Thursday, May 31, 2007

-pokemon evolution-

seriously, we should all wake up and smell the surroundings sometimes. it's not doing anyone good wallowing in self-induced misery and all. u never know how all this self misery and and self pity is affecting the people around you. it's difficult to put it into words but.... be more positive.. it really does do everyone else good.

u know how sometimes i see so much of my past playing in front of me. in a crowded train station on a busy saturday evening, i walked past someone whom i used to know. i saw a flicker of recognition in his eyes, like he wanted to say something, maybe a "hi" or a "hey i know you from somewhere" but i just looked and walked straight by, pretending to see nothing. he was part of a story i didn't want to remember, so why bother?

sometimes it takes the form of seeing someone else who is experiencing similar situations as what i've been through. so many times, i hoped i can just tell them to snap out of it, that they should stop making it sound like it's so much worse than it actually is. and sometimes, i just wanna tell her that everything will be fine and i know because i've been thru something similar. but what's the point? she wouldn't appreciate it, that much i know.

nowadays, it's such a fine line between expressing an opinion and coming across as bearing down on ur opinion. where do i draw the line?

i was talking to jeremy a-lot-of-nicknames soh in the afternoon and we were talking about consciously contracting our world. do i read because i enjoy reading? or do i read because that's a thing i can do alone? something like that.


another working day till the weekend yay.


------ Monday, May 28, 2007

sometimes i do wonder, in that tumultuous year, have i learnt too much, too fast? but i guess having learnt too much too fast is better than not having learnt anything at all. oh well.

guess these few years, i have gained a lot of... what you'd call that.. perspective.

so tired now.


------ Sunday, May 27, 2007

last friday, our level went thru a seat shuffle where tables are rearranged to accommodate more staff. so everyone was packed by 5pm..


suddenly all the tables look so bare..

that aside,

the view on fridays somehow look nicer..

the friday just past was kinda different, we got to see the watersprout from our office. we seriously thought it was a twister or a cyclone and wondered why the nearby ships didn't move away from it.


was accompanying my mom to shop last sat when we went past paragon where salvatore ferragamo was having a preview sale. so of cos we couldn't resist going in to take a look..

ooh shoes.


had family lunch yesterday at the singapore cricket club.. food was reasonably priced (let's conveniently forget how much my uncle must have forked out for a membership) and tasted pretty good..

my half-eaten grilled fish..


nathaniel enjoying his lunch too..

went to play with nathaniel over at my aunt's place today..


hmmm is he cute or what..


this week's gonna be pretty short yayyy.


------ Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Oral
- Travaillez avec un/une ou deux partenaires.
- Préparez un dialogue.
- Insérez dans votre dialogue, les phrases:
1) Oui, d'accord.
2) J'ai faim.
3) Je suis trés trés fatigué / fatiguée.
4) Tu as soif?


what we came up with:

Jiahui: Bonsoir, Ashwin! Ah, ce restaurant est trés beau, non?
Ashwin: Oui, d'accord. J'ai faim!
Jiahui: Moi, aussi. Tu as soif?
Ashwin: Oui, j'ai soif. Hui Ying, ça va?
Hui Ying: Non, je suis trés trés fatiguée.

lol just about the most interesting part of my day.


------ Monday, May 21, 2007


I'm looking out the window
Where we sat to watch the stars
There's a chill within the air
It makes my heart long for your touch
You may be miles away
But as I kneel to pray

I see the same side of the moon
That we'll be looking on when the world turns blue
And know that time and space can't come between me and you
We share the same side of the moon
And though you'll never see all my tears shine through
I know I can't be that far from you
If we're both looking on the same side of the moon

I picture you across the ocean
In your corner of the world
I pray the wind will blow my voice
And gently whisper in your ear
Your night may be my day
And though the seasons change

It's still the same side of the moon
That we'll be looking on when the world turns blue
And know that time and space can't come between me and you
We share the same side of the moon
And though you'll never see all my tears shine through
I know I can't be that far from you
If we're both looking on the same side of the moon

I know I can't be that far from you
If we're both looking on the same side of the moon


------ Sunday, May 20, 2007

-aquaholic-

an interesting article from may's issue of reader's digest -

"Addicted to Water"

Are you an aquaholic? If you drink over 5 litres of water a day and feel irritable when you can't get a glass of H2O, you may have a problem. "Aquaholics do exist," says dietitian Catherine Collins. "There's a very real psychiatric condition called psychogenic polydipsia. For most, it's sparked when a lifestyle change like cutting out caffeine is made."

Collins explains that typically someone will up their intake of water in the belief that they're "cleansing" their body. "With time, an obsession with drinking water to 'purify' or offset hunger creates potential for harm, especially if combined with a low-salt diet and excessive exercise."

But surely you can't drink too much water? Well, in fact you can. Overhydration coupled with a low-salt diet can gradually deplete blood salt levels, initially causing fatigue," she says. "But eventually, low salt levels will impair normal cell function, causing confusion, disorientation and even coma."

Aim to drink around two litres of liquid daily, she says. "The goal is to pass urine three or four times a day. If you're going to the toilet every hour, you're probably drinking too much."


OHHHH i do have some symptoms of an aquaholic:
1) "feel irritable when you can't get a glass of h2o". CHECK.
2) "lifestyle change like cutting out caffeine". CHECK. (well not totally cutting, but substantially reduce)
3) "belief that they're cleansing their body". CHECK. (i figured water can flush out toxins in my body)

i drink a lot of water at work cos the aircon is so dehydrating. i drink about 2 litres of water daily at work. i think i drink an average of abt 3 litres of liquid a day? that's pretty normal right??

but no, i don't drink water to 'purify' or offset hunger. i love my food way too much. and uhm, i do go to the toilet a lot. my lecture mates will know that hahaha. so i'm half an aquaholic? hahahhaa!


ok after not blogging for a week, the best i can offer is an article on aquaholics.

oh uhm how abt... heroes rock.


------ Sunday, May 13, 2007

hello zherming and cedric. it's been what, 3 years? time flies huh.


------ Saturday, May 12, 2007

-be with me-

that's the title of the show i got to watch on ch56 while channel surfing this afternoon. it's the story of Theresa Chan, a courageous deaf and blind woman whose life story inspired this movie. She stars as herself in this tale of love, hope and destiny. Directed by renowned local director Eric Khoo, this touching movie deservingly won the Best Film Award at the 16th Stockholm International Film Festival.

it's a pretty good film to watch and i must say, the style of shooting is very singaporean. one look and i know it's a local film (i didn't know the show was 'be with me' initially). somehow i think our weather (being so hot) results in objects looking kinda off-colour on screen. or maybe it's the camera? not very sure. eric khoo is real good, this show is waaay better than the kelvin tong's film i got to watch.


was at a meeting at table 108 last nite with the 4th management and some of us from the 3rd.. after the meeting, jem and i were talking about unhappiness and he said sth like he will believe me if i said i'm not feeling happy cos i haven't been blogging. hahaha. for the record, i haven't been blogging bcos i've been very busy. besides internship, i have french classes on mon and wed nite, then did OT on thurs and fri. work is pouring in. by the time i get home, i'm so tired. blogging is not really on my mind. i do have some things i wanna talk about but aiyah, tired la.
btw it's not like i went to blog in a private blog cos i'm unhappy.


anw. something's gotta give. something's better give. right?

i need to get out of the country soon.


------ Thursday, May 10, 2007

in spite of how tiring it is to go for french classes after work, in spite of how difficult the language is and in spite of how lost i feel when the teacher or the voice from cassette player speaks too quickly, i really enjoy my elementary 1 french classes so far. i really want to learn it well, and i'm wondering if it's possible to squeeze in elementary 2 classes before i leave for exchange.

i wanna learn french well, to the extent that i'm trying to practise speaking everyday. if only i'm so hardworking for my school modules right. lol.


work is pouring in.. just ended work at 830pm today. my manager is damn jialat, he left at 815pm for a dinner appointment and actually said that he'll be back after dinner to continue. so dear manager, if u're still in the office, here's a little note for u: faster go home!!
(i just found out yesterday that he's married)


------ Tuesday, May 08, 2007

i'm really tired, but i just wanted to write down a few things..

french class is really quite tough. my tongue almost tied itself into a knot during the last lesson. oh well at least i know how to chase ppl away from my room or house.

"c'est chez moi, ici. au revoir!"


past weeknites and weekend was good. got to see some great stuff at the AOS. good stuff.

my mgr's back from london, work is starting to come in fast. just today, i was communicating via email to aviva's chief distribution officer in hongkong. cc-ed in the list is the general manager of hongkong subsidiary. it doesn't get any bigger than that.

exchange to rouen has been confirmed!

finally got to tell charles i'm going over to france! and guess what.. he's coming over to singapore next year! yay! i do miss that guy.

i had an exceedingly odd dream last night about someone from vj. it was rather disturbing. like how come it had to be that person in the dream? i actually felt relieved when my alarm rang and i had to wake up.

ok that's about it. just have a song stuck in my head lately. it's an old song from the wallflowers called 'one headlight'.


So long ago, I don't remember when
That's when they say I lost my only friend
Well they said she died easy of a broken heart disease
As I listened through the cemetery trees
I seen the sun comin' up at the funeral at dawn
The long broken arm of human law
Now it always seemed such a waste
She always had a pretty face
So I wondered how she hung around this place

Hey, come on try a little
Nothing is forever
There's got to be something better than
In the middle
But me & Cinderella
We put it all together
We can drive it home
With one headlight

She said it's cold
It feels like Independence Day
And I can't break away from this parade
But there's got to be an opening
Somewhere here in front of me
Through this maze of ugliness and greed
And I seen the sun up ahead
At the county line bridge
Sayin' all there's good and nothingness is dead
We'll run until she's out of breath
She ran until there's nothin' left
She hit the end-it's just her window ledge

Well this place is old
It feels just like a beat up truck
I turn the engine, but the engine doesn't turn
Well it smells of cheap wine & cigarettes
This place is always such a mess
Sometimes I think I'd like to watch it burn
I'm so alone, and I feel just like somebody else
Man, I ain't changed, but I know I ain't the same
But somewhere here in between the city walls of dyin' dreams
I think her death it must be killin' me

this is what i call a damn good song.


------ Monday, May 07, 2007

-EPL Champions!!-


helluva season.. FA cup to go! go united!!


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