Sunday, January 21, 2007

can't think of a title for today's post, just some random thoughts in my mind as usual.

i've gotten my academic references for exchange application. thanks prof khoo and prof wu! you're allowing me to get 1 step closer to my dream! tmr i shall either fill in my online exchange worksheet or apply for my internships at long last. maybe do both if i'm feeling very motivated.

actually, afii class is really tough. i really ought to read up on my bond mathematics to get a step up in class. sometimes things just zoom pass me without me realising it. doesn't help that i have boring strategy class just before afii class.

i've started watching my girl on youtube and it's really quite funny. it does have traces of my lovely samsoon in the storyline and the lead actress does look and act like kim sun ah quite a fair bit. the actors, though... i think my lovely samsoon wins hands down. the 2 actors in my girl look quite gay actually.

celebrated bainie's bday on sat nite. such a nice evening. my frens, check out zenden lounge at gallery hotel for a fantastic ambience with nice deco for a cozy and quiet night out. it's really very nice and the prices are pretty ok too. too good to miss.


anw i was just thinking about expectations and motivation just now. it's... really very difficult to live up to expectations. but what are expectations? how do i define yardsticks? what do i want to get out of this? i'd love to delve into it deeper but my head is hurting. i'll explore another day.


how would i know how much is too much?


------ Sunday, January 14, 2007

-once upon a time-

once upon a time before i entered smu, i've already made a resolution that i will definitely go on an overseas exchange in europe. well i've began to take steps towards that goal. attended the exchange talk last friday and lo and behold, university of manchester offers 6 places for exchange! so now the big question is... should i go to uk for exchange? or take a chance and go to some other part of europe where hopefully the prof will teach in english? choices choices..

exco interviews on sat.. it's coming a full circle at long last. long long last. it's been a long and ardous year but yet at the same time, things and time seem to pass by in a flash too. ahh how oxymoronic that sounds.


anyway i was talking to zhizai on sat and he said.. once upon a time, we were full of enthusiasm and drive, we took everything as a challenge and we were ever so willing to step up and take responsibility. now we are just tired and in need of a rest.

once upon a time indeed.


oh well nothing like kfc and lots of bitchings to brighten up a saturday nite =)


------ Friday, January 12, 2007

It won't do... to dream of caramel
To think of cinnamon
And long for you

It won't do... to stir a deep desire
To fan a hidden fire
That can never burn true

I know your name
I know your skin
I know the way these things begin

But I don't know how I'd live with myself
What I'd forgive of myself...
If you don't go

So goodbye... sweet appetite
No single bite could satisfy

I know your name
I know your skin
I know the way these things begin

But I don't know what I'd give of myself
How I would live with myself...
If you don't go


It won't do... to dream of caramel
To think of cinnamon
And long for you


------ Saturday, January 06, 2007

-that straightened bridge-

it's gonna be approximately 1 more month before some things come to an end for me. and yes i am definitely very much looking forward to it. before i can really put that down though, i gotta think of my successor. sigh sigh. yes jeremy u've nagged at me countless times i know. i'll work at it. 1 more month!

i haven't been thinking about what i'd want to do after i step down actually. maybe try my hand at something else.. think the only side i haven't tried and which i have some sort of an interest would be ctv. we'll see how.


on thursday before we headed down to minds cafe, 3 of us were hanging out at the cathay just talking, and the 2 of them said that i'd run into depression sooner or later. hahahaha.. don't worry guys, i won't.


oh yeah it's back to re-reading my dumb FA cos andrew lee said sth during the first class that fills me with dread. he said that we better be damn familiar with the bal sheet, income statement and cashflow statement and how to construct them. and well FA is always gonna be my horror story.

and i just remembered.. new year resolutions! i totally forgot that we make resolutions during the new year. over the past few years, i've learnt that it's no use making a list of resolutions - no matter how easy they sound, i was never able to keep them. so this year, i've only 1. it's a difficult resolution to keep but at least its ambit is wide enough that i should be able to fulfill at least part of it. here it is-

New Year resolution 2007:
1) I'm cleaning up my act

i'm sweeping away the bad stuffs, thinking of a nice handover, wondering if its possible to pick up where i left off, planning to fill up the gaps that'll appear in the new year and working towards a healthier me (which includes more gym and most importantly, substantially cut down on alcohol).

2007 pls be good. 2007 is supposed to be my best year yet.

ahh well there's a chinese saying 船到桥头自然直.. right now i'm rowing towards the 桥头, it better be damn straight when i reach it.


------ Wednesday, January 03, 2007

-double shot espresso-


back to school with IE in the morning and corp reporting make up class at 7pm. it's a.... pretty decent day i guess, despite it being a long day.
chilled at starbucks with edmund, ray and alvin while waiting for yvonne to turn up. ray and alvin were Hilarious with a capital H. so yay i forsee a fun IE group ahead.
watched death note 2 with yvonne in the afternoon, pretty good show. i guess this means i'll be watching the anime soon haha.

back to school means back to being powered by caffeine. it's the first day of the new school term and already i had 3 intakes of caffeine - 1 during every meal. this is bad. i thought i managed to substantially reduce my caffeine addiction during the hols but looks like i'm mistaken.
well i had teh peng from kopitiam before corp rep class and i still manage to fall aslp briefly while andrew lee and talking about the history of financial reporting. shucks i hope this doesn't mean that caffeine is losing its effectiveness for me. maybe our kops has gone 1 up and the auntie made me teh peng, decaf.


------ Tuesday, January 02, 2007

-1 litre of tears-

ok i've finished watching 1 litre of tears and it's really very, very touching. it's doubly touching on the fact that it's based on a real story. that girl is really strong, utmost respect to her. if you have not watch the show, pls do. it's too good to miss. it might just change your perspective on life. watch it here on youtube (the streaming is worth the wait).

and those who know me will know that i'm not one to cry easily.. but this is the result of crying thru the last 2 episodes of the show (plus the fact that i'm having the flu makes the whole thing a messy affair):

 

i think that in itself is a new record. it should've been more but i couldn't be bothered to wipe every tear that rolls down from my eyes cos it just doesn't stop.

i don't know if i have cried a full litre of tears while watching the show but i think it's pretty darn close.


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