Sunday, November 29, 2009

Over-indulgence almost always leads to self-pity, which leads to self destruction..

Late thu nite/early fri morn, I was talking to E online, and that was roughly abt then that I made up my mind abt sth. E, thks for listening hahaha.. In return, I won't post ur comments abt gossip girl!

Anw, start of the new week.. It's december! Last month of the year, time flies......


Last nite, I dreamt that I was walking home drearily and on the way, there was much sludge and mud and my progress was impeded by them. Then a saviour appeared, he supported me, cleaned up the sludge and carried me past the whole dirt track. And although I was tired and my legs were numb and I wanted to give up, he was there for me and he carried me through.

And when I woke up, I thought to myself, that's what I need. Just someone to support me through my hardest times.. And then I think to myself, I think I already have it maybe? Someone who is just there for me.. So I guess what I want to say is thanks my dears, sorry for all the trouble and thanks for carrying me through! :D


------ Friday, November 27, 2009

c'est fini..... et je pense qu'il me tuera, mais je suis forte, je survivrai.. je le crois vraiment.. sois forte!


------ Thursday, November 26, 2009

"She just wanted me to think that so I'd back off"
"Dare I ask what you're going to do?"
"Nothing. I said they'd either (do A) or (do B). They didn't (do A)."
"And you're ok with that?"
"It is what it is."

The closing scene of the latest episode of House. Somehow the scene gets to me..


------ Wednesday, November 25, 2009

this is supposed to be a short week but it already feels very long..
just been stuck in meeting after meeting- 1 whole monday aftnn in my boss' room, i really almost fell asleep. and this aftnn's meeting too oh gosh. n with colleagues on leave, i'm like scrambling to cover for them. can't even spend enough time in body shop to determine what i want to buy with the 40% discount offered to us! grrrrrr!

then on top of that, i had like really weird dreams. like bizarre! i dreamt of crocodiles! granted, i read monsieur crocodile a beaucoup faim, a kid's storybook in french abt mr. crocodile who was very hungry. but that was like, over a month ago!
so anw in my dream, i was just a spectator. and i watched the crocodile chase after little kids and then get this, farm chickens and ducks. I effing dreamt of an effing crocodile chase after effing farm animals! WTF!!!! who in the world gets dreams like this?! seriously WTF??!!

and so today i wanted to go to the gym cos i missed my regular session last nite.. n i finally finished work at 730pm n i was so ready to head to the gym. i packed my clothes, my shower stuffs, my shoes...... n realised i forgot to bring socks.

SOCKS!!!!!


so i went home feeling extremely peeved! bahhhhh!!!
i don't care what's happening tmr or fri or the long weekend, i just want this week to be over. and actually i'm not say super looking forward to next week or sth.. in fact i think i'm beginning to feel damn lousy even with the dec hols coming up.. arghhhhh.




but nonetheless, i wish i had these kinds of concerts while i was in schoool..



Time came a creeping
Oh and time's a loaded gun
Every road is a ray of light
It goes on
Time only can lead you on
Still it's such a beautiful night


------ Sunday, November 22, 2009

current addiction-
(and stop comparing her to lady gaga)




and then i realised, dancing is my remedy..


No more poison killin' my emotion
I will not be frozen
Dancin' is my remedy, remedy
Stop, stop prayin' cause I'm not, not playin'
I'm not frozen, dancin' is my remedy, remedy
Move while you're watching me dance with the enemy
I've got a remedy
Move while you're watching me dance with the enemy
Here is my remedy


------ Saturday, November 21, 2009

i've been feeling super lethargic the whole week man, and i've been feeling like shit too.

which is why i can't be bothered to find activities to do on a saturday night, i just went straight home after a kid's birthday party. my cousin's 3rd birthday celebration.



nathaniel, aged 3 yrs, with his sister natalie, aged 3 months



the really awesome birthday cake.. it's the same cake as last yr cos he just loves lightning mcqueen so much!



happy birthday nathaniel!
u did make my weekend a bit brighter! :)


------ Thursday, November 19, 2009

c'est difficile and je suis bête et c'est douloureux.
mais ça est ce qui est se passe, et je n'y peux rien et je ne sais pas de quoi à faire.
aidez-moi, quelqu'un.. parce que moi, je suis dans la souffrance..


------ Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Coldplay - Strawberry Swing Official Music Video

my colleagues and i somehow started talking about backstreet boys at work today.. and i wanted to post my fave BSB song, but the embedding were all disabled by requests. in case you are wondering, it's..... I Want It That Way! hehehe..

anyway. tot i'll post one of my all time fave vids here to "commemorate" my new template.. Coldplay's "Strawberry Swing"-




isn't this totally whimsical and awesome..


------ Sunday, November 15, 2009

梁文音 我不是你想像那麼勇敢 MV

我不是你想像那么勇敢
多想让你保护能流泪一場
让我放下武裝　像个孩子一样
单纯的把爱轻放在你心上



------ Friday, November 13, 2009

Micky Green - Oh!

thoroughly exhausted man.. been meeting ppl everyday and i really feel v tired! sure sign that i'm getting old haha.. been sleeping only abt 5 hrs per day or less (v little for me), i can't continue like that for much longer lol...

anyway.. went mambo last nite for the 1st time in a looooooooong time. rather impromptu decision considering i was all set to go home after dinner haha.. and man, it's really nt the place for me anymore unless i get reeeeaaallllyyyy high or if the company i'm going with is reeeeeaaalllyyy good. the guys there, dunoe are they high at 12am or what, or maybe they are just young and daring and rowdy, they are just making wrong moves all the time. sheeesh.


anyway. today's song of the day is an old song from when i was on exchange: Micky Green's "Oh". love the whole feel of the song.





------ Wednesday, November 11, 2009

apparently some of my frens saw / remembered Mr M at the halloween party? lol.. and they said he's quite cute? yeah?
so far it's 3 out of 3 hahaha...


oh yes, i weighed myself in the gym today, and i finally, FINALLY see my weight come down!!
it's like, i've been going to the gym diligently for 9mths odd, but i've never seen my weight drop, it always hovered ard this certain weight.. my gfs consoled me saying it's bcos i've gain muscle weight and well, muscles r heavier than fats rite? but today, it dropped by over 2kg! wooohoooooo hahaha! i think it's not that i only lost water weight cos previously, even if i ran for 1 hr n go to the steam room after, the water weight i lost was negligible (<0.5kg) haha!

which kind of makes me wonder if it's bcos the machine has been recalibrated or sth? lol...


------ Monday, November 09, 2009

today i start a new chapter in my life.. hmmmm i can do it!
it's been interesting, i've nv been so honest about what i think before, but that's that, and i think maybe it's not so great now, but in a few weeks time, i shd be ready for my next big adventure.. fingers crossed!


------ Sunday, November 08, 2009

many thanks to all those who spent some time with me for my bday, n to those who took some time to wish me a happy birthday.. it's very much appreciated.

to my family- mum, dad and bro- thanks for the meal, the cake, the present. i honestly don't know where i will be in life without u and i love u all so much.

to my darlings, my best gfs- love u girls as always. nth can go wrong when i'm w u girls :) thanks for being my shelter against whatever storm is out there, n i do love the huge oversized diva specs as well as the bag!

to the smu gang, it's great as always, hope we will be celebrating each others' bdays for many more yrs to come. thks for the "sweet 16th" bday dedication, thks for coming down to holland v on friday.

to edwin poh, got ur postcard all the way from maastricht. thanks v much! don worry, i am eating well haha.. get back in 1 piece n i'll see u next jan ya..

to the rest- my colleagues, friends who texted me, facebooked me etc- thank u, it was heartwarming to receive ur well wishes..


this yr's bday celebrations r a bit subdued by my standards, but i'm really not in tt much a mood to make it a big hooha, so i'm glad with whatever happened. i might sound jaded, i might not sound very happy and hyper, but i am.. i am blessed with whatever i have in my life, and so here's to a gd 24th yr.. happy birthday to me.

and to my supper mate last nite- thanks.. even though i don't know when i will get to see u again, it was gd seeing u that day.


------ Friday, November 06, 2009

think i never did get around to mention this.. but last nite, i just ended the 4-yr relationship with my trusty, battle-hardened handphone. i am rather sad actually. the phone did went through lots of things and been to lots of places with me haha..

in a way, it's been a long time coming..
first, the battery- it has always been a bit weak after yr 3, but in its last few months, i began to have to charge it almost everyday..
2nd, it began to shut down for no reason more frequently
3rd, the metal plating covering the no. "6" dropped off
4th, the metal plating covering the no. "4" dropped off
5th, the metal plating covering the no. "1" dropped off
6th, i started getting "black out moments" halfway thru talking on the phone

and finally, at abt 9pm last nite, it leaped off my table while i was charging it, and it broke off and it was beyond salvation.. the entire back battery cover came off loose.. i mean, i can still use it if i use like, a rubber band to tie it tight tgr, but hey... i love my phone but tt's really the limit..

so long, farewell my beloved phone..

i realised i don even rem what model it is called haha.. i think it's the E730 lol..


ok so now i am using the LG-GM730.. it's 3G and touch screen and super foreign for me after my 4yo samsung.. it's free, tt's y i'm using it for now till i find something else i want.. yesterday i could only sms the 1 person who happened to text me when i switched to the new phone cos i dunoe how to import my contacts.. and as i tried to sms, i ended up calling him by mistake instead! argh i'm a tech dinosaur!

in the end, i used a rubber band to patch up my old phone tgr, and i blue toothed all my contacts over. thankfully it worked but i couldn't find a way to export all my old funny quirky memorable smses over to the new phone still.. anyone has any idea??


------ Thursday, November 05, 2009

过去让它过去 来不及
从头喜欢你 白云缠绕着蓝天
如果 不能够永远都在一起
也至少给我们
怀念的勇气
拥抱的权利
好让你明白
我心动的痕迹

our classic ktv song lol... very nice.


------ Tuesday, November 03, 2009

today, i feel like i'm acting in a scene of jeux d'enfants haha.. well, not as extreme as them, but the idea is there.. u gotta like it lol..


------ Monday, November 02, 2009

today i was listening to suzanne vega on my mp3 player.


It won't do... to dream of caramel
To think of cinnamon
And long for you

It won't do... to stir a deep desire
To fan a hidden fire
That can never burn true

I know your name, I know your skin
I know the way these things begin

But I don't know....
How I would live with myself
What I'd forgive of myself
If you don't go

So goodbye... sweet appetite
No single bite, could satisfy

I know your name, I know your skin
I know the way these things begin

But I don't know...
What I would give of myself
How I would live with myself
If you don't go


It won't do......
To dream of caramel
To think of cinnamon
And long for you

a pretty good song from the OST of Closer..


------ Sunday, November 01, 2009

in times of anxiety and uncertainty, a girl can always turn to her best frens- a cooling face mask, a good movie and a box of tissue papers.

je t'aime.


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halloween party last nite was great... the spirit was awesome, there were really lots of crazy ppl with crazy costumes around.. in fact if u didn't dress up, that'll be odd.. some costumes my frens were in included a bruised minnie mouse, bloody policewoman, vain samurai, jedi, shrek, ghostbuster, cheerleader, bloodied student, blah blah.. it was quite funny actually.. there were hooter boys, a toilet bowl, snow white, plenty of various japanese characters.. was fun la.

after the party, we went to the same temple st macd's again.. this time, we weren't the only post party goers there, the place was actually full.. so we just hanged around n talked n laughed and we finally made our way home at abt 7am. it was fun, but very tiring and very intense. hahaha..


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hier, dans le biblothèque, je suis encore tombée sur lui quand je suis retournée un roman. il m'a demandé qui est mon nouveau professeur, et puis il m'a dit que sa classe a seulement 2 étudiants et il m'a demandé si je voudrais joindre sa classe. je lui ai dit que j'aime bien mes comrades de classe et je ne veux vraiment pas descendre 2 niveaux. il m'a dit qu'il comprend et c'est tant pis parce qu'il aimerait bien de me enseigner.

et pendant la conversation, il a pincé mon joue, il a touché mon menton il a met son bras autour de mon épaule.. comme il est mon petit. il se sent très bien.. mes comrades me disent qu'il m'aime bien mais je ne suis pas sûr.. comment ils sauraient?

ce serait très bien si c'est vrai qu'il m'aime bien, parce que je l'aime bien aussi.. et ce résoudra mon grand problème avec quelqu'un que je ne peux pas aimer..

et lui, l'homme que je ne peux pas aimer... c'est très compliqué entre nous maintenant.. je ne sais pas qu'est-ce que passera pour nous, je sais seulement que ce sera très compliqué et très très difficile..


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