Today was quite jialat.. I really had to persuade and convince myself to go on. I was practically talking to myself and coaxing myself to keep moving.
Someone once told me- The body will stop only when the mind tells it to. I honestly don't remember who exactly told me that, or maybe I read it somewhere. If you are the person, let me know? It was all I relied on today.
So many parts of my body were protesting, they were screaming at me to stop. But I thought of that phrase, and my mind refused to give up. My mind wanted to prove that it was stronger than the rest of my body combined. Come hell (stitches) and high water (calf pains), my mind was determined to last the distance.
So yes, another guilt-free KFC trip attained. Thank you, Mind, for being stronger than everything else. Brain, are you listening??
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12:34 am
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Monday, December 28, 2009
Happy holidays!
.. If I haven't already greeted you personally!
My fave fave photo with some of my fave fave people.. X'mas gathering at Fred's place! 1 year wiser but none the older :D
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11:03 pm
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En fait, je ne suis pas triste, je ne sais juste pas pourquoi quand je suis seule, je penserais à lui. Peut-être c'est parce que je n'ai rien d'autre à penser, et il est le plus vrai chose dans ma vie récente donc je n'y peux rien sauf que penser à lui..
si seulement le personne qui est manqué par un autre sais qu'il y a quelqu'un qui pense à lui, ce serait parfait.. même s'il ne sais pas qui exactement, ce serait super s'il sais qu'il quelqu'un manque..
Finally, the holiday season that brings the most revelry and cheer and feasting! Yesterday Christmas eve was spent at Yvonne's place, her mum (and her of cos) whipped up a most fantastic dinner- turkey, pork ribs, potato salad (made by yv!), portobello mushrooms with clams and cheese (by huiying- superb!!), meatballs and my fave- fried beehoon by yv's mum! It was nice just eating and talking with friends, very cosy. Doesn't hurt that she stays only a 10min leisurely walk from me! :D
Today- dinner & ktv with family, then headed to Wilfred's place for a gathering. Just chilling ard too, playing Wii and ooh, the christmas gift exchange was funnn! Thanks babes (and Fred), I lovelovelove the X'mas prezzies!! Yipeeee :D :D :D
And oh, just abt the most exciting part of my nite occured on the drive home- police road block. It's the first time I've encountered a road block! Really!! Anws I just wound down the window, smiled at the policeman and he waved us through. Nothing dramatic but haha, never encountered it before la!
Okok just wanted to write about the road block that's why I'm blogging at 4.30am.. Tireddd!
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4:25 am
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Wednesday, December 23, 2009
1200!
Managed to get buy and wrap all my X'mas prezzies in good time this year! So glad! And the prezzies given by my colleagues are like really nice- SK2 face mask, victoria secret's body mist, royce chocs etc etc.. My gosh!
Oh i realised, girls' presents are usually small packages whereas guys' presents come in huge wrappers! Ok that was random..
Anyways. Been a crazy week at work, I've been looking at THREE different P&Ls for the past 2 weeks, the amount of multi-tasking is amazing man. My colleague's coming back tmr but another one's going on leave so it's still gonna be crazy till the end of the yearrrrr..
I dunoe, not much mood to blog today, been reeeally tired affter all the physical and mental exertions. In fact my thighs are almost jelly, think I will feel the full effects of the pilates+6k run+yoga tmr..
Oh yah today had dept lunch at Oscar's which was really quite good.. The desserts looked so delectable that I really didn't touch much of the other hot foods. I just headed to the sushi/sashimi/seafood section, some meat cuts for the christmassy feeling, then zoomed to the desserts.. Which was really good! Really glad I saved half my stomach for the desserts hehehe!
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10:27 pm
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Sunday, December 20, 2009
1199.
Wow I never knew making crêpes is so easy! In fact it's foolproof! It's quick and easy and yummy, suspect I will be making them for many a days to come!
Clockwise from top left- The batter // Just onto the pan! // As it cooks.. // Only takes 1 min per side! // Voila!! // Mmmmm smearing the choc spread plus the (not so fresh) banana
Ta-da!
It's so simple and it looks fantastic!
Learning points- 1. Always start with the butter! Hunt for the butter, melt it over steam bath (5 - 10 mins). Then in the meanwhile, prepare the other stuffs- sieve the flour, measure out the milk and sugar and etc. Maximises time!
2. It's impt to have consistency in the batter- Mix the eggs and flour first, then whisk in the milk and melted butter by the droplets, and never stop the whisking!
3. Don't use too much butter. Especially when coating the pan- cos it will cause the crêpe to burn too quickly. In fact, minimise the use of butter to coat the pan, the crêpe tastes much nicer and less oily.
Ok I have about 10 crêpes leftover after today's testing session.. They shall be breakfast for my family for the next day or 2! Yay!
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10:57 pm
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Saturday, December 19, 2009
Hmmmm lazing around on a Saturday night is actually turning out quite nice hehe.. Last min cancellation of plans, so I decided to finally get down to looking for that recipe.. Hey I'm serious and excited about the upcoming potluck!
We have finalised this year's theme- All-day breakfast! How cool is that! And we have to bring a dish that begins with our initials. Which, I realised, not many food ingredients actually begin with "J"- Jam, jelly, that's all! Though I can play cheat la- Jambon (French for ham), Jin Zhen Gu (Chinese for Enoki mushrooms) hahahaha..
Anyways. I have decided, I'm gonna make Jam & Assorted Crêpes yeahhh! I actually found Julia Child's "Crepes Fines Sucrees" on Epicurious! But the reviews are quite mixed and I found another recipe that got rave reviews.. So I'm gonna try that one. I'm gonna do a trial run this weekend, so gonna make the batter later hehe.. I've already bought 2 different jam spreads, hazelnut and banana spread and I've got choc spread at home wheeeeee.
Let's hope the batter turns out ok, and the crêpes turn out ok tmr! (It's supposed to be easy but uhm, I do not have a crêpe pan, I've gotta improvise with some stuffs as well, but hey, no excuses before I get started!)
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8:43 pm
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Thursday, December 17, 2009
Somehow, I got to reading my posts from exchange- happy, excited entries, and then some. And I think, I write a lot better back then. My words contained a lot more thought as compared to now? And it's ironic 'cos I remember that at that point of time (between Year 3 and Year 4), I felt a bit jaded and thought I wasn't writing that well. But now when I look back at it, it actually was quite alright. Maybe 2 years later when I read this post again, I will think that "Hey I think I wrote better in 2009 than now in 2011"? Haha..
Anyways nothing like shopping to bring smiles back into my life- bought a new cardigan jacket at almost 50% off at Mango sale today! Yipeeeee~~~
Actually, I am not unhappy or upset now, I am simply not feeling ecstatic. And that's ok right? It's not possible to be in a constant state of emotional high anyways right? I am actually feeling pretty alright!
Looking forward to the Christmas/New Year celebrations- Gotta go look a nice new recipe for the (what seems to be) annual New Year's eve potluck! :D
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12:34 am
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Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Today's achievement- 72mins 45secs - 10km Total dist ran- 11.5km Time taken- 80mins 30secs Total calories burnt- 730kcal
Yayyyy enough for a guilt-free KFC trip hehehee!
Seriously, today when I was running, it was numbness that took over me. My mind was just blank and all I concentrated on was breathing in on alternate steps to stop the stitches. And that got me to put 1 foot in front of the other for the entire distance.
In the end, it was pain that made me stop. But pain is good, the pain made me feel alive, like it obliterated any negative emotions I could have had. It kind of reminds me of a quote by Murakami that Jem recently requoted-
Haiz on the one hand it feels like the days seem to crawl (like huh, it's still Monday??), it also seems like time is flying (like argh it's Tuesday again, need to run).
On the one hand, it feels like the days seem to blend painfully into each other (like, when will I ever get out of this?), on the other hand, the days whizz by in the blink of an eye (like, oh wow it's been 1.5 months)..
I remember some time ago, I said that this should take 2 weeks or so, but now, over a month has passed. It's much easier though, guess I can take that much consolation. Doesn't mean I don't wish things could've been different, it just means that I've adjusted to it.
On 2nd thoughts, why not just be numb? Numbness is good.. Pass the numbness-inducers..
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11:24 pm
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Sunday, December 13, 2009
We headed to Privé at Keppel Bay to celebrate Kel's 2Xth birthday! We decided to give it a "blast from the past" feel so we behaved as if we were in college again- we blindfold the bday girl and brought her to an unknown location. Hope you enjoyed the really wild walk babe ;p
photos!
Dinner was a sinful afffair, with potato wedges drenched in truffle oil for starters (yummmm!), mains and desserts- walnut neopolitan cake & citrus and cream cheese cake, which were extremely rich but reallllly good.
After dinner, we walked over to a jetty of sorts and just chilled there for some time, just talking about nothing and everything. Really cosy and nice! We practically had the whole jetty to ourselves, it was so quiet!
Also managed to check out Zsofi at Dunlop Street, Little India area. I gotta admit I wasn't the most keen on the idea but thankfully, I just went along to the place- it's a gem! Cosy setting, cheap food and drinks, really a nice place to just kick back and chill. In fact, we were there for over 4 hours cos it's just so comfortable!
The hand-drawn decor, throwback cushions, carpetted floors- so grunge and backpacker like. Throw in music from our era and our liking- soft & alternative/indie rock, really good sangria at an affordable price that comes with free tapas samplers... it's a winner!
Must tries: Red sangria, Gambas al Ajillo (Shrimps sautéed with garlic and tomatoes), Albondigas (Homemade meatballs served with tomato sauce)
Ok, this weekend went pretty ok, now it's just a matter of 5 working days and the next weekend's here! Yipee!
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9:41 pm
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Saturday, December 12, 2009
I think I'm getting a bit desensitised to my surroundings? Just now I was talking to M/anu, who was happy to see me too, and we talked a bit about the next session and he invited me to join in his new class next Jan. I mean, I was happy to see him too, he's just so friendly, but I was also a bit numbed?
Been feeling like this a lot lately. It's not good man, I want to feel happy and excited about stuffs, I want to feel like I'm looking forward to something. Yeah sure, I'm hanging out, I'm doing things, I'm planning meet-ups and stuffs, but I don't feel like there's 1 particular thing that I'm very looking forward to? I don't want to be like that. It doesn't make me feel alive..
Oh well, shall continue to mull about it later, out for some dinner now!
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6:30 pm
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Thursday, December 10, 2009
I. Can't. Stop. Eating. Lately.
It's true! Ask the guys I went Genting with.. They can testify that I am the one who's always the first to say that I'm hungry haha! And even now, I just keep eating and snacking in between. It's super fattening man! I hope this phase goes away soon!!
Meanwhile, what can I do... Just give in to my desire to eat lor haha!
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11:28 pm
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Monday, December 07, 2009
I crave for many things- better handphone, new laptop, money to travel, place of my own, chance to meet Takeshi Kaneshiro (don't laugh)... Many things..especially you.
But I also know many things are not attainable (meeting Takeshi for eg).. So for now, I crave for something simple- I crave for potato chips. Not just any potato chips, mind u- I crave for the Sour cream & onion one.
Anws hmmmm has it already been a month and a half? Somehow I can't quite remember how or where did my time go to.. It really hasn't been a good month, has it? But anyway, that's that, and we have to look forward again with an open heart. Afterall, garde, au sein du malheur, l'espérance et la foi. Parce que sans l'espoir, nous ne sommes rien. Right??
This song always brings back memories from JC times..
Heh on my last day of leave before the year ends..
Anws back fr the short trip, some interesting sights, but I'm too lazy to tell. But. I did have some odd dreams during my 2 nights there.
Dream 1- 1st night, I dreamt that I was playing on Day 2, and in the dream, I told myself, must change enough base capital in order to have a chance. And I kept repeating that. Haha!
Dream 2- 2nd night (Fri), I dreamt that it was already Sunday and I am already back home. I was waking up in my dream and I found myself back in my own room, with no recollection of what happened on Sat and how I got home. I effectively lost a day. In the dream, I was already comfortably changed into sleeping clothes and I saw 4 new duty-free bottles lying around haha!
Dream 3- 1st night- I dreamt of that same person I had that meaningless options conversation with! It was a quick dream that flashed by.. I woke up in shock and was very bemused hahaha...
OK here we go, it's christmas season! :D
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1:11 am
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Thursday, December 03, 2009
Off for the weekend, be back on Sunday.. (Don't miss me too much!)
Pls miss me. I'll feel it.
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6:23 pm
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Tuesday, December 01, 2009
I realise, waiting is a very painful process. So if u are waiting for something, maybe u should go make it happen. Or, make a decision to stop waiting if u know it is futile. If u are making someone wait, then either do something to shorten their pain, or do something to end their misery. Because waiting is painful.
I think I choose Option B.
Today as I was waiting for my files to be sent to me, I started doodling some things in Chinese, and started reading some things in Chinese too. And I realise, I think writing in Chinese can sometimes express much more emotions than is possible in English.
Speaking about Options, I remember that once, I was on some frivolous conversation topic with a friend and somehow he mentioned something like "Ok, but I have the option of asking you to (do B instead)." So I told him all options come with a premium, and that mine costs USD 98,197,267. Hahaha I don't know why I just got reminded of this super nonsensical conversation and the totally meaningless number.. lmao....
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