Sunday, November 30, 2008

last nite, i had a dream.
i dreamt that i was on exchange.. in amsterdam. and in my dream, i was just settling down into my new room and i realised it's my 2nd chance at exchange, and i told myself.. this is my 2nd chance, my 6 months all over again!
i saw an exchange mate in my dream, and i went over to tell her, it's my 2nd chance, it's gonna be different this time.
i think in my dream, i was trying to right some maybe-wrongs.

but i wouldnt mind living those 6 months all over again.


------ Friday, November 28, 2008


微微风涌起旧梦
拾起一片回忆如叶落
再也想不起难忘的是什么
多情多怨多伤人重

微微风涌起旧梦
月光洒满了你的行踪
再也想不起要忘记是什么
不能不愿不再多说

一生追悔快意都相同
若不是你依然在我梦魂中
我怎么会有一个理由
为你为情为爱为我

我像落花随着流水
随着流水飘向人海
人海茫茫不知身何在
总觉得缺少一份爱

一生追悔快意都相同
若不是你依然在我梦魂中
你怎么没有任何理由
给你的情给爱的我

微微风涌起旧梦
拾起一片回忆如叶落
再也想不起难忘的是什么
独自徘徊旧梦中
独自徘徊
独自徘徊旧梦中



------ Tuesday, November 25, 2008

sth just crossed my mind.. some ppl just seem to have it all, they have a nice life, things come to them easily, they never really have to fight for anything, they just have to be themselves.

i think i have a good life too. i love my family, i have a job (for now), i have some wonderful friends. now it may not look like it, but i've fought very hard all my life. i planned and planned and fought for everything and i don't take things for granted. except for my birthright, i daresay that ever since primary school, i've been fighting hard to get to where i am now.

it's not that i'm trying to complain cos i do think i lead a blessed life, but why does it seem like i'm always not fighting hard enought? why does it feel like i'm constantly fighting but i never get what i truly want, but there are ppl who don seem to do much but they have everything going their way?
is fighting for what i want wrong? have i been living life the wrong way? maybe if i don't fight, maybe if i just don do much, things would have gone for me the way it goes for everyone? i thought life is about fighting for what you want and not getting what everyone else is getting. but maybe that ain't so bad, cos maybe at least i can stop fighting..


------ Friday, November 21, 2008

with the share price plunging to US$4.71, it's hard not to feel apprehensive about this whole thing. there's an analyst report saying C is hugely undervalued, yet market sentiment is very different and investors are short selling for their lives' worth.

meanwhile i think maybe i should be updating my resume a bit. u know, just in case. hahaa


------ Tuesday, November 18, 2008

today marks the last day of my long leave.. going back to work tmr, on the back of the knowledge that my company is going to axe jobs all around the world. wonder how that makes ppl feel in the office.

but nonetheless, super well-rested leave, managed to get some things done.. wonderful.


------ Sunday, November 16, 2008

oh in yday's class, we played taboo.. in french! or rather, taboo junior. which apparently is for ages 8 to 12. gee i feel so young.

but really, it was seriously quite fun, and i never thought i'd be playing one of my fave games in french. seriously.


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for two, it's a sweet reality.

for the rest, a dream.


congrats LN and jaclyn, we look forward to more.


------ Thursday, November 13, 2008

i was looking at my photos from edinburgh cos i just pulled out my exchange scrapbook and restarted the process of picking a choice selection of photographs to go in there to make the scrapbook complete. (yes i know it's been a long time).

i've had many fond memories of edinburgh cos it's such a nice city with warm people, but i realised one lasting memory i had of edinburgh besides the festival and the scottish highlands which i absolutely loved and wish dearly to go back there someday, is that of Princes Street garden. in particular, the benches at princes street garden.

basically, they have plaques on each bench that i could see, and these benches were gifted to the city of edinburgh in memory of someone and to me, that really captured the spirit of edinburgh, what makes it special and how the scots are so proud of bring scottish.





------ Monday, November 10, 2008

oh just tot i'll share a happy event.......................

I'M ON LEAVE THIS WEEK! =D

i'm on leave from 10th to 18th nov.. WHEEEEEEEEE


------ Sunday, November 09, 2008

i had a verrrrrrrrrrrryy memorable 23rd birthday thanks to my 3 darlings. this is gonna go down in records as 1 of the most fun celeb ever lol. there were definitely a lot of firsts for me tonite hehe.. first time driving to dempsey for starts. thanks my dears, it was great fun along with all the drama hehe!



n last nite my colleagues n i headed to timbre at clark quay area for drinks. that was very nice too..


all in all, this is one for the records.


------ Sunday, November 02, 2008

oh wow times flies. i realise we are officially in november. november traditionally has more meanings for me than other months, especially seeing as to it's the month i was born in.
my colleagues are sweet ppl, keep asking me what i want for my birthday. honestly i've never been much of a birthday celebrater as my bday always clashed with 1 thing or another. in school, it would be exams - o levels, ao level, a levels, everything. in uni, it's projects. that said thou, i do remember moments - throwing a party in frujch, celebrating with ln at wala, doing cat project overnite in sch.. wow.
i think this yr is the 1st time in a long time i'm acty free to do what i want on my bday. oh man i feel kinda odd hahaha.

november also means the end of the yr is coming, time to think about finishing up for the year, 2 last months to try to fulfill what i said i'll set out to do for this year.

i guess in a way, this has been a big year for me. i had 3 difference mindsets throughout the whole year - meaning having to change my mindset 2 times.

1st, coming back from exchange. trying to switch from a relaxed mode to fitting in with the absurdly rapid and rabid pace in school, trying to persuade myself to put in effort study again, to live at a much faster pace. it wasn't easy actually- i came back determined to take things easier here, to put in place things i learnt when i was on overseas. but eventually, i convinced myself to step up a notch again.

then it's to change the mindset from a carefree student to a working adult. setting realistic expectations, dealing with a much different environment- one that holds you absolutely responsible for absolutely everything you do. no more slacks, no more thinking it's ok to fail one test or not prepare for a lecture or not rehearsing for a presentation.

so yeah, though the year is not over yet, it has already been 1 hell of a year.

but i have some more things i want to set out to do before the year is over. cos i want to make sure next year will be even better.


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