Tuesday, November 30, 2004

am sick! fever, cough, flu all at one go. so i took all the necessary medicine. and i feel better now. haha.

anw, met cq today for some thereupatic talking ahahahaa. thereupatic for him i guess. in the end, he went to cut hair n i went to uh, watch him cut his hair. lol. thanks for the starfruit juice though. my throat does feel better now =)
get well soon! ahahahaaa.. remember, 12/3.5 ok.

n guess what? despite being sick, im gg mambo tmr! finally mambo. kinda miss mambo. lol must show kel all the mambo goons ahahahaaa. oops. the whole world is gg mambo btw. argh. must go early! cant wait =)

everyone's leaving for their yep liao. have a safe journey peeps, return home in one piece. and may ur trips be valuable to u as mine was to me!




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"Open Your Eyes" ~ Alter Bridge

Looking back I clearly see
What it is that's killing me
Through the eyes of one I know
I see a vision once let go
I had it all

Constantly it burdens me
Hard to trust and can't believe
Lost the faith and lost the love
When the day is done

Will they open their eyes
And realize we are one
On and on we stand alone
Until our day has come
When they open their eyes
And realize we are one

I love the way I feel today
But how I know the sun will fade
Darker days seem to be
What will always live in me
But still I run

It's hard to walk this path alone
Hard to know which way to go
Will I ever save this day
Will it ever change

Still today we carry on
I know our day will come
When they open their eyes
And realize we are one

Will they open their eyes
And realize we are one
(its hard to walk this path alone
hard to know which way to go)
Will they open their eyes
and realize we are one
(lost the faith and lost the love when the day is done)

Will they open their eyes
And realize we are one

*thanx to cq for fully recommending this song*


------ Sunday, November 28, 2004

met up with bain n kel yday.. something missing? yes, hongyi! ahahaha. nus nus tsk tsk.. haha. ok enough. we went to watch birth, which wasnt a good movie at all! n i had high hopes for it.. the storyline's really not good n the actors werent good too. oh but the little kid looks a bit like a younger and thinner wayne rooney. lol.
its really really really really great seeing bain darling again! havent seen her in a long time! (uhm ok, maybe abt a month. heehee) swapped stories as usual.. of TKs, DJs, ZWs, office boys (*sMirKs*), THE D, THE P, Ks, THE cb cute guy, n oh d**t** the bastard/jerk/idiot. ahahaha. amusing. and my J(ay)! woot..


Saturday, stepping into the club
The music makes me want to tell the DJ, turn it up
I feel the energy all around
And my body can't stop moving to the sound

But I can tell that you're watching me
And you're probably gonna write what you didn't see
Well I just need a little space to breathe
Can you please respect my privacy

Why can't you just let me do
The things I wanna do
I just wanna be me
I don't understand
Why would you wanna bring me down
I'm only having fun
I gotta live my life (like I wanna do )

I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
Why can't they let me live
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is

"Rumours" ~ Lindsay Lohan
(i nv thought i'd like a song by her)


------ Saturday, November 27, 2004

i went to jay's concert n i tell u, it was FREAKING NICE!! i love the stage effects, the sounds, the MAN. JAY IS ABSOLUTELY TALENTED. his voice is really really good. i love jay!! took some pix n some videos. xing's friend took 148 pix! my gosh! n xing got videos too.. must trade with her! ilovejay! i can listen to xing qing n hei se you mo repeatedly without ever getting sick of it!


went zouk after the concert. it was pretty fun haha.. introed kel n serene to the the fab5. lol. oh saw nickkk there also. n yuimin n russell n zhiwei. the same gang la. n zw always has tt expression when he sees me. wth haha. oh when we left zouk at 4, we saw madam tussaud wahahahaha. poor dude's sitting there with a nosebleed n absolutely konked out. wonder where his friends went sia.

mambo on wed?? dec is a time to party away sia. wahahaha. wed ok.. kel, serene, darling, th n kiannnn!

ILOVEJAY!!


------ Friday, November 26, 2004

everybody has secrets

indeed. and who doesn't? i would be the first to raise my hand right up if this question is asked. secrets. they are so a part of me. i think its a part of everybody, cos dont u have things tt u just want to keep to yourself?
maybe that's partly the reason why i readily agreed to watch the show. doesnt hurt that the male lead happens to be my hottie lee byung-hun.

overdosing on jay now.. tmr's his concert!!

everybody has secrets
indeed.


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have a true story here.. hope u enjoy it as much as i did.

Story of the Day - "From Hodgkin's to Ironman" ~ Wally Hild

"It's possible to eat an elephant - but not in one sitting. It can only be consumed one bite at a time."

These words, spoken by a close friend, influenced the outcome of the most difficult and grueling endeavour I ever attempted.

In early 1004, I was very ill and had lost twenty pounds. That February, oncologist Dr Jack Chritchley told me I was dying of cancer. Instead if being filled with panic at the diagnosis, I experienced a profound sense of peace because of my spiritual connectedness to God. However, I was terrified for my family. Thinking of having to leave them left my knees weak and my heart pounding. I broke the news to my wife, Caroline.

At supper that night, we told out two teenagers. Jodi was only fifteen, in grade ten, and her brother, Chris, was two years older and in his senior year. They were stunned. I explained how De Chritchley suspected advanced Hodgkin's disease.

That night as I was watching TV, Jodi slowly approached my rocker. I saw the hurt in her dark eyes. She asked me, "Daddy, are you going to die?" I felt as if a knife were thrust into my heart. There was only one answer I could give her. I held her close, and, with my tears falling onto the top of her head, I gave her - and myself - the answer we had to hear.

"No, honey, I'm not going to die."

After a month of medical procedures, Dr Critchley’s diagnosis of Hodgkin's disease was confirmed. He sentenced me to 8 months of aggressive chemotherapy, two treatments a month. 3 weeks after my first poke, I began losing my hair. I watched in fascination as clumps of hair snaked down my body, swirling in large circles into the drain.

I envisioned my life being sucked away. Shortly after that, I lost my job because the sweats, mood-altering steroids and other drugs made it impossible to work. As spring turned into summer, I gradually became weaker because of the chemotherapy. My muscles were atrophying. I could not risk any kind of scrape or cut because an infection could prove fatal to my weakened immune system. Even a cold was dangerous.

In August, Caroline and I watched the Ironman Canada Triathlon held each summer in Pentiction. Eighteen hundred athletes from around the world entered the 2.4-mile swim, 112-mile bike ride and 26.2-mile marathon, which must be completed in less than 17 hours to earn the finisher's medal. I turned to Caroline, and with tears in my eyes, croaked, "I'm going to do that someday."

At the end of October, I completed my 16th poke. With difficulty, I struggled at getting back in shape. My shoulders, hips and heels were constantly sore, an after-effect of the ravages of the chemo. I started a new job in January 1995 and intensified my workouts. In September, Caroline and I met with Dave Bullock, a 3-time Ironman competitor. We asked questions about the commitment required to complete the race and whether I could finish it. The answer came back a resounding "Yes!"

There was only one fly in the ointment - I had never learned to swim. This would be high on the list of things to do.

My running began in October 1995, and in early November, I enrolled in swimming lessons. Over the winter, I ran indoors on a treadmill and learned to swim. On Victoria Day weekend, I finished the Kelowna half-marathon in 2 hours and 15 minutes. I had never run 13 miles nonstop before.

At times, though, I had to fight the black thoughts of uncertainty. The mental struggle was often as difficult as the physical training. I was hoping the cancer would not come back because of the stress on my body. My blood ran cold at that horrifying thought. Ian Mandin, a close friend, was battling cancer. One evening by phone, I told him about my mental struggle, and he told me something very profound.

He said, "If you take on a challenge and it seems to overwhelm you - pretend it’s an elephant."
"Pardon?" I asked incredulously.
He explained, "You can't eat an elephant in one sitting, but you can one bite at a time."
He said I had beaten cancer one "poke" at a time.
Now I would earn my Ironman medal one stroke in the water, one pedal push and one running stride at a time.

In July, I entered the Peach Classic, an Olympic-distance triathlon consisting of a 1-mile swim, 25-mile bike ride and 6-mile run. This would enable me to defeat the demon of deep water.

I was the last of 300 triathletes in the water. I fought back waves of panic as I saw the beach drop away below me into the blue-green murkiness of Okanagan Lake. I screamed at myself, You can do it. You’re taking another bite out of the elephant.
32 minutes later, I was back on the beach at the finish line. With a mile-wide grin, I pumped my arms into the air. I'd conquered the lake. 3 hours later, soaked in sweat from the midday heat, I jogged over the finish line into the arms of Caroline and Dave.

My confidence mushroomed.

At 4am on August 24, my alarm sounded. It was Ironman Sunday! The 4 of us gathered in the living room and had a family hug. Tears sprang to our eyes as we again thanked God for strength, and we prayed for one more day of the same - for all of us.

I arrived in darkness at registration before 5am and at 6.30, as the sun rose, I put on my wet suit and warmed up in the lake. The cannon boomed the start of another Ironman at seven sharp. I'm swimming in the Ironman! My mind screamed as I dove in.

1 hour and 42 minutes later, I touched sand. I got up and jogged through the finish line, up onto the lawn. Suddenly, I stopped short.
There in front of me was Dr Critchley. I grabbed him in a big bear hug. He looked at me and said, "In my thirty years in oncology, I've never seen anyone who was as sick as you came back to do something as brutal as this."

Soon I was on my bike for the 7-hour ride. By 11, the sun was blazing in the sky, and I had passed Osoyoos and was on my way up the difficult Richter Pass. The hours melted away under the afternoon heat. Through Cawston and Keremeos, I arrived at the steep incline to Yellow Lake. Halfway up, I felt a sudden stab on the outside of my left knee. With each downward push, the pain increased. I had to paddle the last 22 miles using only my right leg.

At the medical tent, Dr Critchley and 2 other doctors examined the knee. Finally, they wrapped it with a tensor bandage, gave me several Tylenol and said, "Go do it."

I couldn't run. I looked at my watch - 5.25pm. I had to average 4 miles an hour to get back before midnight. Several mile up the road, I came on another triathlete, Peter Diggins, an Australian, who was limping along. I introduced myself to him. Soon we were heading south on Eastside Road past orchards, a few feet away from Skaha Lake. By 8.30, as the sun was setting into the mountains to the west, we made it to the turnaround, about a mile and a half south of Okanagan Falls. I picked up my sweatshirt in my special-needs bag. I tied it around my waist, knowing the cool mountain air would soon make the night chilly. I looked at Peter and said, "Well, buddy, only 13 more miles to go - just a little jaunt in the country."

Night arrives quickly in the mountains. The walk back became a surrealistic trip. My knee was throbbing. Every step hurt. I knew blisters were forming on the bottoms of my feel.

At the 17-mile marker, I sat down to shake some small rocks out of my right runner. I tried to get up. To my horror, my legs would not respond. A jolt of panic hit me. My legs had seized up. I shouted to Peter, who was now forty yards ahead of me, "Help me!" he came running back, and I told him I couldn't get up. He held out his hand and jerked me to my feet. My legs, which moved stiffly, felt like concrete pilings. In a few minutes, the awful sensation passed. I knew I would have to walk through the pain till the end.

By 11pm, we had reached the south end of Penticton. 2 more miles to go.

Over the past 10 miles, we had seen a dozen ambulances pass us to rescue those who were unable to finish. It was a very sobering parade of flashing red lights. Each time, I gritted my teeth and vowed not to quit. I looked at my watch: 11.15pm. 1 mile to go.

I began to cry. My dream was about to be realized. With 3 blocks to go, I put my arm around Pete’s left shoulder and thanked him for helping me get through the previous 26 miles. One more block to go. At the end of Main Street, the racecourse turned left to the finish line. One hundred yards away. I could hear the voice of announcer Steve King as he brought home another exhausted triathlete.

At the corner, I saw 6000 people waiting at the finishing line. The big white Ironman Canada structure housing the finish line gleamed like a brilliant star. My emotions exploded in a fireball of hot, salty tears, which clouded my vision. I began to run.

Suddenly, I heard Steve in an excited voice, "And now, ladies and gentlemen, here's a local man who just last year finished chemotherapy and conquered advanced Hodgkin's disease, and now he’s conquered the Ironman – Mr Wally Hild."

His voice trailed off as a loud cheer went up from the crowd. They had surged forward, allowing me a narrow, twisting trial to the finish line. Hands went out in front of me, and I touched as many as I could.

I was sobbing, choking and unable to breathe. My windpipe as constricted with indescribable emotion. I pumped my hands high into the air as I approached the tape emblazoned with the words "Ironman Finish Line."

I looked up and saw my time: 16 hours, 34 minutes and 17 seconds. I stumbled across the finish line into the arms of my family. Moments later, the medal was around my neck. We were oblivious to the cacophony of sound and kaleidoscope of motion around us.

I was given my Ironman Finisher's T-shirt, which I triumphantly put on. We walked slowly to the massage tent, my body now racked with pain.

But I didn't care. I couldn't wipe the grin from my face. Just before we got to the massage facility, I turned back to look at the giant structure above the finish line. Right before my eyes, it vanished. I had eaten the elephant.



------ Thursday, November 25, 2004

yay the 3 papers are over.. they are tough papers but they are over. =)

just thought i'd drop a note abt it. not in too much of a mood to blog now la.

oh.. went to watch "everyone has secrets" with kel just now. wooo lee byung-hun is a HOTTIE. no doubts abt it. he's like woah n i'm like WOAH. ahaha. not making much sense liao. the movie is funny. gld i watched it in the end. thanks, kel!


------ Saturday, November 20, 2004

ooh i took a photo with ronald susilo today! ahahahaa.. went to watch the semis of singapore open. today's matches are very nice esp the men's singles. glad i went to watch the matches. caught susilo when he was on his mobile phone. he's so nice haha.




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I hear the clock, it's six a.m.
I feel so far from where I've been
I got my eggs and my pancakes too
I got my maple syrup, everything but you
I break the yolks, make a smiley face
I kinda like it in my brand new place
I wipe the spots off the mirror
Don't leave the keys in the door
I never put wet towels on the floor anymore

Dreams last for so long
Even after you're gone
I know you love me
And soon you'll see
You were meant for me
And I was meant for you

I called my momma, she was out for a walk
Consoled a cup of coffee but it didn't wanna talk
So I pick up the paper, it was more bad news
More hearts being broken or people being used
Put on my coat in the pouring rain
I saw a movie, it just was wasn't the same
'Cause it was happy and I was sad
It made me miss you oh so bad

Dreams last for so long
Even after you're gone
I know you love me
And soon you'll see
You were meant for me
And I was meant for you

I go about my business
I'm doin' fine
Besides what would I say
If I had you on the line
Same old story, not much to say
Hearts are broken, everyday

I brush my teeth and put the cap back on
I know you hate it when I leave the light on
I pick up a book, turn the sheets down
Take a deep breath and a good look around
Put on my pjs and hop into bed
I'm half alive but I feel mostly dead
I try to tell myself it'll be alright
I just shouldn't think anymore tonight

Dreams last for so long
Even after you're gone
I know you love me
And soon I know you'll see
You were meant for me
And I was meant for you

Yeah
You were meant for me
And I was meant for you


"You Were Meant For Me" ~ Jewel


------ Friday, November 19, 2004

did some thinking involuntarily today.. n i think i understand some things better now. just maybe. so when i think back on what i did n how i felt then, i feel rather amused. its one of those feelings u know? like "ohmy, did i really did that then? how in the world?" lol. amusing.

bainnnn... finished with ur exams le?? hahaaa congrats dar-ling!

okiez slacked long enough. back to balancing all my statements. ciao.


------ Thursday, November 18, 2004

FA is a killer! tried doing past yr papers. n i keep referring! in the end, i took a loooong time to do the mcqs only. gosh its too depressing to even keep track. n for the life of me, i cant do cashflow statements. nil. zero. zilch. nada.

ARGH!!!!

n not to mention QM n stats. when did stats become so tough?? bah.

FOCUS, FOCUS!!


------ Wednesday, November 17, 2004

trying to make myself believe.

i do wonder. did i lull myself into belieing that some things exist in a near-perfect state? did i idealise some things? did i think that some things are so nice but in fact, it is far from good? that i make myself believe that i am so fortunate n popular etc? maybe.

or maybe looking from another angle, could it be just that i'm easily satisfied? maybe its not such a bad thing. maybe. i wish. trying to make myself believe.

n i c e.

FA is a killer. i wonder how will i survive this. concentrate. focus. zzzz.


------ Tuesday, November 16, 2004

i have a new resolution. i am going to stop swearing.
help me achieve that pls. i need to find back that innocence and peaceful at-ease-with-yourself feeling again. i predict its gonna be quite an effort n it already takes quite a bit to actually make a resolution like that. wahahaa. its not gonna be that bad la huh. but "damn" and variations of it is not swearing. i need a leeway. =)


------ Monday, November 15, 2004

is there nothing else? sometimes u think u are something u are not. and that sucks. but so what? there's always one mountain that's gonna be taller than u. ok tt's a lousy translation.
just a thought.

adapted from xy: "designed a capsule to capture my memories. yet there are some i'd rather forget."
bulls' eye.
havent seen her ard too, thou she lives like across the bridge from me. haha.

i wonder..


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hey cellular is a nice show. the plot's slightly unbelievable but its a good watch anw. thx to huiying n ln who watched it with me..

n i'm stuck with g12. ayeeee the thought of caroline yeoh as my bgs prof makes me sick. talk abt profs.. my qm prof is da best. she reduced our final term syllabus by half. she gave us another make up assignment to pull up our grades. she's allowing a 2-sided crib sheet for our exams. she's providing us with formula sheet for queuing analysis. AND she's offering lots of As up for grabs. 24% will get A and A+, 48% will get A- and above. if tt's not good, i dont know what is. where in the world can u find such a nice prof? ahahh.

met yv, zj, gb, jz, wein, nicky n ed yday for dinner at some pizza place in wisma. havent seen them all in a loooong time. and yes, THANX for the prezzie. i always thought kenzo is a male brand though. i still want my dior. ahahaaa. or tommy hilfiger's "true star". ahhhh...
went to meet ln, ed and ray to watch soccer.. at some german pub thingy at millenia walk. they said the beer is smooth. i didnt drink. the music is damn old school. a good place for eating and chilling but not a gd one for watching soccer. then ln, ray n i went to victoria street to eat. talked a lot of crap. all the old-school movies. haha.

finished my qm make up assgn! then went to meet kel.. oh we had dinner at this new place at plaza sing called summerspoon.. the food is good! n relatively cheap.. took a lot of pics as always, shall post them sometime. then we went to watch shark tale. oh my it is a real good watch too. funny as hell. will smith rocks. n the cute vegetarian shark. ahahaaa. the expressions are so real, i can imagine will smith acting. love the show. ilovecartoons. haha.

oh and discussed our plans for the hols. ok, for 24 nov.. bain! shall tell u soon! u concentrate on mugging now k! it'll be over for u soon..


------ Wednesday, November 10, 2004

my 2nd entry of the day..

are some things worth it? i dont know. sometimes i wish i dont have to think. i wish i'm just some shallow existing shell that goes along with everything. but i cant. i am not. i am so full of emotions no one can imagine. i can get snappy and pissed at the slightest things. i can get touched and teary at the slightest things too. small things can remind me of a lot of other things. and oh yes i have a real good memory as long as its non-academic. its just that i dont really show it outward. partly bcos i dont want to and partly bcos i dont know how. sometimes its just so bloody fucked up.

fuck.

i dont know.. braindead now. wish things would end soon.


its times like this that i really wish i had just gone to ntu with bain. or maybe i should have worked harder, get a scholarship n get my ass outta singapore. oh how i crave for the greener grass and the wider skies out there.

or perhaps it is better to be a shell devoid of emotions? to not care how others think and what they say? to isolate myself from the hustle of everything so that no matter what happens, i wont be affected?
that would be a sad life but it may not be that bad.


old friends are the best. bain and kel... i love u both and i miss u both so much.


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and so you're back from outer space. i just walked in to find you here without that look upon your face. i should have changed my fucking lock, i would have made you leave ur key if i had known for just one second you'd be back to bother me.

wednesday is alligator day. i dont know why. i always feel very snappy on wednesdays. i probably should apologise for unknowingly taking it out on people maybe but i'm NOT going to. i dont care. i dont give a fuck at all. wednesday is alligator day. face it. things always start on a wrong foot on wednesdays. today its E. bahh. thou it isnt wholly E's fault but wtf. i'm pissed off. its time i admit tt i feel pissed off at a lot of things.

well now go, walk out the door. just turn around now u're not welcome anymore. weren't you the one who tried to break me with desire? did you think i'd crumble? did you think i'd lay down and die?

and not just bcos of E. i'm pissed at a lot of things. just that i dont say it out. doesnt mean i'm alright with it. fuck.

it took all the strength i had just not to fall apart. i'm trying hard to mend the pieces of my broken heart. and i spent oh so many nights just feeling sorry for myself. i used to cry but now i hold my head up high.

there you have it. what u'd call that? confessions of an alligator? bahhh. confessions of an inner bitch? whatever.

and you see me with somebody new, i'm not that stupid little person still in love with you. and so you thought you'd just drop and you expect me to be free but now i'm saving all my loving for someone who's loving me.

oh well in a word of fairness, sorrie if i snapped at u today. i'm saying sorry bcos its the correct thing to do and not bcos i really want to say it. i'm still fucking pissed.

oh now go, walk out the door. just turn around now u're not welcome anymore. weren't you the one who tried to break me with desire? did you think i'd crumble? did you think i'd lay down and die?

being in smu.. made great friends. more importantly, made me realise the value of old friends. miss ya all lots. perhaps if u are here, i wont have alligator wednesdays. or maybe my alligator wednesdays wont be that bad.

oh not i, i will survive. yeah as long as i know how to love, i know i'll be alive. i've got all my life to live, i've got all my love to give. i will survive, i will survive.


------ Tuesday, November 09, 2004

a HUGE THANX to all those who sent me a bday wish.. really touched.. i hope i didnt leave out anyone..

my parents (thx daddy n mummy for tt digicam!!)
my brother (who wished me a happy bday at 00:00:00 sharp)
my darling bain (i looovvveeee the bday song btw. n cya soon dar-ling! i miss u lots!!)
kelvina babe (i miss u already!)
the 4 of you (yes u!)
kian (who didnt quite managed to figure out whether my bday is on the 6th, 7th or 8th so he msged on all 3 days.. awww so sweet.. n for offering to treat me to a dinner!)
huiying (thx for the attempted hug!)
yvonne (cya ard gal..)
sa'idah
joycelyn
winston
mingyuan
pearlyn
elvis
ningxia (my almost-twin)
yiing yng (havent seen ya in a long time gal!)
guobin
darren
shalynn mummy (i miss ya too mummy! hope u're doing well in nus!)
edwin shuai (when r we gg to meet up eh?!)
yi en
celia
yeeying
zijun
yenshan
changqi (thx for saying tt u'll always be there.. tt is so touching)
my ltb mates - yingren, darrelle, nisha, boon phang, desmond, james, elvinna and li wen (thanx for tolerating my idiosyncrasies throughout the whole process of ltb.. it was great working with u all!)

tt's all i can remember.. so sorry if i've left anyone out. lemme know ok! i really appreciate all ur well wishes.. esp bain's special midnite bday song! n kian's, yv's, shalynn's, yi en's and edwin's amusing msgs.. HUGE THANKS!! n a huge HUGZZZ for all of ya! i'm so blessed to have u all in my life.. pls know tt i appreciate n treasure all ya friendship!


------ Monday, November 08, 2004

here's some photos frm fri.. nice!


monkey faces =)


huiying and me


LN and me


ray and me


anna and me


edmund and me


cute guy and me (i really dont know his name. and he looks better in real person)


huiying, me, ray and LN
(see ray u look better when u smile like this!)


grp pix again..


------ Saturday, November 06, 2004

woot.. what a day!
went to watch the stageit play with huiying, LN, ray, leonard and anna after the FA test. it was funny n not bad considering they didn't have time to rehearse. what a twist to a fairytale. ahahaha.

then hy n i wanted to go someplace to chill. u know, just sit down n drink beer and stuff. in the end, me, hy, ln, ray, anna n edmund went to rav instead. lots of things happened there. oh sheesh. but anna, thx for the impromptu bday celebration..
played the hei bai pei game thingy, lots of toasting going ard.. drank a lot sia. abt 4 mugs of beer.
the live band was damn good. the gal is really good. when she sang "underneath it all", it really felt like gwen stefani was singing it. the guy was real good stuff too. such a powerful voice, its impossible not to drown in it. n when he sang "in the end", we were all screaming along with it. kickass stuff.

last night was great fun. in retrospect of sth i've told hy n bain, i take it back. partially. ahahahaha. here's to many many more fun things together. to everything together, come to think of it. cheers. =hUgZ=


------ Thursday, November 04, 2004

YAY comms n ltb presentation are over! haha dont even wanna talk about them liao. tjwong likes our room thou ahahaaa =) so damn relieved that its over! =)
tmr got comms class again n then FA test. hope it goes well. *cross fingers*
shall go n study hard now..

today's nov 4.. FOUR more days to the day i look forward to every single year!


p.s. bain... miss ya lots!!


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its week 12 now. lots of things i've learnt. academically.

but especially about myself. i learnt so much more abt myself. and i've got so much more to learn, to be a better person.

but that's another story for another time at another place.

=peaceout=


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Bush can tentatively claim victory in the elections. it hasnt been finalised. it is an exicting day in school. somewhat. been monitoring the election results since abt 9am.. bush was leading all the way and a huge gap but towards the end of FA class, the votes were at Bush 254, Kerry 252.. woah. ahahahaaa..

today's ltb meeting lasted till past 11.30pm. finally got our powerpoint up! we didnt even rehearse properly eh. hope everything goes well tomorrow. love the videos though. great job eh. quite drama n corny at times but i like! n i really didnt realise this but we are now much closer to each other. darrelle, liwen n i even have a super meany inside joke. lol. n when we were talking in darrelle's car, we realised we could finish each other's sentences! *gasps*

damn freaking tired.
was feeling rather snappy n irritated in school, hence my alligator nick. i tried hard not to let it show though. heck it was tough to keep that in check but no point making everyone uptight and nervy right? hell it was tough but i'm glad i did it =)

took a cab n the cabbie's daughter is coincidentally a 4th yr acctg student at smu! and we chatted thru'out the 15-min journey home n eventually, he just rounded down an almost $6 cab fare to $5.. lol what a nice uncle..
needa sleep soon. slept for barely 4 hrs last night and got a feeling it will be the same for today too.

OH OH the OC season 2 premieres TODAY in the states!! wonder when the episodes will be available for download.. i'm so excited!
edwin! now we can start on the same footing liao.. i dont need to play catch-up like the previous time (hopefully!)!!


------ Tuesday, November 02, 2004

Hmm 2nd november 2004 is the US Presidential Elections! This elections is indeed quite exciting. I'm a Republican. So shoot me. But I just dont think Kerry will make it as a president. Bush has, after all, brought a certain measure of stability to USA after 9/11. What puts me off Kerry is the fact that he voted for the Iraq war as a senator, and now that he is going to run as president, he is saying that he is against the Iraq war. So now what? What is he going to do abt the situation in Iraq if he becomes President Kerry? I dont see a direction.

bush's plan is to protect America and fight against terrorism. Kerry's is to forge more alliances. I think Bush's is more concrete. So what if u have lots of alliances? will that bring stability to the US economy? US does have its alliances now and I think it is sufficient for them now. So what if half the world is your ally? does that stop Osama bin Laden from planning a terrorist attack on u? No. If Osama's plans is to wreck the US, no amount of alliances will help.

Kerry said he will review all the FTAs signed again. This is a good move. but ultimately, its not that much of a use when it comes to FTAs already signed, like tt with us. It wont do good for american economy if they amend or cancel the FTA. The only advantage they have is tt a lot of the world economy depends on US. And that's why the health of the US economy is very important. USA needs stability in their economy. They will need all sorts of protect against terrorism as terrorism remains the single most powerful and most probable threat against their national security and stability.

Just last sat, Osama's "October surprise" tape warned of possible impending attacks of the scale of 9/11 on the US. Experts feel that the tape will work in the favour of Bush. "His (Osama's) way of overwhelming the president will very well prompt a sympathy wave for Bush".. a London Times journalist even commented that "with 2 words, he (Osama) could have swung it. But Osama bin Laden avoided giving George Bush a guaranteed four more years in the white house. He did not say: Vote Kerry." I don't know if u managed to get what that LT journalist meant the first time you read it. but see how many people think that Kerry is not prepared to fight against terrorism?

This presidential race is one of the tightest ever, surpassing even the Bush vs Al Gore race in 2000. It will be interesting to see who wins. When America goes to the polls, the whole world waits with bated breath. Vote Bush i say.

"A vote is like a rifle: its usefulness depends upon the character of the user."
Theodore Roosevelt, 26th President of the United States of America, 1901 - 1909


*the above are just my views. it doesnt represent tha views of anyone else. no offence. =peace=


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