafta be so bright =) or else i should just rot at home and watch all my recorded episodes of takeshi kaneshiro and takuya kimura again.. sighz rotting at home.. that's the occupational hazard of being single. hey i'm not complaining too much thou.. think v day is kinda over-rated although it is a cool day.. all the roses and gifts and stuff.. but come to think of it, roses.... it's just a lovely and sweet gesture on v day. remember last year, all the roses i received died by evening.. hahaa. but give me a girl who doesn't like receiving roses on v day and i'll give u a butch. serious. the prices of everything doubles or triples on v day. why bother? heehee but maybe i'm still single that's why i think like that.

v day is supposed to be a day of love, where couples celebrate love and friends enjoy themselves. but unfortch, my friends this year are either working or in camp.. really wonder how v day will be this yr.. no SPs (big hi to jonathan my one and only senior class SP!! and to wingyee, alex, yi en and tim too), no friendship dances with huiying or cheng or yv, no a lot of stuff. OH and no seoul garden with my team mates.. ahh we used to eat at seoul garden every v day =) hmmm.. really miss my cedar and vj days.

i also dont know what else to write.. oh well to all happily attached couples out there, enjoy your v day together. i'll just enjoy v day as a swanking single. heehee.

v day wish list:
5. to just spend v day happily, rotting at home or not
4. for my working days to be enjoyable
3. good A level results (this always appears)
2. man utd win all their games from now on and arsenal lose all the way
1. for takeshi kaneshiro to appear at my door step =)

disclaimer: mind, for point number 5, it's for takeshi kaneshiro to appear at my door step, not just to come to singapore. yeah i know that's not possible but hey, it's a wish list innit? *dReAmY sMiLe*


------ Wednesday, February 11, 2004

never judge today by yesterday

this is what i learnt today.. yesterday was a nightmare of a day and i wasn't exactly looking forward to lessons today.. cos i have 3F and 3G today.. but in the end, all was fine.. think i did some good when i blasted at 3F yesterday.. today they were like "okayy dont make m'am angry already".. heehee. and i praised them for being co-operative then they started to burst into the vs unite cheer.. diaonngg... then 3D also siao one today.. clarence challenged me to a rubber band shooting competition.. he said if i can shoot at his hand from a distance, he will do all his work punctually from now on.. hahaa. i missed la, but he did his work all the same. desmond tried to convince me jimmy eat world is a good band while clarence insisted good charlotte is a good band also.. sigh. guyz. then i told them 3F did the vs unite cheer so after class they all did the spelling cheer. seriously something wrong with their brain..

on the way home, angela from uob called me to tell me where to go next thurs.. yipee i'm going to work in uob next thurs onwards.. no break but it's okayy.. if i'm paid by the hour at such a good rate, i'll work willingly man.. heehee.

yeah so i learnt that we should not judge today by yesterday.. cos what has happened yesterday is over. when i was walking into vs today, i was telling myself that today is a new day, i should smile. but i couldn't bring myself to.. i thought of what happened yesterday and i just felt sian. but hmm, today turned out to be quite good.. similarly, i wont take it for granted that today will be smooth sailing. hahaa.

let me end the day with something nice! i finally found out who the cute hot teacher is.. his name is james (unfortunately i still dont know his surname) and he teaches english literature.. heehee. i found out his name yesterday when i overheard him and another teacher talking.. oh then when i was walking from the staff room to the lift and he was walking in the opposite direction so when we passeed by each other, we just nodded and smiled at each other.. hee hee he's so cute. today when i was signing out at the G.O, he was talking to another lit teacher about the CA that's how i know that he teaches lit..

okayy okayy enough about james.. that song "how can i not love you" by joy enrique is still stuck with me..

how can i not love you? what do i tell my heart? when do i not want you here in my arms? how does one waltz away from all of the memories? how can i not miss you when you are gone? How can i not love you when you are gone?


------ Tuesday, February 10, 2004

Cannot Touch, Cannot Hold
Cannot Be Together
Cannot Love, Cannot Kiss
Cannot Have Each Other
Must Be Strong
And We Must Let Go
Cannot Say What Our Hearts Must Know

How Can I Not Love You
What Do I Tell My Heart
When Do I Not Want You Here In My Arms
How Does One Waltz Away From All Of The Memories
How Do I Not Miss You When You Are Gone

Cannot Dream
Cannot Share Sweet And Tender Moments
Cannot Feel How We Feel
Must Pretend Its over
Must Be Brave
And We Must Go On
Must Not Say What We've Known All Along

How Can I Not Love You
What Do I Tell My Heart
When Do I Not Want You Here In My Arms
How Does One Waltz Away From All Of The Memories
How Do I Not Miss You When You Are Gone
How Can I Not Love You

Must Be Brave
And We Must Be Strong
Cannot Say What We've Known All Along

How Can I Not Love You
What Do I Tell My Heart
When Do I Not Want You Here In My Arms
How Does One Waltz Away From All Of The Memories
How Do I Not Miss You When You Are Gone
How Can I Not Love You When Are Gone

"How Do I Not Love You" ~ Joy Enrique

heard this song by chance.. it touched me, as when i first heard it on the sound track of Anna And The King =)


------

topsy turvy

today is how do i say it? a topsy turvy day..

screwed up in 4J.. shall not elaborate cos i dont wish to be reminded of it too much.. blasted at 3F.. actually i only felt like blasing at benjamin wee and derrick.. they are bastards.. i cant stand them.. just like i cant stand wai keong and thaddeus of 3G.. sigh.

didnt do anything with 4B cos half the class wasn't present due to prefects' investiture.. so i gave those who were present their loci test then we spent the rest of the lesson talking.. ended up admiring reyneth's drawings.. reyneth is from AEP (art elective).. he's good. then i chatted with zher ming and bryan liu.. they were telling me that they changed their ways since last year but the teachers dont believe them.. always mark them.. the principal even criticised bryan's father and bryan was damn buay song.. they were basically telling me the ku3 zhong1 of marked students.. zm even sanded off the surface of his vs badge.. they, actually practically the whole class, dislike the principal.. then 2 people almost fought.. and the guy refused to talk about it.. could tell he was really pissed with the other guy sean.. but after class, the guy (i still dunoe his name) came to talk to me and told me why he dont like sean.. he said the other teachers dont care.. quite serious leh, his problem..

think i won over zher ming and bryan.. they said i was the best teacher they had hahaa.. although i know it's because i'm slack with them but i feel happy all the same.. i like to think it's because i'm the only teacher who's willing to listen to their rants.. then it turns out we have some common interests in music.. we like coldplay and green day to an extent.. and we think that good charlotte sucks and simple plan and busted are poser bands.. heehee.. they even said wanna throw farewell party for me next week.. hahaa i'm kinda touched.. but i told them not to, cos i dont want them to get into troubla with mr ang (the principal), mr maran or mr chia..

i'm just happy i will finish relief teaching next wed.. got a job at uob liao. thx, yv.. got any gal living in bedok and dont mind giving tuition? a tuition agency called me just now to ask me that.. give tuition to a sec 4 gal in e maths and combined physics.. if u're interested, let me know.. she asked me to call her back if i know anyone who's interested.. and she said the gal's willing to pay..


------ Monday, February 09, 2004

and he said what?

lessons today are fine.. think 4J is getting used to me, they are at least responding in class now.. i think i shocked 4B today cos i spoke with a sense of detachment today.. cos there's this super attitude guy called jeevan and he, zher ming and bryan liu always never listen so today i just told the class that "if you dont want to listen, please keep quiet so that the others who want to listen may do so. if you insist on talking, can u pls leave the class. i dont mind if you dont want to listen you know, i dont give a damn." and then.. *silence* think it's because i said " i dont give a damn".. but actually in the end, after i finished what i have to teach, i ended up talking with izzat, jeevan and adam about soccer.. they were arguing about who's the best player currently, totti (izzat's choice), zidane (jeevan's choice) or ronaldinho (adam's choice).. then i also forgot how it started but jeevan started saying how god is unfair that there are so poor people and communism is probably better.. so we had another discussion on it and halfway through, zher ming and bryan liu came to join in (probably because they dont wanna do the hwk).. was kinda nice..

after sch, i ran into mr chia the dm:
mr chia: hi so how are you? coping well?
me: oh yes, it's quite okayy..
mr chia: what classes do you teach?
me: *pauses and wonders if i should tell him all my classes* 3C, D, F, G amd 4B and 4J
mr chia: *pauses for about 3 seconds looking lost* OH sec 4B!
me: yes, the one with zher ming and bryan liu
mr chia: are they giving you problems?
me: no they are fine so far
mr chia: really ah, if they give you trouble, report to me alright. we are following up on their cases

woah. anw, another job agency called me today.. they said they will help me take note of job vacancies starting next wed.. hopefully.. and guess i will have to make a call to angela and terrence soon..


------ Sunday, February 08, 2004

quite a number of stuff happened these 3 days..

fri..
gave 3C and 3D their indices tests and i'm very proud to say that my supposedly worst class, 3D, came out with the best results! i like 3D the most.. they are a nice bunch of people, treat me like their good friend like that.. much better than 3G. but a bit surprised that clarence only got 9/15 cos he looks smart.. heehee. 3C my smartest class is 2nd and not surprisingly, 3G is the worst. then when i got out of the lift to go for my lesson with 3C, i ran into 3D outside the lift and they were like "wah scare us, we thought is other teachers".. dunoe why though.. 3C is a funny class, there are really smart people there but there are also some slackers and basically, most of them are quite mischievious.. at first i thought the monitor kenneth is a rascal but turns out, he is a very funny person.. he insisted i mark his paper so that he can find out whether he has passed.. he did pass la, think he got 10/15 and he was like "hurray!!" then he asked if he can take it back and re-do it.. hah hah. oh yeah, i've told this story to my class gals and yv but think i still wanna say it.. i tell u, the guys are horrible. this happened in 3C:

okayy there is this guy called jing ming who's forever quite blur and will stumble and fumble when i ask him o answer questions cos i think he's sleeping half the time.. so when i asked him to answer one qn, he "uh" and "eh" but finally answered the qn, and this took place after class and those present were me, kenneth, jingming, joshua and i think 2 more guys whose names and i cant remember..
kenneth: m'am, jing ming is tongue-tied over u la.. he says he likes you!
jing ming: no la no la!!
me: ya ya ya.. he's too young for me la..
kenneth: *smiling mischieviously* jing ming! m'am says you're too short for her! (jing ming is quite tall one)
me: NO i didnt say that!
joshua: eh jing ming, WHAT THING too short ah?
'-_-lllll" wah man, they are so disgusting!

after school, i went to meet bain darling to shop at bugis.. finally bought my justin timberlake cd!! bain bought a bag at bugis village.. my heels were killing me.. then i went to meet my class gals for dinner at marche at heeren.. our bill was about $70+ which is about $12 per person.. cheap rite? then we went to take neo cards.. it's nice! heehee.. gonna put it up at my desk.. (oh there's a cambodian sunrise photo, a photo of clouds, a veii photo, a photo of vesta ogls and a photo of david beckham at my desk liao =))

sat..
slacked at home in the morn and early afternoon.. was really sleepy.. went town to meet yv and jz at about 4+.. went to the man utd shop at tanglin by myself before meeting them but they dont sell calendars.. too bad then.. saw quite a number of cute guys.. heehee. and was approached by tons of those outdoor sales people as well as people who are selling flag.. never stop thou.. watched some buskers perform then went down to suntec for dinner with the usual bunch.. had dinner at cafe cartel which was very filling.. had baked chicken lasagne.. after dinner, i went to buy bacardi breezer just because i really felt like drinking a little alcohol without getting too woozy.. and as usual, got called alcoholic by yv n gb.. well i am not. i am just a person who appreciates alcohol =) i would have bought jd if i had the means to.. went home with yv, gb and jz..

MANCHESTER UNITED 4 - 3 everton
what a thrilling match.. i swear i almost got a heart attack when everton equalised at 3-3.. was silently cursing wes brown and darren fletcher man.. that wes brown is a weak link for now.. he's still not match fit enough.. hopefully he can buck up in time for the champions league match against porto.. louis saha was fantastic though.. scored his 2nd and 3rd goal for man utd.. and not forgetting.. RUUD VAN NISTELROOY scored his 100th and 101st goal for man utd lat night! that makes him the 2nd fastest player to score a century of goals for man utd, the fasted being denis law decades ago.. great match, great goals, great result..

sun..
slacked the morning and early afternoon away.. then i decided i should go to my gran's house so i followed my dad, who went to collect some stuff for his work at eunos area.. then at the deserted car park with a really long and straight stretch of road, he let me try driving!! so i learned how and when to change gears, how hard to step on the clutch, brake and oil pedals.. and i turned out of the parking lot and drove a short straight line distance before braking erratically.. it was exciting! (and scary) heehee


okayy i am supposed to have finished marking the loci qns that i brought home, as well as to plan tomorrow's lesson cos i'm starting a new chapter, geometrical transformation, with the sec 4s but needless to say, that hasn't been done yet.. going to do them now..


------ Thursday, February 05, 2004

疯狂世界 ~ 五月天

作词：阿信　作曲：阿信　

如果说了后悔　是不是一切就能倒退　回忆多么美　活着多么狼狈　
为什么这个世界　总要叫人尝伤悲　我不能了解　也不想了解　

我好想好想飞　逃离这个疯狂世界　那么多苦　那么多累　那么多莫名的泪水　
我好想好想飞　逃离这个疯狂的世界　如果是你　发现了我　也别将我挽回　

想了你一整夜　再也想不起你的脸　你是一种感觉　写在夏夜晚风里面　
青春是挽不回的水　转眼消失在指尖　用力的浪费　再用力的后悔

ahhh this song... it never fails to calm me and make me feel less pissed. but it probably wont show up so fyi, it's feng1 kuang2 shi4 jie4 (english = crazy world) by wu yue tian.. it just has such a nice feel i cant help feeling better..


------

oh fish

oh call me sadistic but i like giving out class tests.. gave 2 classes their indices test yesterday.. it's a good way to keep them silent and "kill" time.. heehee. have been chiong-ing coordinate geometry these past 2 days.. it's easy to teach but the students always dont know how to do the same few questions so yeah, for once, a lot them of are stumped by the questions.. unlike the easy indices qns.. talk abt "easy" indices qns, it turns out all of them are stumped by the difficulty of the test.. even got one student who handed in a blank piece of paper..

today i was damned pissed with 3G and i let them knew i was pissed.. think they were shocked into silence for a while cos i think i've never been so fierce to them. and i felt bad after the lesson cos most of them weren't at fault.. it was only the dumb asst monitor and his gang.. yeah so i felt a bit bad but that doesn't stop me from feeling pissed. after lesson, we went to lau1 yu2 sheng1 with the rest of the teachers.. quite funny cos everyone was saying "lao1 ah! tonight must strike toto!" heehee..

oh yeah, have just started talking more to mr kenneth wee, the teacher beside me in the staff room.. and i finally found out who's the mysterious ms tan nicole anne, another 19-yr-old relief teacher. and oh did i mention i find one male teacher quite hot? heehee.. he's not very very shuai but he has a damn good build.. like a swimmer's build like that.. looks are okayy i guess.. hahaa.. yeah that's that.. he's probably nearing 30.. righto, that's about it..

actually also got nothing much to write about.. i'm just currently feeling very numb.. numb to everything that's happening around me.. saw something on someone's blog and it got me eh, thinking about something else (contrary to what the person feels).. well what can i say? i can still remember mrs tay telling us to "think" more than we "feel".. guess it has become natural to me then.



------ Tuesday, February 03, 2004

today is so so i guess.. tuesday is a killer timetable and i survived without much battle scars save for a really dry throat that my voice almost gave way during my last lesson with 3F.. today's lessonwith 4J is kinda nice, quite different from last week..they were quite crappy la.. tried to sing "she bangs" until i told them i made my sec 3 class dance to the screwed up version of "she bangs".. (those who have watched american idol, guess u will know what i mean.. those who wanna see the clip, tell me, i can send it to u - it's hilarious!) then when i insisted i am 30, they started asking me if i have younger sis, if i have any young, chio and single friends.. quite funny..

today i realised yap chow (the kevin-and-garry lookalike) is quite cute.. heehee.. cute as in the joycelyn definition of cute, not the takeshi kaneshiro and david beckham kind of shuai4 dai1 le4.. in the morning, mr chia the dm asked me if zher ming and bryan liu are making trouble in class and i said no, which is the truth la.. they are just talkative but not disruptive.. actually the 4 of them zher ming, bryan liu, cedric and yap chow are quite fun ppl i guess.. they add liveliness in a way.. well as long as they dsrupt my class and they hand in their work, i'm fine with them talking..

heard this in 4B:
zher ming: aey i tell you something.. u know A right? yesterday he was on the bus and he saw this chio girl so he went to sit beside her.
bryan: wah lao, as usual..
zm: no then when he sat down, he realised the seat was wet..........
*both of them started laughing hysterically and at the same time tried to keep it down*

was quite funny.. so i have no more sec 4 lessons this week.. left with sec 3.. have to clear more than half the chapter of co-ordinate geometry.. actually i'm supposed to finish co-ordinate geom this week but everything is delayed due to cny.. yeah whatever..

Who Wanna Try Marking Homework? it is best if you have a creative mind and can read works of abstract art.. as i was telling yv, i will have 9 x 65 = 585 questions of loci to mark, 162 x 10 = 1620 co-ordinate geom questions, 4 x 162 = 648 indices test qns to mark.. cool. yeah.. if u have this secret desire to know what it is like to mark e maths work, drop me a note.. heehee.. oh i have to say that this is strictly voluntary.. i'm not gonna pay anyone for it.. *gRiNz*


------ Monday, February 02, 2004

i have this strange paranoia that's creeping up on me. i have no idea why this is so.

anyway, i have decided that 11 working days aint that long after all.. i will finish my relief teaching in vs in 11 days.. as i've been telling some friends previously, by this coming thursday, i would be halfway through this relief teaching stint and hell, i feel kinda happy about it. then i can move on to other jobs which will give me other work experiences.. and i have decided to go off as early as i can after school has ended.. cos i just realised it's super easy to mark e maths work (except for loci).. all of them copy from each other anyway.. i can finish one class in 20 minutes or so..no kidding.. so yeah, jiahui will be off damn early! hurray..

i've been getting some weird calls lately, where the caller hangs up as soon as i say hello.. it's always a home/office number, not a handphone number. there have been 3 of such calls liao.

on a side note, i've been thinking a lot lately, of my life and where is it heading. and i come to this conclusion that although my life has been rather colourful up till now, there isn't anything that i miss dreadfully, so much so that i will think of it constantly. which can be good in a way, i guess, that i am not overly dependant on something. i like to think that i can rough it out and independence is probably the best thing that a girl could want to prove herself in this sadistic world. it's like, no worries, not getting overly emotional, let's move on kind of thing.. but lately....things are screwed. or perhaps it's just me. *bLeAh*


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