Saturday, December 30, 2006

-patient impatience-

the past 2 weeks of late nights, not sleeping, boozing and basically screwing up my bio clock finally ends in me falling sick. hahaha what a way to end the year!

sometime in august this year, i looked back at the 7 months passed and felt sorry that my life this year was really uninteresting. it revolved so much around school (grand opening, to patron's day, and eventually exco) that i really have little time for anything else. no time for family, friends that matter, no time to meet new people and have fun. no time and no inclination.
after exams came internship and may till july was spent doing tax computations. by the time august came along, i felt like my life in terms of interpersonal relationships have gone totally stagnant.

fortunately, i had 7 days of bliss in bangkok where nothing could possibly bother me when chatuchak and mbk are staring at me in the face.

after i came back, the new term started. i managed to know some new people and got to know some other friends better (mainly the year 2s). i enjoyed time not spent studying and trust me, that equates to a lot of time. needless to say, my term gpa is the worst out of all my 2.5 years in smu. i've got lots of hard work to put in next term.

and now that the year is ending, i'm looking back again and i think.. you might not know it but thanks to you, the year doesn't seem as... uninteresting. so thank you for that at least.


these days looking at some things around me, i really wonder how do some people manage to leap so fast. i really do not know how. teach me please? cos i'm just stuck in this patient impatience.

that said though, i do believe 2007 will be a better year yet.


I think I'm going to Boston
I think I'll start a new life
I think I'll start over
No one knows my name
I'll get out of California
I'm tired of the weather
I think I'll get a lover
I'll fly them out to Spain

I think I'm going to Boston
I think that I'm tired
I think I need a new town
To leave this all behind
I think I need a sunrise
I'm tired of the sunset
Here it's nice in the summer
Some snow would be nice

Boston
No one knows my name


------ Wednesday, December 27, 2006

-1 down 1 to go-

1 week has passed, and 1 week more to go before the battle starts all over again!

the past week has been not bad at all:
- last min decision to mambo last wed (not a good idea at all - it was super packed)
- ama dinner at liang seah and stayover at huiying's place on thurs. our supposed mj session turned into a movie marathon where we watched flyboys, death note, cars and some episodes of my lovely samsoon.. quite an enjoyable nite in my opinion..
- dinner and minds cafe with the 3 guys. had a great time playing taboo!
- shopping with mum on sat
- wala's on xmas eve with kel, bain and her ntu frens.. quite fun!

just caught night at the museum with ray and ed.. it's a no-brainer, no-plot, sit-there-and-laugh-ur-ass-off kinda show. ben stiller is just darn funny!


and yipeee man utd is 4 points clear thru to the new year!

oh yeah broke as i am, i bought 2 books over the weekend: 'The Time Traveller's Wife'by Audrey Niffenegger and 'The Kite Runner' by Khaled Hosseini.. wow whee i'm broke all over again!

ok i'm lazy to go on so i shall stop.. a leaving thought..


c'mon lim jiahui make up ur mind. it can't be that difficult, right?


------ Tuesday, December 19, 2006

-why does it always rain on me-

heh this sounds like an apt title for the weather these days though the meaning behind the song title is totally different. it's been pouring a lot lately (as if anyone needs reminding). and since i've really been quite nua this hols, opening and closing the windows is about the most productive thing i've been doing at home. it's more productive than watching tv and foraging through the abundance of videos on youtube at any rate.

went to catch deja vu with yvonne in the afternoon and yeah, it's quite a good show. the ending really wasn't what i expected. thus in a way, it qualifies as a good show. denzel washington is really a great actor, that's all i can say.

actually during this hols, i've realised that doing things alone ain't as easy as it seems. it takes quite something to be able to bring yourself to go places alone and do things alone. but at the same time, i'm kinda enjoying it, i enjoy being with myself. i still don't like the feeling of eating alone though. it might sound easy enough, but it really isn't. like i've said before, as i grow up, i'm becoming more introverted, i like small groups, i enjoy some form of solitude, i can't seem to find things to say to people i don't really know and i'd rather listen than talk now. in short, i've become somewhat socially retarded. hmmm is this normal?

but really, i do think spending time alone is rather therapeutic. i'm considering catching a movie alone now. hahaha!


Why does it always rain on me?
Is it because I lied when I was seventeen?
Why does it always rain on me?
Even when the sun is shining
I can't avoid the lightning


------ Sunday, December 17, 2006

-刻骨铭心的爱-

ok no don't worry, i'm not feeling lovesick or lovelorn or whatever, i just watched too many dramas and movies that revolve around the love theme.. first there was 'my lovely samsoon', then 'friends 2002', and actually also 'it started with a kiss' (taiwanese drama on ch56, not as good though).. but those stories are just "awww so sweet" kind of love, and the one that falls under a grander love is that in 'house of flying daggers' (十面埋伏).. you have to marvel at the ability of the writers sometimes, their imagination and creativity is really quite something. ahhh not bad eh, seeing hyun bin, won bin and takeshi kaneshiro all in a week hahaha!


anyways, the streaming for youtube vids are usually quite ok for me, but it got unbearably slow on fridays and saturdays and the video add-on from firefox ain't all that good. so i went around surfing for a better method.. and lo and behold, i came across the 'unplug' add-on on firefox.. wow once u install it, u can simply go on to youtube, unplug the page u want, and download the vid! then simply use dr divx to convert the .flv files to .avi! simple as 123!! see how to do this here. word of caution thou - dr divx is still in beta stage and is rather retarded but there's an equally retarded way to get around that heh!
and so i've downloaded 'waterboys' and 'my brother' hahahahaa.. i'm gonna watch all i can now, to make up for a tough term ahead!


ok on another note.. this weekend, the fab 5 are supposed to be all over the place - anna in bangkok, ln returning from china, and ray going to jb. so the remaining 2 met up for an impromptu dinner on friday evening at yoshinoya and.... grocery shopping at carrefour. and this is the result:



ahhh viva la cornflakes and choc milk


------ Thursday, December 14, 2006

-MNIKSS-

over the past 4 days, i've been watching this real funny korean drama on youtube - my lovely samsoon 我叫金三顺. yes i know i'm slow, but i just didn't get to watch it on tv. it's real nice! super funny.. it really made me alternate between crying and laughing hysterically. i never knew a drama series can draw such emotions from me.. if you're as slow as me, you can watch them here - my lovely samsoon on youtube. granted, english subs aren't as good but hey, beggars can't be choosers.


much as i adore george clooney, richard gere, jude law and what nots, i've always preferred asian guys. and here's why:



from clockwise-
Lee Byung-Hun, he's really quite hot in 'all in' and 'everybody has secrets'

Won Bin, i must say, is south korea's cutest actor. first saw him in 'autumn in my heart' (秋天的童话 - oh gosh how long ago is this), then in 'friends 2002' and more recently in 'taegukgi - brotherhood' and 'my brother'. seems to have disappeared though.

Hyun Bin, lead actor in my lovely samsoon. he's really good looking in that show!

and i have to put him in even though he's not korean. simply because he's my all-time favourite:
Takeshi Kaneshiro - i think he needs no introduction and if i were to start, it'll take till tmr for me to stop. i particularly remember in 'golden bowl', he looked so good i can't help but exclaim 'he looks so good' every 5 seconds. no kidding.


ok i better stop before i go on to others like takashi sorimachi, yutaka takenouchi, takuya kimura and the rest. enough drooling. nathanael will get mad at me hahaha. 


------ Monday, December 11, 2006

-hi my name is nathanael-



hi, my name is nathanael and i'm 3 weeks old! i'm jiahui's new cousin! the reason i'm 21 years younger than her is because my mum is 10 years younger than her mum, and my mum married late and had me late! anyway, jiahui thinks i'm very adorable!



as you can see, she's obsessed with me!

i was trying to sleep!



but everyone kept disturbing me! keep making cooing noises, touching my hands, my cheeks and my bum. they blocked my oxygen supply and shook my baby bed.. so i shitted in my diapers to get back at them!



ahhh that feels good.. ok i'm only a baby, so i shall get back to sleep now! shall leave everyone with more pics of myself that they took! *yawns*




------ Friday, December 08, 2006

-animal farm-

ah well mambo on wed was not bad - music at phuture was real good, and it was fantastic running into jem seah and joyce. after jem left, and us 3 gals were left, it really felt like the sharks were circling around us. ah well. i used to say that clubbing makes u lose confidence in guys, and i still do think that way. like i always say, 男人都是泛溅的. in case the chinese words don't show up, it's nan2 ren2 dou1 shi4 fan4 jian4 de4 in pinyin. go figure. but oh well for guys to be fan4 jian4, there must be the girls who enjoy it right? i know i'm generalising, but hey i've experienced enuff to make this generalisation. that said though, wed nite was still pretty alright.


and man utd beat benfica 3-1 oh yeah! 3 headers, 1 each from a defender, a midfielder and a striker - and we're through to the round of 16! i could hardly contain my happiness sprawled across the sofa while huiying KO-ed comfortably on my bed.
anw watching late night soccer always reminds me of someone.. cai tianhao, hope u're doing fine wherever u are right now!


oh yeah yday after the national museum opening, i realised that i left my matric card in my bag, which was in the studio. luckily jeremy was just coming back from borders so hui ying and i waited for him to tap us in and once in, the 3 of us just took up extremely comfortable positions on the couch and across chairs and were just too nua to move around. we ended up talking from nearly 11pm all the way to past midnight. it was... comfortable and therapeutic in a way, talking to them.

and actually i found some writing on some paper that was rather disturbing to me, and i really don't think i want to know what inspired those writings.


anw i was digging through my cupboard looking for something decent to read some days ago and i found my old copy of 'animal farm' by george orwell, and so i began re-reading it. it's a very well-written book, i can fully appreciate the meaning behind the story now. it really is a true reflection of societies and morals, simply and brilliantly written as an animal rebellion.

the hols are here.. time to get more books to read. and may i ask, whose 'freakonomics' is that lying on the studio table? i wanna borrow! and who's hanging on to our copy of the lonely planet book?


------ Tuesday, December 05, 2006

-would u lie with me and just forget the world-


clearing my comm service hours at the national museum now at the corporate communications department. oh save me but i've been mundanely tying ribbons for the whole afternoon. and i'm going to mundanely tie ribbons for the whole of tomorrow too. ahhh all for the sake of clearing my remaining 28.2 hours.


been blog surfing for a while and went to some old friends' blogs and i realise, 3 years on and some things... just never change.
good, i guess. there's always comfort in familiarity.


------ Monday, December 04, 2006

i want you. i don't want you. i don't know you.


rarrr should i:
1) work for paltry pay (aka intern pay) back at EY and forsake all other holiday pleasures for money OR
2) be a broke but happy girl who can sing ktv, club, go for birthday parties, take up spanish classes and clear my comm service hours
i'm trying to see if i can do both options hahaha.


i'm here without you.

The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go


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ahhh well i was packing my table this afternoon, trying to sort out which are the papers i can use as rough paper (i made a resolution to try and figure out my FA before i actually face corp rep next term) and i realised just how many trees i must have killed this term..

 

back pic: the amount of notes i printed this term (both useful and erroneous printing)
middle pic: the pile of usable rough paper (!!)
front pic: the amount of paper i tore up and threw away (yes that's my transfer pricing article in the plastic bag) 


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-life's little indiscretions-

yay finally did some decent shopping today and finally made use of that zara voucher that's been sitting on my table for a couple of months. ooh zara rocks. i'm like attracted to everything from the denim to the nice tshirts and my favouritest of all, the winter wear. argh i just wish singapore will snow or at least have some decent cold weather.. i simply love trench coats and winter wear. i love the corduroy and the occasional simple fur collar. so niceeeeee! gahhhh i can't wait to go exchange when it snows!

anws it's always great meeting my 2 darlings and i can't wait for the 3rd darling to faster come back (though i'm sure she doesn't want to) from her exchange in manchester.. yes miss li, we miss u alot!!


on another note, i clicked on the "SMU Facils" group on my msn and i realised... there's this person who i still blocked! haha i totally forgot to unblock him! but yes i've unblocked already, stop saying i'm evil and i bo xim..


It won't do to dream of caramel
To think of cinnamon and long for you
It won't do to stir a deep desire
To fan a hidden fire that can never burn true

I know your name, I know your skin
I know the way these things begin

But I don't know how I would live with myself
What I'd forgive of myself if you don't go

So goodbye, sweet appetite
No single bite could satisfy

I know your name, I know your skin
I know the way these things begin

But I don't know what I would give of myself
How I would live with myself if you don't go

It won't do to dream of caramel
To think of cinnamon and long for you

'Caramel' ~ Suzanne Vega

1 of my most-listened-to chill-out songs. fantastico.


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